My Nauseating Romance (minus the love)

.... Tyler Durden replied my tweet. That would be like, the closest I'd ever get of having a famous person replying my tweets. Yes, I am that sad. And desperate. I mean, what the hell do I have to do to get Ruki or Matthew Gray Gubler or whoever else I stalk. Dammit. =w=

Ok forget about that, just butthurt fangirl rambling. YEAH YOU DONT CARE ABOUT THAT!

Anyway HAPPY 2011! 8D I think.. this is my first post of the year? Yeah I guess so, since Im lazy as usual, and I can muster the slightest energy to blablabla about whatever. Well 2010 was interesting. Every year you learn more about yourself, and other people.. the people you care about, the people you didnt think you'd care for. Well let me tell you something I've learned; people change. Yea bitch they change. Even your best friend, someone you'd think would always be there for you will change. It just depends whether you change accordingly or you learn to compromise with that changed person. Well, eventually you'll get what I'm saying.

In recent years I learned that highschool friends or anyone you went to school with wont always be your friends. Best friends from grade school till death? Come on, that RARELY EVER happens. Now thanks to social networking you can keep tabs with your old friends via facebook and myspace (or whatever you lame ppl use) and dont have to actually talk to them! Isnt that something?! I know whats going on with all my old classmates, but I havent actually talked to them in 4 years! Cool huh?

My best friend from high school deleted her facebook a couple of months ago. Now she's active only on formspring and her blog I guess. I remember I used to call her every friggin day, just to talk. I was bored and I never could get a long with anyone from college. Hell, even in highschool I'd call her everyday after school lol. When facebook became the rage I'd start calling her less and interact more online. Hey, it was cheaper and much more practical. We could share links and pics and everything so it was cool. I'd still call her more or less though when I started getting bored. Sometimes she'd sms me too. But the interaction later became less and less... so did the interaction between me and my other close school friends. Yes, change came. I wasnt the same person I was 5 years ago.

Now that my friend deleted her fb, I havent heard much from her. Last time I did was around my bday. Lol the ironic (shitty mostly) part of it her phone is unreachable too. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO CONTACT YOU SHAGY?! ARRGHH!! D<

Well, my point is.... some friends will break up eventually. I still love my shagy-poooh but the truth is, we're not the same ppl we were back then. Life happened. Her heart was broken, my life was torn, we've met ppl on another side who we find we can connect to much better.. and yet we both know we'll always be there for each other. Like the happy ending of a tragic love story. Yes, I'm overly dramatic.

That cant be said for most of the people I meet. Last year I lost.................... 3, maybe 4 friends? Sad really, cuz I dont make friends so easily anymore. 2 of those friends were people I really cared for. Well, one of them, lets just say we had creative differences. There was nothing really creative about our dispute, but the thing is that she kinda failed to compromise with my fury rage that comes ever so often.............. stop judging me. =w=


Its very rare to find someone so compatible with your character~ Let me tell you a story how I met sachi~e. If I or sachi~e told you this story, you might know that we met randomly in a class a couple of years ago. And it was like fate that brought us together. Yes it true, but I never told anyone what really was happening. Well, its like this, for me, it was like love at first sight. Its weird really, I dont know what love at first sight feels like, but when I first saw her I really wanted to be her friend. I felt she was different from anyone else in the class and I was hoping she sat near enough so I could probably talk to her or something. BEHOLD, SHE DID. lol she found an empty seat next to me. Well, at that time I had issues.. i didnt know how to speak to ppl and I was paranoid. So I ended up not speaking to her~

The following week she came in late, and she sat beside me again. While doing our work I noticed her notebook. I saw her drawings and sketches and doodle. I was relieved finally I had something in common with her. I wanted to speak, but Istill couldnt. Lmao I'm so weird, now that I'm remembering it the more it seems like a lesbian love story of some sort. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OHH MAIIIIII AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH well, no, im completely straight. Anyway, i ended up not talking to her again. Sad (pathetic), ne?

