Drum for me, For the dawn I Sing; Hail! Hail! Soldiers of Art & Design Come Marching In!

Nyaaaaaa the time has finally come for my graduation showcase! 8D It's a bit late to promote, but here's the some of the banner designs I came up with.





Please come on down to Annexe Gallery, cuz we'll be going on for the whole week. Com and support us, cuz my God, we need it. XD lmao

Anyway, this showcase is important for us to show the world "Yeah, we're designers, and we're ready for the World dammit!" Or something like that. I think the theme is actually pretty cool though~ haha Soldiers of Art & Design.. yea we fuckeen rock. 8D So please do come~ students from masscom and photography (reaallly pretty work guys), and the rest of FOCAD (Faculty of Creative Arts&Design) are joining in, so it wont hurt to look yo. Especially if you've just finished school and interested in design. It could show you what you're about to do in college. SO SHOW YOURSELF. OR DIE! >D (yay sadist mode:on!)


Date: 12th April 2011-17th April 2011

Day: Tuesday- Sunday

Time: 11am - 5pm

Venue: The Annexe Gallery, Central Market.

Entry: Enter at your own risk (FREE ENTRY).

For more details you can check out the facebook page or can ask me via twitter, cuz you know I aint gonna come back here in a while lulz. =w=

P/s: seek skulls and you'll know its me.


Edit: Oh yeah, and here's a SUPER AWESOME vid promoting the event. You should watch it for the pure epicness of it. If that vid doesn't make you wanna see the event, still just come for the skulls. 8D

Of Death, Lies, Roses, Decapitation and Inception.

Hey budak! 8D

Ahhh, I missed me blog. Long time haven't been writing here... as usual, I found the time to update random crap cuz I got nothing else better to do. And as usual, from the tittle you probably know has nothing to do with what I'm gonna chatter on about.

Ok, the tragedy first.

My older brother pisses me off. He called my mom and told her he was frustrated why I gave up so easily going to Canada, and never doing what he asked me to do. In his mind that's typical Malaysians for you, their mindset at stagnation, negativity seeping into the brain sells like locusts.

You know, I AM a procrastinator, but the reason I didnt do those motion graphic tutorials that he asked me to do were because I DIDNT HAVE FRIGGIN TIME. Seriously, I was working from morning till evening, and get home late every night. Even if I wasnt tired and could do it, my younger brother needed the computer more than I did, as he was busy with his assignments. I mean, I hogged the PC everytime I'm in threat of being toast at the end of each semster, so it would only be fair to let him use it. (Yea we share the pc, we poor students, fuck off)

I dont do work Sundays cuz thats the only day I get a chance to relax. I always kept to that cuz I dont wanna end up being some person that misses out on living. Yea, you could say thats lame, but fuck you its my choice.

Then after a month waiting, my brother told me he didnt have any projects=no work=no money. He told me to just go borrow money from whoever I can. I mean, can you believe that? Not only do I have to pay for the tickets, but also visa and other things I might need. Wouldn't that trouble my mom and other people? He told me to claim my citizenship and all, but might I remind him that I'm going for my practical training only? Like, thats for less than 2 months. Its not worth it, cuz I'm still on loan, and I cant simply just become Canadian you know. If the college finds out then I would have to pay International fees now wouldn't I? Then tell me who is the one that will be suffering? Our mother right? pffft.

But screw that, the thing I'm angry about is that he said I gave up too easily. I mean, REALLY? For God's sake. I can only say if I am one to give up that easily, I wouldn't be living rite now. Even if I was, I wouldn't be here, or I wouldn't recognize the people I love. I would never have imagined he would say something that hurt me so much, never imagine he would make me cry. Thats why I have trust issues. Everytime I lean on someone, or hope for their support they turn around and abandon me. But I cant say that to my brother. I could never tell him how I feel, cuz I know that would hurt him and I'd rather be it me thats in pain than him.. he suffered enough.

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Ok enough of that crap. Take a look at cute Pomeranian Puppies.

Ok enough of that.

I watched the very awesome Inception the other day. And another day. And planning to watch it again. Cuz it feels like a dream you dont wanna end, like when you have a really cool dream then you suddenly wake up, and you try falling back to sleep in hopes you redream it. Thats how awesome it is. I mean, the flow of the whole movie is just so beautiful, especially the climax. How it starts off (the climax) and little by little it build up untill the explosive peak.

Its just so perfect, and thats saying something. I just love how the movie itself is an original concept (yes you can see influences from other movies and stuff, and YES I know about the Scrooge comic, and its mind blowing, but.. screw it. :D)

Ok, even if it wasn't original if you choose to believe Chris Nolan stole it from Scrooge, the way he executed the damn movie was beautiful. The slow motion and the zero gravity.. fuck yes. And the part where they're in the van and everything is slowing down and they're arms and legs go up so beautifully when the van swivels left and right, up and down... the stupid audience I was watching it with were laughing at those parts. I didnt think it was funny at all, hell, seeing the motion they created was just spectacular. All the characters were interesting, lovable, they were human yo. Shit, I wanna write something better than crap I'm talking about here, but my mind is blown.

