You make me very happy... <33

I'm so happy... why? Cuz of my 3rd obsession.. Ruki <33

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(dont get me wrong, i still love kenichi forever and ever, and he's still my no.1 XD)

(and i really like ruki, although he's short.. he got that... *inaudible sound*)

The Invisible Wall

[The Gazette]

Pig that is soaked in soup of crime
Is it a pain of the children whom you murdered
Hate yourself


In the maze without an end,
why do you still breathe?

Gareki no shita de shinjitsu ga notauchimawaru e wa,
Naniyorimo fukai [The invisible wall],
Kodoku zouo shitto fuan,
Kyomu ni saita muhyoujou naniyorimo omoi[The invisible wall]

Sanjou oou fujouri ni omoeta warau aozora

In the maze without an end,
Ayamachi ni obore,
In the maze without an end,
Why do you still breathe?

Sorrow made you, [x3]
In the bottom of the dark sea,
Sorrow made you, [x3]
Tsugunai tsuzuke and die.

Pig that is soaked in soup of crime

In the maze without an end,「Hate yourself」
Ayamachi ni obore,
In the maze without an end, 「Hate yourself」
Why do you still breathe?

Sorrow made you, [x3]
In the bottom of the dark sea,
Sorrow made you, [x3]
Aijou mo shiranu kodoku na parade,
Sorrow made you, [x3]
In the bottom of the dark sea
Sorrow made you, [x3]
Tsugunai tsuzuke and die.

Sorrow made you
In the maze without an end...
Why do you still breathe?

Translation:
Pig is that soaked in soup of crime
Is it a pain of the children whom you murdered
Hate yourself

In the maze without an end...
Why do you still breathe?

The picture in which the truth coils up below the rubble
Is the deepest of all
[The invisible wall]
The facial inexpressiveness
In which isolation, hatred, jealousy, anxiety
And nothingness bloom is the heaviest of all
[The invisible wall]

The blue sky that seemed to be absurd
Concealed a terrible spectacle

In the maze without an end...
Drowning in our faults
In the maze without an end...
Why do you still breathe?

Sorrow made you
In the bottom of the dark sea
Sorrow made you
Keep on recompensing it...And die

Pig is that soaked in soup of crime
In the maze without an end...

"Hate yourself"
Drowning in our faults
In the maze without an end...
"Hate yourself"
Why do you still breathe?

Sorrow made you
In the bottom of the dark sea
Sorrow made you
A lonely parade that doesn't even know about love

Sorrow made you
In the maze without an end...
Why do you still breathe?

Wicked Cats, In The Corner, Please!

When the hell will I get to see Merlin again? I'm so damn bored~~ urggghhhhhhhhhhhhh

Stupid British TV only will air it sometime in September I hear.. damn. And Im still waiting for the 5th season of Supernatural.. they said its gonna be the last season, and im dying to find out what the hell is gonna happen. I got my own theory, but its so obvious it will suck if it really happens. Come on, surprise me!

Speaking of which.... it has been a long time since I watched Gaki no Tsukai... I miss Hamada and Matsumoto.... *sigh* I wish I could watch someone kicking someone else's ass for no good reason at all.. its fun you know..

All hail Prince Arthur!! (Bradley James, yeay!!)

And the funny thing is... (part 3)

I dont know why... suddenly I feel I'm still dissapointed.
XDXDD

Anyway, everything end well... just have to shut that ego out~ Crack and hack that son of a bitch far away.. yeaaaaa..... *blur*


Time to get some ice cream.... >.> and start saving up for GACC deshuuu... X3

I am Miyuki's Weird Eating Habit

For a person with such a physique as mine, I find it kinda weird that I'm so picky when it comes to food..

And I have nothing else to blog about. But Im bored desu kara.

Me Dont Like!

: Curry
I can tolerate it, but me still dont like it. Especially when it comes with rice, for some reason.

:Spicy Food
Sakit perut laaa... when food is too spicy you cant actually taste the food... pfft.

:Certain Seafood
I dont eat sotong, ok. Certain types of fish, more often processed (i.e: breaded fish, keropok lekor), but rarely in its true form. I like Dory fish though. Ikan Selar is for my cat. XD
And I like prawns... espeially tempura, hahahaha. Hard to say about crab.. I'm not used to the taste yet, but who knows in the future? XD

:100% Sugar
Like the gigantic colorful lollipops L always has.. and I like cotton candy only if its fresh from the machine (cuz its cool X3)

:Dont like chilli sauce >.<''
Don't even try to put it in front of me while I'm eating. Makes me nausea.. sorry if I offend anyone. :P

:I dont like the yolk part of telur asin. XD
whaaat? the yolk tastes weird la. XDDXDD

:When I order Mee Goreng Mamak, I mean MEE GORENG MAMAK.
When I order something specific, I expect to recieve it. If the waiter brings me something else, I wont eat it, out of principle. If the waiter comes back and says they dont have it and offers something else, than I'll consider it. But if they pandai2 tukar, than pandai2 la kau makan sendiri.