But the following week I figured, if I cant open my damn mouth to speak to her, then I'll have to make her speak to me first. So heres something I did that even sachi~e doesnt know.... 8DD I opened my notebook that was also filled with sketches and doodles and shit and I put it at an angle where she would see it. Yes it sounds lame, but come on, I completely lacked self confidence that time! I couldnt even look ppl in the eye dammit. And yea, it worked. XDD I DONT REGRET DOING THAT. I COULDNT OPEN MY MOUTH SO I LET MY DRAWING DO THE TALKING!! -dont judge me dammit. =w=


Anyway, I'm glad I did that. I found someone compatible for me. I may not find love, may never find it, but its ok. I found someone I cant let go. Lol. Which brings me to lost friend #2, where I almost lost sachi~e because of him. I think... if things didnt turn out they way they are now.. I might have lost her. I cant bare that. Honestly, you know, the very first person I opened up to when my dad left was her. It was weird, we were just having lunch together and I just got to know her... but I blurted it out to her anyway. We're awesome that way. 8D

Thank you sachi~e for failing 5 times at the same class!

NOLAN IS AWESOME. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY HE WASNT NOMINATED FOR BEST DIRECTOR FOR THE OSCARS. I THINK THATS BULLSHIT AND I CALL CONSPIRACY, JUST LIKE IT WAS A FUCKEEN FB CONSPIRACY THE SOCIAL NETWORK WON BEST PICTURE FOR THE OTHER AWARD SHOW THAT ESCAPES MY MIND AT THE MOMENT.

Oh and I'm in love with Cillian Murphy.


That is all.

Everything has an end, but it doesnt mean it will be lost

Dear best friend. I'm sorry about my last post, whether or not you read it or not.
I wont delete it, cuz its something that I was feeling at the time, I wont hide it.

I'm just sorry cuz I the things I said will, or did hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you, in fact you know how much I love you.:D

So, if we stop being best friends like we were once upon a time, or we drift apart, I wanna tell you

that the times we had together I cherish
and whatever it is, I am here for you
I'm glad I got to know you
and I'm glad you consider(ed) me as an important person
so thank you

Dream come true? XDD

lol. but that was a long time ago, ne? XDD

Kimi wa hitori ja nai~

I right this in the memory of one of my fave mangakas, Yoshito Usui sensei, who passed away recently. Yoshito sensei was the mangaka of Crayon Shin Chan, one manga that has a special place in my heart. All the times when i was down, emo, all alone, when I felt the world was my enemy, I'd take a shin chan manga and just read it. It put a smile on my face when everything else failed, and made me laugh so hard I'd forget all my problems. I'd post a link to the news, but ironically... i read it at sankaku complex. *phail*

*cough* Well, i was online with Vee senpai yesterday and she said probably Shin Chan would be done by someone else now. Unfortunately it'd be totally different from the original.. T^T I'm just hoping Shin Chan would have proper closure for the readers and fans~

Yoshito Usui sensei, may you rest in peace.



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And on another note, Happy birthday sengal chan! May my ****one day be big enough to rival yours! XDD nggeee~

A Little Girl's First Experience with Alcohol

Ehm, not me. XD

But earlier today I went to the supermarket and while at the cashier, I saw this elderly man give his Jolly Shandy to his young daughter, maybe around 7 or 8. The guy finished most of it and gave the little that was left for the girl to taste... so the girl took it enthusiastically and had a sip, then ran to the other kids waiting outside.

All the other kids were so amazed... they were like "waahh... what does it taste like??" and the little girl took another sip, made a face and went "gaahh!"

I wonder if that made her drunk? XD

Speaking of little girls, yesterday me go lepakking with my favorite punchbag/kekasih, shagy! XD
Jalan2 at alamanda~ heheheeh shagy belanja me waffles at waffle station... My God, it was the best!! Imagine... a beautiful fluffy waffle with 4 SCOOPS OF VANILLA ICE CREAM, Fudge, banana, peach, blueberries and strawberry topping. VERY HAPPY DESU! XDXDDD
Then we went o watch G.I Joe.. with shagy's other kekasih. Pfffft. I'm so much better dammit. Anyway, while waiting for 7 o'clock (thats when the movies started) we sat outside... tch. Well, that part was boring. I dont get her boyfriend really.. its like in 2 hours he could smoke like 1 box of cigarettes! (Ok, exageratting a bit, but HE DOES SMOKE A LOT!!) and im sorry to say, i couldnt really understand what the hell he was talking about~ He spoke with a kinda slurrrrrrrr~.. hahahaha