One thing for sure is, and I quote from @NathanFillion, " Inception. All I'm gonna say is: Hotel hallway. That's a long way from 3rd Rock from the Sun. Nice. "

Yea, my thoughts exactly! Holy shi--- mind especially blown when I realized that dude kicking asses at zero gravity was that teenage alien dude with long hair. I mean, SHIIIIIITT. Its like, watching Keanu Reeves in Bill& Ted then watching him in The Matrix... one right after the other... only like 5 times more mind blowing, cuz I've never seen Joseph Gordon-Levitt star in anything except 3rd rock! THEN I REALIZED HE WAS COBRA FRIGGIN COMMANDER! @_______@ *OKIMMAFANGIRLHIMNOW 8D*

Awesome poster for awesome movie

And the alien teams up with Jack

You've come a long way, my son. We are proud.

I also bought the new Darren Shan book, The Thin Executioner. Really an interesting read, although not as gripping as Cirque, nor as gory as Demonata. I really think all Malaysian children should read Thin Executioner, as it really stresses on respecting other cultures, races, religions and just have respect for one another. The book follows a young son of an executioner, who was dishonored by his father in front of his whole village. He then decides to go on a journey to regain his honor, respect and the hand of his love. Accompanied by a slave that must sacrifice himself for his family, they both encounter hardships and adventure that teaches us all very good lessons.

Still, I prefer blood, brains, and gore. 8D

The days I realize I wasnt really living, but not at all dying.

Wow I havent been blogging at all. HAH! Thought I was dead dint you? DIDNT YOU?!
Well, not yet at least~ 8D

Yea so I've started my internship already, and as I foresaw I didnt get to go to Canada. Fuck. I dont wanna talk about it, cuz it stabs me in the heart everytime I think about it. =.=
But aside from that, I'm doing ok where I am now. To say its not as good as being in Canada.. well.. pfft, but hey, at least I'm still learning here. You know being an eccentric-dont-give-a-damn kinda designer, being in a corporate environment helps a lot to understand what corporate people want, and how they look at things. Its pretty hard coping with what they want and expect, but its all good.


Lately I've been really emo~ not that emo emo, but depressed, to the extent I think I need professional help XDD. What problems I have.. well not really the kind of problems you find in a telenovela, but sometimes things just get out of hand.

Look at this cute thing. K-k-kawaii~!! Less than 3!!

It doesn't help when your whole family is against you. You know, when a friend goes and betrays you it really hurts, but what if your own flesh and blood does that? I'm not saying my family doesn't love me... not at all, but.. its just weird... how I always find myself crying alone at night. *sigh*


Which brings me to the point of blogging about stupid crap like my depression. See, I know, my life was meant to be a crappy one. Not crappy la, but not full of excitement and ambition my mind dreams of. Just a normal everyday life maybe, if I'm lucky. But for now, my life is like the lowest depths of low. To the point I get suffocated and wish that one day someone will come and save me. But this here is reality, and in reality, I gotta save myself dammit. Cuz no fucking dude is gonna come and reach out, so I gotta pull myself up, and then become the dude that saves the lost. Thats what all those nights of tears and self pity taught me. In other words, throw everything at me, cuz as long as I keep to the promises I made to myself, I refuse to succumb to the fear in me.

The promises I made to myself, it keeps me going, keeps my head up.

If death comes and takes me today, I regret not living. Not living life the way I wanted to. Not being a good enough muslim, not being a good enough daughter or sister or friend or person. But thats humans for you, never good enough, never happy with what they have.


I dream; I dream of being someone who creates art, masterpieces. Recently I've been introduced to videos, which is awesome. I love movies~ one day... maybe I can make my own~ But what I dream the most about... is being free. My mother doesn't care if I wanna go out, as long as I dont bother her. But I'm not talking about that kinda freedom. Its just so sad... there is nothing really I can say I'm free to do. I dream of a world with no boundaries, but what I am in now is like a box. Closed box~

R.I.P Milla Jirojovich, Mommy loves you forever.

Its funny how I write about crappy crap first then something totally different at the bottom. XDD Then back to total crap. Bwahahahaha XDDDD

So, my baby Jiro died last May. I was heartbroken, my baby... Jiro was so smart, like the most smartest cat in the world I tell ya. Other cats are just at her mercy. pfft.

Jiro... she loved the outside. I brought her home cuz her owner had to keep her on the balcony when she was away cuz her other cats would chase and scratch her. She was smart enough not to jump off~ :D

When I first brought her home I remember her mouth was foaming... my mother thought she ate a frog.. but no, she was just super paranoid. XDD Like me!! *awww sho cute~*

Jiro kun would always go out and hang out on the roof. She hated being kept inside, she only came back to eats and sleep and play with me sometimes when it got too hot to stay outdoors~

But she got sick... my mom said not to let her out, cuz if she did go out, she'd never come back. So I put her in my brother's room (he doesn't use it, its empty) and spent her dying days in there. She'd always beg to come out, and sit near the door so she could have an opportunity to run. But I still didnt let her go out. I said to her "Jiro, kalau jiro baik nnt mommy bwk kluar ok?"

But a few days went past and she died

I got home and found her by the door

She wanted to go out and taste her freedom just one more last time.

Jiro baby, mommy is so sorry. Mommy regrets not taking care of you properly, not letting you out when I knew you wanted to see feel the wind again. Pls forgive mommy. Mommy loves you forever.

At least now you arent tied down, you dont have boundaries you have to keep to.