:I know when you give me leftovers.
I can tell. I am therefore, the daughter of a chef.
I dont mind la if im eating at home, but if dining out, i will scream.

:Food that seem too "exotic" for their own good.
Please, no escargot.

:Food that has weird textures.
Its not tottaly a lost case. I may try something.. but I'll be very weary... XD

:Durians, Jackfruits and the like... XD

Am i missing something..? Maybe got a bit more, but those are the main things I annoy most people about. XD
I wouldnt bother going in about the things i like... XDXDD

And the funny thing is... part2

I said the next post is gonna be happy.

Maybe later.

You betrayed your promise.

Maybe you didnt take it seriously, but i did.



Now I know where I stand.
Thanks for making it sooner than later.

And the funny thing is... (NOOO MORE EMO!! DAMN YOU!!! >.<'')

Lately I've been hanging out with some great ppl, friends of mine in their own right and way.
I thank them for their great company, I love every single one of them.

But thanks to that I forgot something.

Something happened recently and only after that incident I came to remember the truth,

You are alone.
You live among companions and ppl that show compassion,
but ultimately you die alone.

Last Thursday I got in a conversation with a girl from my animation class.. I never really spoke to her before, and she turned out to be an interesting person. Well, she saw my blog and read all the emo enteries, and said that she used to be like me, all emo and negative about the world before she met her boyfriend. After that she changed into.. a person lightly less dark. lol

Makes me wonder... what will happen to me if I find love? Will it really change me?

=______=;;

yea right.


T^T

*sigggggghhhhhhh*

That time somehow seems very far away. Ngeh.

Oh, and to the happy couples out there, may thou be happy in your candy coated wonderland.
And as a reminder, to those couples, you know, although you're so drunken in love, there are other people that need you too. There are other people around you. Please don't forget your friends, cuz they love you too.

And, to those stated above, please dont feel offended to my post. You people dont annoy me, really. I annoy myself. Its because of the fact that love always seem to hurt me, in one way or another. I just wish my life wasn't filled with hurt for a change.

WHY THE HELL AM I SO EMO????!!!!!!!!!
NGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!

I blame it for the lack of ppl I communicate with! Thats right! I have no friends, dakara, I spill everything on this fucking blog. Fuck yea.
NGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAAAAAA!!!!!! T^T

ok, i wanna stop now before i say something i'll regret. BAHHHH.
Next post: Random Happiness! (for a change) XDD

When The Stars Fade Away....

Rain of stars by ~Mar-ka on Deviantart

Stop Crying Your Heart Out
Oasis

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

'Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (i'm not scared)
You'll never change what's been and gone

'Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

'Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

p.s: i do what i do cuz i love you too.

That Vampire Molested My Kitten!

The above title has nothing to do with anything and something I thought of cuz my neck hurts.

Ok, anyway, the past week has been weird for me. Why? Honestly I dont remember. XD
But what I do remember is someone is pissing me off, and they're acting like its not their fucking problem. Well, just so you know, the world doesnt evolve around you. Everytime.. EVERYTIME. My God, you are so lame. Get a life.

Hey, do I look like a person who'd wish you the worst? Do you really think I'm that terrible? To my own friend? You know, I really dont know where I stand anymore. Or if I am any of importance for you. Damn, am I just something you assume you can take for granted? Yea, sure... i so called "dont understand" or "i changed" or whatever else you can think of. Fuck you. Like hell i dont understand, what you think im so naiive as to not know, not see what you are going through? Or the fact that I now can literally think, and assume the right course of action, sans the meaningless emotion people face with these problems, and tell you my prespective, without showing any mercy to the other half makes me different from the person you once knew, the person who'd say the same things, but ultimately follow whatever you'd foolishly do in the end? <----- ok, i hav no idea what i just said, but it sounded meaningful. =__=

You perfectly know how angry I am. I wont be saying all this if I wasnt. I wont be swearing like some bitchin asshole who deserves to die wouldnt I? But I also perfectly know, you dont understand WHY im angry. And we both know, you, yes, YOU, would never admit, nor appologize for whatever the hell you've done to me. Yea, its not YOUR problem, it mine eh?

I borrow the words of my darling Ruki,

Fuck Off. (Until you understand all of this)