The funny part was he didnt know shagy's past... so he thought me and her were collegemates. Hahaha, you know, thats just asking to be played by me. When I told him we met in high school he actually asked where we studied...LOL!!! Apa lagi... Sarawak desu. XDD

Anyway, eventhough I may not like the guy, he makes my stupid girl happy... haiiiiihh.. what to do? Layan je la... Orang bercinta ni.. susah nak sogok.. so why bother? I've tried so many times already.. Bwaaaaaaaahhh... the girl is still happy with him. Fine, if he makes her feel that way... im... (reluctantly) ok with it. hahaha ske laa tu shagy. bodoh kau.

Which reminds me of the conversation i had with her yesterday.. about her classmate Munzir. His cousin and shagy got scandal a while back... hahaha, dah nk msk meminang lak tu. XDD
And for some reason during high school me kena bahan me and munzir got scandal.. im always like "WTF?!" hahahaha good times, good times~

So, shagy was telling me (something like this laaa :P):

Shagy: Weiyh, munzir ade contact aku dowh. Aku tanye die single lg ke?
Die ckp alaaa hana xnk kt aku~

me: LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
gle bangang kawan kao.

shagy: Hahahaha, pastu aku ckp "Ko xde tanye~ cmne die nk taw?"
die kate, "alaa.. hana tu fhm2 je laaaa~"

me: kepala hotakkkk korg. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Anyway, ASL LAAA KORG NAK JUGAK UNGKIT NAMA AKU HAH??!!! SIAL LAAAAA!!!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, funny la. Long time havent laughed like that~

To munzir, if you're still short, me dont want you. You know why? CUZ I STILL REMEMBER YOU SAYING IM NOT A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL REMEMBER FOREVER!!!!!!!!

**hahaha, jk, jk. All my posts have been so emo, i thought why not trying to post something happy. Well, aparently im phailing.

Anyway, back to little girls. After the movie, me and shagy round2 alamanda.. then we passed Famous Amos~ a little girl was there. She was asking her daddy to buy her ice cream while making a suggestive gesture with her hands at *ehm* suggestive place~

me: *look at shagy*
shagy: *looks at me*
both: BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!
*run away*

haiihhh.. little girls these days....

p/s: SHAGY PAKAI 2 SPECK!!!! XDXDDD 1 kt t-shirt, another....... LOL
(inside joke, folks)

Oh, teman.

Tukar bahasa, gunakan B.M lak~ hahaha.. (yea, and may you all MARVEL AT MY BEAUTIFUL BM!!! XDXD MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Anyway, aku ade sorg kawan ni~~ Name die.. pendek kata, shagy.
Shagy ni.. kt blog die ade tulis bnde ntah cm "The old me is dead and gone.. blablabla, somethingsomething bnde x menarik"
ok.

So, short story pompuan ni ckp die menyesal (?) or dgn diri die yg dulu..or diri die yg dulu ni skang dh mati, mampos xlyn kaa?

Kamu nehh.... menyesal sgt ke ng diri ko yg lame hah?
Ko bangga laa ngn diri ko yg skarang ye?

Oh, aku bkn ape... si shagy ni.. best friend aku.. aku fhm sgt laa ape yg terkandung dlm isi otak die tu... xde bende ponn. haha.

Tp yg aku nk ckp skang ni...
Kenapa mesti menyesal ngn diri kamu yg dulu? (And I'm not just talking about shagy here!)
Tapi, bukan ke... diri ko yg dulu tu laa... mengubah jadi diri ko yg skarang?

Yea, aku benci, menyesal, ntah ape kejadah lagi feeling kt action aku from the past, tapi, tu sume dijadikan pengajaran weiyhh.... Jadikan sebahagiaan drpd diri ko yg skarang.