You're not living in a closed box.

Welcome to the Dead Leaf Parade.

So yea, now for real updates.

First of all... SHOUJO MANGA BANZAI!! rofl, I'm so loving shoujo manga now... the comedy ones, mind you.. definitely NOT Vampire Knight and the like~

And you know why? Because of bishies. Yes, i like them more straight. LMAO!! Yaoi hinting is nice, but to have them wasted on fellow guys are just a waste~ T*T

Ok, honestly, I dont really read a lot of shoujo manga, and most of them are insanely intolerable, especially those where the characters have eyes as bigs as melons. But, there are a few that are really good~ Skip Beat, Kaicho wa Maid sama, High School Debut, one shots from Motomi Kyousuke, my fave shoujo mangaka and I recently started reading Oresama Teacher.. damn hawwwwwwt~ *nyappy~*

Switch girl is also good, cuz the heroine is just crack (pun not intended). Wallflower is good because of Nakahara Sunako, a girl I wish to be very much. But ultimately, Mogami Kyouko from Skip Beat has got to be the luckiest (well, after her bad luck streak la) girl ever. She has the most popular actor in Japan, 2 (scary and hawwt) vk rockers plus some other dudes trying to win her heart.. the best part is... SHE HAS NONE!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

Ohh did I mention the actor dude is also scary? I think he's probably the most scariest in the manga, after Kyouko. I think I have a thing for scary guys like that. It makes me wonder if I'm really a masochist. Hmmm~~ lol random

[ok REAL update now]

I'm now into my 6th semester, so next semester which will start in June (I think) I'll be starting my friggin internship!! BWAAHHHH~!! I cant wait to get out of tht dumbass college. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!!

So right now, I'm trying to hunt down my work so I can add them to my so empty portfolio. T*T

My mother wants me to balik kampung for my practical.... in other words, go back to Canada~ for like, 3 months.. until Raya. So if I do go there, I would be fasting there.... "orz you have to wake up at 4 dammit~

KAYKAY!! HIKARI!! ANEUE WILL MISS YOU DEARLY!! That is.. if I go... I dont wanna get my hopes up or anything, anything can happen you know... the thing is my mom is like, dead set on sending me away~ =w=

I just hope I can still be able to be a hikikomori if I go there~

Aside from going there, I'm interested going to Animasia or some publishing company that my friends are aiming for. It'd be cool if you get to do your practical with people you know.. it makes being anti social easier.. you dont need to socialize as much with people you never met before. Rofl.

Incomprehensible logic from hell, I know. XDD

P/S: I forgot to make a post tribute to Ruki during his birthday. T*T gomen ne, taka chan. But I think I got it covered... all over... my blog... his smexxy face~~ *drools* Happy Belated Bday though darling~ Love you~ ngeeeeeeeeee~~ :3

Oh Kenken... I need to post more of your pics~ Do you realize how much I love you? This ai'nt healthy man~ T*T Ahh.. fuck whoever, I cant stop loving you. Take that, *********

btw, *cough* encik senior sudah single balik. from what i've been stalking la. 8D

die die die my darling

i thought after a while it would've died away already
honestly i did think so
but then today when you came
suddenly i felt the pain
damnit, why'd i have to let myself be so vulnerable?
was it just because i wanted to know what it was like?
to have that bubbly feeling, happy always in the inside?
was it just so i could feel attached to someone?

im sorry, i made you like my toy
im paying the price i assure you
i dont know why
i do feel the pain
the ache
again
and again
makes me hate myself
it makes me feel ashamed i let my heart be free and naive
i wish i could go back
and keep everything inside
all the nonsense emotion
thats the person i was
and thats the person that i am
for i am the solitude shadow
being left behind
but watching closely
i can be your friend
i can be your enemy
but in the end, i still remain alone
though i am grateful for the few people that come my way
eventually they will leave
so i guess thats what made me do it
and now i regret
im sorry~

Dream come true? XDD

lol. but that was a long time ago, ne? XDD

Of the Supernatural and ...Merlin~ *and spoilers galore!*

Ok, before I forget.. HAHAHAAHA PON CHYAN!! I WAS RIGHT DAMMIT!!!!! SEE MY AWESOME THEORY OF SAM'S ROLE IN SUPERNATURAL!!! fuck, but still... lame... >.>

ok, spoiler:

lol-ed so freakin hard at Dean's attempt to corrupt Castiel. hahahaha Ohh.. the joy of watching those two... i wish i could yaoi them... ahahaaha Castiel's face was so funny!!! And I want surprised the hooker went out screaming~ hahahahaha!! well, at least it was because of nothing I would *cough* have imagined *cough*

Just stick to the basics, DO NOT order off the menu!

Moving on... Merlin has come back into my life, and I am happily fangirling Arthur again, played by teh most awesome Bradley James~ And.. in the first episode of the second season, we first see him... scruffy, just woke up and not wearing a shirt... (nosebleed) ahhh... that scene was MADE FOR THE FANGIRLS!!! AND I LOVED IT!! KYAAAAAAAA!! (<--- mandatory fangirl scream) But the thing is, I'm so pissed off at the direction of the series is going...