Oh cgy-cgy.. aku nantikan saat ko nk bwk aku gi funfair. AKU NAK PEGI FUNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!
p/s: weiyh smalam aku jmpe bdk cm ramadhan seyh~ lalalalala


Ahahaha.. ckp psl kawan.. teringat si Bedah... Fatin oh Fatin~ kemana kau menghilang ohh rakan evilku?
Fatin ni pn satu... menghilang gi Holland... you better bwk balik BELGIUM CHOCO utk aku. Or else expect more fish tagging pictures of you on Facebook! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!
Dah tu hari tu janji nak bg poster L Change the WorLd.. baahhh... mesti abang ko x amek kn...hmph.... mesti ko xde ckp pn ngn abang ko suro amekkn utk aku kn... <.<


Oh, Kenichi...
teringat plk PC baby aku... sian die... hanging lagi... myawwww..... sorry baby.. mama yg bersalah~~ T^T
Haritu aku bkk cr lgu jpn aku...
dan sangat kecewa....
lagu2 yg latest download sume hilang...
ALICENINE AND GAZETTE WEIYHHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TTTT_____TTTT

demo, yg paling buat aku sedih... lagu OH MY JULIET hilang.
Oh... no, no, babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TT^TT

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Bodoh. X sangka lk ko bce blog aku eh. Mentang² tertulis "Budak Pink BFF" ko perasan la nme ko? Sengal. Sengal tahap karma kau.

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1) Xde pn ko ckp ko cuti.... klu ade pn.. aku lupe. XDDXDD Ko ingat aku nk ingat laa sume2 tu? Ape, ko ingat aku calender ke? Anyway, see... cm tadi aku ajk ko klua, mesti ade² je ko xley... seperti biasa.. xperlula aku ungkit psl kejadian bday aku la ye. Ko fhm² je la. Ahaa~~ tp aku x kira! Sabtu aku heret ko klua gk. Ko kena blanje aku tgk.... Chun Li. Hehehehe, sbb Friday aku nk tgk Watchmen. Lgpn..ko kn sudah berjanji dgn mmbr ko yg lain nak gi tgk sme².... (perliperli amek ko majal)

2) No 2 ape ah? Aku lupe...ohh bye
Mmg laa ko ckp dhaaa~~ Tp aku tulis lps tu "Shagy ckp byebye ngan aku! Klu x aku nk kutuk ko kt blog~~"

So skang jgn salahkan aku :D

3) Pic aku ngn ko? Aku ade stalker dowh, xmo ltk gmbr aku.. ngeeee.. ko taw td aku online msn tetibe die cm "Hana chan~ i mizz u so much.." Geli geli aku weiyh! Ko kn taw aku.. aku tak reti ckp ngn orang aku xske tanpa bwat org tu..scared for life. Ayat aku direct kot. Cmne aku nak halau die? Pastu ade lg sorg.... mngaku lk tu die tgh stalk aku. Hahahahaha OOT lk. Mesti ko tataw OOT tu ape.. lol. Xpe, abaikan. Anyway, Nnt aku edit gmbr kami berdua.. so muka aku censored. Aku ske dowh bwat cmtu.. hahhaha
Ohh.. zmn skola... haaa.... hehehehehehe.. (tetiba senyum sinis lak aku) Ko ingat x time aku, ko ngn Lulu jalan stok pgang squeaky toy pastu org ingat kasut kitorg brbunyik?? Klaka sial. Pastu buli pengawas Kakak Kerek... hahaha, mne agknye Kakak Kerek tu pegi ahh? Best sial kacau die. Ktorg penah bwat jahat ngn geng Boyan ko tu ke ah? Aku rse cm.. aku kurang dowh bwat jht ngn diorg.. lg2 Kimmie. Kimmie cm skema je. Tp klu Lin.. hahahaha aku ngn die lari drpd Fatimah Pilus.. time tu Maths nye bengkel bosan, org nk bla, tp die jge ngn rotan, mata stok cm singa sial... So kitorg lari ikut bengkel seram kt blakang tuh..hahahahaha, lari cm gle kitorg.. sampai medan kot! XDXDXD lol
ahahaha.. bengkel.. byk memori ko kt situ kn? Mcm time bulan pose skola xde air.. smpai kt situ bru ko dpt melepaskn hajat. XDXDXD Hahahahaa, creepy gle weiyh time tu, aku sah2 ckp mesti ade org shady lpk situ dowh. Haahahahahahahahaha!!! XDXD

4) oh xde eh? XD

Kesimpualannya, kami berdua sgt mendap dek kesengalan tahap gaban. Ha, sesuai la tu. Bak kte... spe entah lupe.. "Ha, kembar datang!!" Babi. XDDXDD