*spoilers!! spoilers!!!*


Ok, we see in season 1, Gwen was like, all over Merlin, and Arthur had something for Morgana right? So what the hell, come in season 2, where the hell did these "moments" between Gwen and Arthur come from? I mean, the only hint of it in season 1 was the last episode where Arthur was sick and dying AND unconscious and Gwen was by his side, saying those "ganbatte" lines or whatever... and in the series, Gwen just so happens to be a maid! WTH?!! The people behind the series just want to make up this sorry excuse for a love tragedy or something? And would Merlin be ok with ArthurxGwen, since in the trailer of one of the episodes he was kissing Gwen, but crying at the same time~ And he was the one with all the "moments" with Gwen, so HE TAKE GWEN LAAA!!! (huh! yes kay! LET SHE BE WITH MERLIN!! BWHAHA!!)



It'll be much more interesting if Arthur were paired up with Morgana, since she's a seer, and Uther really wants magical beings to die. Imagine, Arthur eloping with Morgana for fear of Uther~ But then he wouldn't get the throne now would he? But it still would be much more interesting if he was with Moragana nonetheless. Anyway, Gwen would also bring the downfall of Arthur, the Old Dragon should tell that to Merlin. Tell Merlin he should kill Gwen. haahahahahahahahaa!!!! DIE BITCH!! DIE!!!!!!!!

(In the legend Gwen commits adultery with Lancelot, henceforth brings the downfall of King Arthur, Arthur went out to kill Lancelot, putting Gwen under Mordred's care but later married her and stole the thrown. Arthur killed him, but was wounded and was brought to Avalon (or on the lines of something like tht =.=). If you remember, Mordred was the druid boy Merlin and Morgana tried to save, even after being told by the dragon he'd be the death of Arthur.. ironically it was Arthur that sent him back to his people.)

Another thing I want to clear up for some Merlin fans is about Excalibur. In the series Merlin went and threw the sword in a lake. Some people said this was stupid, because, well, in all places why the hell throw it in a lake? This is because in one of the Arthurian legends, Arthur receives Excalibur from the Lady of the Lake, also known as Nimueh.

Speaking of Nimueh, in one of the legends, she is supposedly Merlin's apprentice and later Merlin falls in love with her, building her a house by the lake of Diana. Merlin tells her a weird story of Diana and her lover, how she trapped her lover and poured hot lead onto him (as if there isnt another way to kill a guy) so she could be with some knight. The guy saw how fucking assed crazy Diana was and so he cut of her head and threw her body in the lake. This kinda mirrored what Nimueh did later on, as she trapped Merlin in a tomb (Merlin saw it coming, he but he didnt do anything and just went on teaching Nimueh everything he knew).



So, like hell I'd end this post without mentioning Morgana's original character. Her actual name is Morgan le Fay, alternatively known as Morgana which I like to call her. So in the legend, she's a badass powerful enchantress, the antagonist of King Arthur and Gwen. Contrary to the series, Gwen and Morgana really do hate each other... she's still Arthur's half sister (different father), in later literature she is Arthur's healer and one of the enchantresses that takes him to Avalon.

After being forced to marry one of Uther's allies, she is unhappy with the marriage and takes on a string of lovers, later being caught by Gwen and thrown out. She then continues studying magic, at one point being a student under Merlin while plotting against Arthur and Gwen. Morgana was the one who stole Excalibur's scabbard and threw it in the lake, never to be found. It is said it had magical powers itself, the bearer would not bleed to death in battle. She also was the one who exposed Gwen and Lancelot (yeaahhh!! go girl!!) and used Mordred as a pawn in her game. But at the end of one legend, all her evilness was said to be a test for Arthur and his knights and to scare the shit out of Gwen (yes, im reading wiki). Anyhow, Morgana still rocks. XD Oh and I'm wondering if she'll become the evil person she is in the series, last season we saw her almost embracing her evil side, having almost killed Uther... but that didnt work out now did it? hmm... might be interesting seeing her joining the dark side. haha


And after all this, why you ask, WHY do I still watch Merlin, eventhough it has been butchered and become so.. corny as to draw in interest from the t.v couch potatoes of the world?

The answer is Bradley James. lol. *nosebleed*

Sorrow Made Me.

Finally, we get back to class after 3 weeks of holiday.. well, holiday for everyone except me la.
Anyway, this sem im taking 4 subjects... interestingly all of them have different lecturers and classes~ weeeeeee~

Research Project, taught by Mr. Daniel and Multimedia Design2 with Shahrulnizam on Wednesday
Animation 2 with the communist dictator on Thursday
and Drawing Concept 2 with Encik Dugong aka Mr. Lim on Friday~

ahahahahahaha!!!!!! You do know what that means right? XDXDDD

1) I FREAKIN PASSED MY FRIGGIN ANIMATION 1!!!!!!!!!! XDDXDDXDDD LOL
2) I STILL CONTINUE MY REGIME OF HATING MONDAYS AND STAYING HOME ON TUESDAYS!! XDD

hmmmmmmm~~~~ but my mural painting still not finish la... i wonder when i'll get to continue? im so lazy~~ theres a lot, and most of it is the higher parts where its hard for a short person like me to reach.. moreover im afraid of heights *epic phail*

tch. baaaaaaaaaaahh.. anyway, i'll still have to do it. i'll just gamble my freakin life on the stupid ladder~ who else is gonna do it? ne? XD

*ganbatte, miyuki! Y^Y*

*Insert completely unrelated title here*

Nyaaaaaaa~ wonderful people of planet Earth! Mari peluk! XD

I'm now on holiday from stupid college now.. but i still need to come back everyday.. why? Cuz I'm makin your damn college walls more beautiful. Right now me and Jeradine are doing a massive collaboration in the stairwell of Segi.. and its damn hard. Everyday I go home with dirty clothes and a pained neck. For what? For the satisfaction of having (finally) somoething of mine admired by fellow students and lecturers.

pffft.

Also, to vivi chan... GOMENASAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My lovely phone got problems, so I recieved your sms of distress a bit very late... T^T *phail* Anyway, as to your question, I'll answer it here, albeit being several weeks too late. If im not mistaken you asked which would I choose, money or love, ne? I choose.. money XD

See, when people say money cant buy you happiness, their wrong. Money does make you happy. And what? If you're broke, you can be happy? Please, take a look in reality, do you think when you dont have money, even if you have wonderful friends and a family that cares can make you happy? In this corrupted society? No...
And love? hahahaha... love is a wonderful thing.... i wont deny it. With love you feel the world and all its filth is nothing to you. You see beauty, you see... whatever you want to see. But with love, comes pain, and its a bittersweet pain to feel, but not all love stories have a happy ending. And hell, where can love get you? It can make you a better person, a better human... it can make you stronger and all, but in this day and age, it will eventually fade, and get you nowehere.

You are alone dakara.

Well, thats coming from a child of a broken home, with a history of betrayal and distrust~ ahhh.. how wonderful love could be if i could actually feel it~ *phail*

Anyway, vivi chan~ me sorry for leaving you hanging... *hugs* gomen ne~ *give candy*



And we come to another friend... i dont know what to do with you. I still dont know where I stand. Do you even see me as a friend? Why must blogging be the only way of communictaion between us... you suck. You are so lame.... it seems that i am no more use to you.


And thus, i am alone again~

*Sigh* MatsuKen............... why you hurt me also? Im so sad... all you like in women...
*starts to cry*
You only like mature women~
Older girls...
Like Koyuki~
*cries even harder*
So if a girl isnt mature, does that mean she isnt strong? You make me feel so sad...


But I still love you~

I'll be fangirling Ruki for now.... untill Koyuki is no more~
T^T

Another emo story.

Wicked Cats, In The Corner, Please!

When the hell will I get to see Merlin again? I'm so damn bored~~ urggghhhhhhhhhhhhh

Stupid British TV only will air it sometime in September I hear.. damn. And Im still waiting for the 5th season of Supernatural.. they said its gonna be the last season, and im dying to find out what the hell is gonna happen. I got my own theory, but its so obvious it will suck if it really happens. Come on, surprise me!

Speaking of which.... it has been a long time since I watched Gaki no Tsukai... I miss Hamada and Matsumoto.... *sigh* I wish I could watch someone kicking someone else's ass for no good reason at all.. its fun you know..

All hail Prince Arthur!! (Bradley James, yeay!!)

I am Miyuki's Weird Eating Habit

For a person with such a physique as mine, I find it kinda weird that I'm so picky when it comes to food..

And I have nothing else to blog about. But Im bored desu kara.

Me Dont Like!

: Curry
I can tolerate it, but me still dont like it. Especially when it comes with rice, for some reason.

:Spicy Food
Sakit perut laaa... when food is too spicy you cant actually taste the food... pfft.

:Certain Seafood
I dont eat sotong, ok. Certain types of fish, more often processed (i.e: breaded fish, keropok lekor), but rarely in its true form. I like Dory fish though. Ikan Selar is for my cat. XD
And I like prawns... espeially tempura, hahahaha. Hard to say about crab.. I'm not used to the taste yet, but who knows in the future? XD

:100% Sugar
Like the gigantic colorful lollipops L always has.. and I like cotton candy only if its fresh from the machine (cuz its cool X3)

:Dont like chilli sauce >.<''
Don't even try to put it in front of me while I'm eating. Makes me nausea.. sorry if I offend anyone. :P

:I dont like the yolk part of telur asin. XD
whaaat? the yolk tastes weird la. XDDXDD

:When I order Mee Goreng Mamak, I mean MEE GORENG MAMAK.
When I order something specific, I expect to recieve it. If the waiter brings me something else, I wont eat it, out of principle. If the waiter comes back and says they dont have it and offers something else, than I'll consider it. But if they pandai2 tukar, than pandai2 la kau makan sendiri.

:I know when you give me leftovers.
I can tell. I am therefore, the daughter of a chef.
I dont mind la if im eating at home, but if dining out, i will scream.

:Food that seem too "exotic" for their own good.
Please, no escargot.

:Food that has weird textures.
Its not tottaly a lost case. I may try something.. but I'll be very weary... XD

:Durians, Jackfruits and the like... XD

Am i missing something..? Maybe got a bit more, but those are the main things I annoy most people about. XD
I wouldnt bother going in about the things i like... XDXDD

Wheeeeeeeee!!!! TAAAAAGGGGG~ =.=

Ahaaa... again.

You've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with the ABC's of YOU. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you - but not in a creepy stalker kind of way.


A- ANIMARU PUNCH NO GUMI! HAIYAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!

B- Black.. x blh dipisahkan!! bwahahahahahaha!!!

C- Cheerios~ me love that damn cereal!

D- Deviousssssss....... >D And detective drama fckin rocks.

E- Extremely nerdy.

F- Frankie~ Onii chan that me love the most!

G- Gazette ROCKS!

H- Hamada Masatoshi... me fave sadist

I- Im not gay. XDXD

J- J-rockin' yo!

K- Kay Kay! Kawaii best spammer buddy~ hug aneue! XDXD

L- Linkin Park 4 Life!

M- Matusyama Kenichi... I FREAKIN LOVE YOU! MY DAMN OBSSESSION!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

N- No Talent. No life. My future scares me... T^T

O- OTAKU DESU! XD

P- Procratinator. Ahhh.. damn.. so many...assignments... TT__TT

Q- Queen of the Distress and Coma HAPPY Underworld

R- albeit all my nerdyness and lifeless life i have.. i.do.seriously. ROCK.

S- Shagy.. me awek sejati. XD

T- Tora is one hot guitarist... (ok, i ran out of ideas.. =.=)

U- Uruha... is also a hot guitarist, but me dont like him for some reason.

V- Vivi chan that tagged meh. (I think.. cant remember... =.=)

W- W A F F L E S.

X- Xarel.. name of some random person who failed at stalking me... >D hahaha, YOU SHALL NEVER WIN! XD

Y- Yagami Raito supporter! And you thought I'm an L follower... HAH!

Z- zzZZZZZzzzzz... me love sleeping.

And I tag.. shagy!! XDXD
and everyone else who reads this! XD

ngeh. im lazy to read this... SO WHAT DAMMIT? DO I CARE?? BAHHHHHHHHH!!

Syafiq tagged me on facebook... but me too lazy to paste it there~

Go to this page and find out about thyself~

Mine ish: =.=''
Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Oh, teman.

Tukar bahasa, gunakan B.M lak~ hahaha.. (yea, and may you all MARVEL AT MY BEAUTIFUL BM!!! XDXD MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Anyway, aku ade sorg kawan ni~~ Name die.. pendek kata, shagy.
Shagy ni.. kt blog die ade tulis bnde ntah cm "The old me is dead and gone.. blablabla, somethingsomething bnde x menarik"
ok.

So, short story pompuan ni ckp die menyesal (?) or dgn diri die yg dulu..or diri die yg dulu ni skang dh mati, mampos xlyn kaa?

Kamu nehh.... menyesal sgt ke ng diri ko yg lame hah?
Ko bangga laa ngn diri ko yg skarang ye?

Oh, aku bkn ape... si shagy ni.. best friend aku.. aku fhm sgt laa ape yg terkandung dlm isi otak die tu... xde bende ponn. haha.

Tp yg aku nk ckp skang ni...
Kenapa mesti menyesal ngn diri kamu yg dulu? (And I'm not just talking about shagy here!)
Tapi, bukan ke... diri ko yg dulu tu laa... mengubah jadi diri ko yg skarang?

Yea, aku benci, menyesal, ntah ape kejadah lagi feeling kt action aku from the past, tapi, tu sume dijadikan pengajaran weiyhh.... Jadikan sebahagiaan drpd diri ko yg skarang.


Oh cgy-cgy.. aku nantikan saat ko nk bwk aku gi funfair. AKU NAK PEGI FUNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!
p/s: weiyh smalam aku jmpe bdk cm ramadhan seyh~ lalalalala


Ahahaha.. ckp psl kawan.. teringat si Bedah... Fatin oh Fatin~ kemana kau menghilang ohh rakan evilku?
Fatin ni pn satu... menghilang gi Holland... you better bwk balik BELGIUM CHOCO utk aku. Or else expect more fish tagging pictures of you on Facebook! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!
Dah tu hari tu janji nak bg poster L Change the WorLd.. baahhh... mesti abang ko x amek kn...hmph.... mesti ko xde ckp pn ngn abang ko suro amekkn utk aku kn... <.<


Oh, Kenichi...
teringat plk PC baby aku... sian die... hanging lagi... myawwww..... sorry baby.. mama yg bersalah~~ T^T
Haritu aku bkk cr lgu jpn aku...
dan sangat kecewa....
lagu2 yg latest download sume hilang...
ALICENINE AND GAZETTE WEIYHHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TTTT_____TTTT

demo, yg paling buat aku sedih... lagu OH MY JULIET hilang.
Oh... no, no, babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TT^TT

Grey would be the color.... if I had a Heart~

One day...
I'm gonna runaway.
I wont regret
And I wont turn back.
Till then, I'll just have to hold on
Wait silently, for my time to be forgotten and gone.
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I still recall the taste of your tears
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ear
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
Scraping through my head
'til I don't want to sleep anymore

You make this all go away
I just want something I can never have
You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now
This thing is slowly taking me apart
Grey would be the color if I had a heart

You'll make this all go away
I just want something I can never have
In this place it seems like such a shame
Though it all looks different now
I know it's still the same
And everywhere I look you're all I see
Just a fading reminder of who I use to be

Something I can Never Have, Flyleaf

I'm a FREAKIN GENIUS!

You know.. in my last post i said i was really into TTGL... im always at some point randomly fangirling something to the point it will get me into trouble.

DAMN!!!!!!!!

TTGL- episode 4~ downloaded at anime-eden.com
was REWATCHING it..

the first time when i dl the episode, i left it in my "downloads" folder... i couldnt move it to me "anime" foleder for some reason..
i tried to move it yesterday~ and still couldn't.. it said it was open in a different folder..blabla

so i decided to delete it, cuz i needed to arrange my files, etc to save my precious RAM...

and being the fcking genius i am, i DRAGGED the thing to the recycle bin. Accidently left it on my desktop though.....
dakara....

"windows has stopped working" over and over and OVER again.

I cant find a way to delete the stupid thing!!! I tried everything!!!!!!! omigosh... im gonna die..... IM GONNA FCKIN DIE!!!!!!!!!


Im.... falling...deeper... into despair.................... why world, WHY??!!??!!!

I want to be a hikikomori!

I'm bored. And cold.

And I took my L nendoroid picture and made it into a random desktop wallpaper.

Cuz people say my wallpaper is always empty and too simple I tried to do one with more things going on. I have no idea if I failed or passed. All I know is that I love alice nine.

I love my Gintama Surprise one though.. <33

I want to become a true blue hikikomori!! (Not a spamming-hikiko, ok, a REAL one)

Because I am an Evil Tagging Person...

And I tag.. YOU!

Dear tagging people... in my recent tagging affair, the 12 character thingy.. yea.. well, i did that as an experiment.... <.<

Etoo... well, I was curious on how people would react if i directly and specifically tagged them, and and what they would say at my ever so lovely nicknames I gave everyone...

And the result: you guys didnt dissapoint. I guessed who would and wouldnt answer me tag....XDXDXD although i didnt expect some things... like Lulu onee chan didnt even notice I tagged her.. hahaha~ Or Hiro kun didnt bitch about me calling him ecchi hebiwolf~~ but I swear i could feel his anger yo... hahahahhaah XDXDXDD

Or shagy actually LIKED being called Ratu Shark Poyo.. =.=

I actually learned a lot from everyones reactions.. baahhh~ I wont reveal anything here though~ hahaha >D

I appoligize if anyone feels used~ hahah admit it, that tag was fun~~ XDXD I love tagging~

Bwahahahaha! I AM AN EVIL TAGGING PERSON!

I stole this from a German/Polish/Swedish/I dont know actually person. >D
Jyaa, follow the very little instructions, and pick fictional characters~

Choose 12 characters, then answer the questions.

1. Sakata Gintoki- Gintama
2. Yagami Raito- Death Note
3. Osaki Nana- Nana
4. L- Death Note
5. Enma Ai- Jigoku Shoujo
6. Dean Winchester- Supernatural (ok. im watching supernatural and loving it~ =.=)
7. Harry Potter- Harry Potter
8. Neo- The Matrix
9. Edogawa Conan- Detective Conan
10. Merlin- Merlin
11. Kagura- Gintama
12. Mogami Kyouko- Skip Beat

1. Who could be better professor on the college, 6 or 11? Which subject could they teach?

DEAN! Definitely Dean~ haha.. forever shall I be awake in class... and if it was Kagura.. OMG.. everyday sukonbu! And she'll steal my candy! And never understand cuz of her weird accent!

Dean- Mechanics and stuff about engines and cars~
Kagura- Culinary Arts

But seriously, both can teach physical education best.. LOL!


2. Do you think that 4 is sexy? How much?

HELL YEAAAAAAHHHH! Smexy to the power of infinity! YAY for sugar-addict weirdos!

3. 12 sends 8 on a mission. What kind of mission is this and will it be succesfull?

Ok, Kyoko gets this character that is supposed to be a super hacker and orders Neo to prep her for the part. Neo, being the super complicated paranoid being he is, interprets this as Kyouko wanting to mentor him on ways to surpress his evil inside him and thus becoming the pure chosen one Morphius has been bitchin' everyone about. Neo takes Kyouko through backdoors and questioning "why must Kyouko become a hacker" and "Is Kyouko even real" and "Why am I listening to someone who isn't even real, but seems so real, but in fact is just a 2d being"?

bla, bla, bla.... yea, PHAIL.

4. What is (or could be) favourite book of 9?

duhhh.... SHERLOCK HOLMES! hahaha, too easy~ (and to think he would be no.9..)

5. What could make more sense: That 2 is telling dirty things to 6 or 6 to 2?

omgomgomgomgogmg... LOL RAITO TELLING DIRRRTY THANGS TO DEAN~ XD oh, yagami kun, you~ hahaha XD
(for the ignorant, its obviously Dean who'll be talking dirt.)

6. For some reason, 5 looks for a lodger. Should s/he live with 9, or 10?

For some reason... Enma Ai gets kicked outta hell. And since Conan kun is a man(yea, MAN) of science, than Ai chan would be better of with Merlin. Oh, Merlin.. he'd love to become Enma's apprentice, wouldn't he? XD


7. 2, 7 and 12 are eating dinner/supper together. Where will they go and about what they will talk?

WOW. Immpressive. Etoo... Raito kun will be tempting Kyouko with his Death Note, saying that she can easily get rid of Shou with the flick of her pen... And Kyouko will be goin' all Princess Underworld... liking the ideas of killing Shou in various ways and getting away with it. I see... Raito kun and Kyouko become a very nice match. WOOO! Cool fan-fiction weiyh! Oh yea.. and Harry will be just staring into space.. being quiet... and looking down at his meal..... thinking that using that Death note is a convinient way to kill Voldermort. :D


8. 3 challenges 10 for a duel. What happens?

And Merlin shall fall.... due to the ultra-awesomeness of NANA! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!


9. If 1 could steal 9's most precious thing, how 9 could get it back?

With his abnormal detective skills... pfft. <.<

10. Suggest a title for the tale, where 7 and 12 get the thing they always wanted?

REVENGE OF THE PURE HEARTS

11. What would you think up (in storyline) if you want, that 4 and 1 would be together?

OMG. MORE SUPER COOL/WEIRD FANFICS! YAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaOoooooooOOOOOOOIiiiiiiiiIIIIIIIiiiiiiii Anyway, one day, Gintoki just gets back from his adventure.. he seperated from Shinpachi and Kagura and visited his favorite shop that sells the most delicious, splendid, beautiful, sweet, extravagant stawberry parfait in the whole universe. But unfortunately they just ran out of strawberries... dakara, no strawberry parfait for Gin chan. Sugar deprived, he asked the waitress who got the last strawberry parfait, and the waitress pointed at this guy... with black hair and white shirt, sitting in an abnormal manner (i suck at writing, so just deal with it. =.=) L noticed the puppy dog eyes of Gintoki and sat there, staring back athim silently. 10 mins pass and they still were staring at each other, until finally Gintoki broke the silence and said "if you share that lovely starwberry parfait with me, I shall lend you my JUMP... and give you half of my secret choco stash!!!" With nothing to lose, L said "OK" and the lovely couple shared the lucious strawberry parfait together. The end.

12. If 7 could visit you in the weekend, how could you spend your time?

Play quidditch... and "accidently" hit Harry hard on the face... a couple of times... >D

13. If you could order 3 to do one thing for you, what kind of thing would it be?

Be my ultra-cool big sister and teach me the guitar! (ok, that was 2.. so what? =.=)

14. Is someone from your friends draws or writes about 11?

Hhahaha, that would be Kay... XD

15. If 2 would have to choose between 4 and 5, who would s/he choose?

My God... its like FATE how i put these characters in order.. :P
Well, love rules them all! Raito kun! I KNOW YOU LOVE HIM! Even when you have to pick between him and the powerful hell girl! Hahahhaahhaha!!

16. What could be 10's battle scream?

WHY IS THIS MY FAAAAATEE????!!!!!!!!!???! (gets his head straight) FOR CAMELOT!!!!! FOR ARTHUR!!! <--- youknowwhatimthinking~ XDlol

17. If you could choose the song that represents 8, what song could that be?

I have no idea why... but, Discoteque-U2 lol

18. 1, 6 and 12 are sitting in dark, chinese restaurant. There's only one pancake left and everyone reach for it in last while... Finish it.

But Kyouko notices Dean and Gintoki both want it, so she reluctantly backs off.. meanwhile, both Dean and Gin are barking at each other while trying to get one another distracted by yelling random things. Finally Dean takes out his gun and Gin takes out his sword and decide to duel it out. Kyouko asks them nicely to keep it down and to share the last pancake but she gets rudely ignored. Dean starts shooting like hell as Gin manages to dodge the bullets, but accidently hits Kyouko. Being pissed off, Kyouko the turns EVILER-THAN-SADAKO-SAMA nad beats the crap out of both Dean and Gintoki, while taking the pancake and feeding it to her evil devil auras.

19. What could tell 2 to 10, if he would want to go on date with him/her?

I can treat you better than Arthur. Come and join me~ We can create a better world together.. by my side~

20. For what most likely the 5 could be arrested?

Mass murder.

21. What is 6's secret?

He enjoyed hell, and f*** an angel. D<

22. If 11 and 9 would race, who would be first?

duhh~ Kagura chan of course. hahaha, she'll be so in frontof midget conan I can imagine her running backwards and teasing him.. showing him dumbass faces and going "Useless megane-midget aru! Go suck milk and grow taller aru!"

23. 1 and 9 reluctantly save the world together, from the secret organisation ruled by 4. 11 offers them their help, but later it is shown that he's 4's spy in reality. In the meantime, 4 kidnaps 12, to force them to surrender. Guided by 5's wise advice, they are looking for 3, which gives them what they need to finish their quest. What title could you give to this fanfic? Choose 3 people from friends list who could read it. Choose one, who could write it..
(im gonna ignore the read/write part lol!! XD)

And I call it... "In Pursuit of Justice" fck yea, i ripped that off, but you think i really care? BWAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! >D >D

And I shall tag more than 3 ppl! In fact, I shall tag specifically! Because I am an evil person! hahahahahaha

And the victims are: *drumroll*

- Shagy the Ratu Shark Poyo
- Shounen Neko Masahiro
- Mizz Pinku Joanne
- Kuro Kuro Kurocherub Chan
- Kay, Master of ze Chiii-kens
- Rocker Tegar Hiro Echi Hebiwolf <-- XD i know this will annoy you like hell.. I AM EVIL! And update your blogla! D< - Neko Musume Lulu Onee chan
- Root of all things boring virus hongo kanata lover vivi chan
- (also, for some reason)Always number 2 spammer Wen
- Halo stealer HeavenDeavil
- KacangNami ImanNut