Drum for me, For the dawn I Sing; Hail! Hail! Soldiers of Art & Design Come Marching In!

Nyaaaaaa the time has finally come for my graduation showcase! 8D It's a bit late to promote, but here's the some of the banner designs I came up with.





Please come on down to Annexe Gallery, cuz we'll be going on for the whole week. Com and support us, cuz my God, we need it. XD lmao

Anyway, this showcase is important for us to show the world "Yeah, we're designers, and we're ready for the World dammit!" Or something like that. I think the theme is actually pretty cool though~ haha Soldiers of Art & Design.. yea we fuckeen rock. 8D So please do come~ students from masscom and photography (reaallly pretty work guys), and the rest of FOCAD (Faculty of Creative Arts&Design) are joining in, so it wont hurt to look yo. Especially if you've just finished school and interested in design. It could show you what you're about to do in college. SO SHOW YOURSELF. OR DIE! >D (yay sadist mode:on!)


Date: 12th April 2011-17th April 2011

Day: Tuesday- Sunday

Time: 11am - 5pm

Venue: The Annexe Gallery, Central Market.

Entry: Enter at your own risk (FREE ENTRY).

For more details you can check out the facebook page or can ask me via twitter, cuz you know I aint gonna come back here in a while lulz. =w=

P/s: seek skulls and you'll know its me.


Edit: Oh yeah, and here's a SUPER AWESOME vid promoting the event. You should watch it for the pure epicness of it. If that vid doesn't make you wanna see the event, still just come for the skulls. 8D

My Nauseating Romance (minus the love)

.... Tyler Durden replied my tweet. That would be like, the closest I'd ever get of having a famous person replying my tweets. Yes, I am that sad. And desperate. I mean, what the hell do I have to do to get Ruki or Matthew Gray Gubler or whoever else I stalk. Dammit. =w=

Ok forget about that, just butthurt fangirl rambling. YEAH YOU DONT CARE ABOUT THAT!

Anyway HAPPY 2011! 8D I think.. this is my first post of the year? Yeah I guess so, since Im lazy as usual, and I can muster the slightest energy to blablabla about whatever. Well 2010 was interesting. Every year you learn more about yourself, and other people.. the people you care about, the people you didnt think you'd care for. Well let me tell you something I've learned; people change. Yea bitch they change. Even your best friend, someone you'd think would always be there for you will change. It just depends whether you change accordingly or you learn to compromise with that changed person. Well, eventually you'll get what I'm saying.

In recent years I learned that highschool friends or anyone you went to school with wont always be your friends. Best friends from grade school till death? Come on, that RARELY EVER happens. Now thanks to social networking you can keep tabs with your old friends via facebook and myspace (or whatever you lame ppl use) and dont have to actually talk to them! Isnt that something?! I know whats going on with all my old classmates, but I havent actually talked to them in 4 years! Cool huh?

My best friend from high school deleted her facebook a couple of months ago. Now she's active only on formspring and her blog I guess. I remember I used to call her every friggin day, just to talk. I was bored and I never could get a long with anyone from college. Hell, even in highschool I'd call her everyday after school lol. When facebook became the rage I'd start calling her less and interact more online. Hey, it was cheaper and much more practical. We could share links and pics and everything so it was cool. I'd still call her more or less though when I started getting bored. Sometimes she'd sms me too. But the interaction later became less and less... so did the interaction between me and my other close school friends. Yes, change came. I wasnt the same person I was 5 years ago.

Now that my friend deleted her fb, I havent heard much from her. Last time I did was around my bday. Lol the ironic (shitty mostly) part of it her phone is unreachable too. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO CONTACT YOU SHAGY?! ARRGHH!! D<

Well, my point is.... some friends will break up eventually. I still love my shagy-poooh but the truth is, we're not the same ppl we were back then. Life happened. Her heart was broken, my life was torn, we've met ppl on another side who we find we can connect to much better.. and yet we both know we'll always be there for each other. Like the happy ending of a tragic love story. Yes, I'm overly dramatic.

That cant be said for most of the people I meet. Last year I lost.................... 3, maybe 4 friends? Sad really, cuz I dont make friends so easily anymore. 2 of those friends were people I really cared for. Well, one of them, lets just say we had creative differences. There was nothing really creative about our dispute, but the thing is that she kinda failed to compromise with my fury rage that comes ever so often.............. stop judging me. =w=


Its very rare to find someone so compatible with your character~ Let me tell you a story how I met sachi~e. If I or sachi~e told you this story, you might know that we met randomly in a class a couple of years ago. And it was like fate that brought us together. Yes it true, but I never told anyone what really was happening. Well, its like this, for me, it was like love at first sight. Its weird really, I dont know what love at first sight feels like, but when I first saw her I really wanted to be her friend. I felt she was different from anyone else in the class and I was hoping she sat near enough so I could probably talk to her or something. BEHOLD, SHE DID. lol she found an empty seat next to me. Well, at that time I had issues.. i didnt know how to speak to ppl and I was paranoid. So I ended up not speaking to her~

The following week she came in late, and she sat beside me again. While doing our work I noticed her notebook. I saw her drawings and sketches and doodle. I was relieved finally I had something in common with her. I wanted to speak, but Istill couldnt. Lmao I'm so weird, now that I'm remembering it the more it seems like a lesbian love story of some sort. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OHH MAIIIIII AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH well, no, im completely straight. Anyway, i ended up not talking to her again. Sad (pathetic), ne?

But the following week I figured, if I cant open my damn mouth to speak to her, then I'll have to make her speak to me first. So heres something I did that even sachi~e doesnt know.... 8DD I opened my notebook that was also filled with sketches and doodles and shit and I put it at an angle where she would see it. Yes it sounds lame, but come on, I completely lacked self confidence that time! I couldnt even look ppl in the eye dammit. And yea, it worked. XDD I DONT REGRET DOING THAT. I COULDNT OPEN MY MOUTH SO I LET MY DRAWING DO THE TALKING!! -dont judge me dammit. =w=


Anyway, I'm glad I did that. I found someone compatible for me. I may not find love, may never find it, but its ok. I found someone I cant let go. Lol. Which brings me to lost friend #2, where I almost lost sachi~e because of him. I think... if things didnt turn out they way they are now.. I might have lost her. I cant bare that. Honestly, you know, the very first person I opened up to when my dad left was her. It was weird, we were just having lunch together and I just got to know her... but I blurted it out to her anyway. We're awesome that way. 8D

Thank you sachi~e for failing 5 times at the same class!

NOLAN IS AWESOME. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY HE WASNT NOMINATED FOR BEST DIRECTOR FOR THE OSCARS. I THINK THATS BULLSHIT AND I CALL CONSPIRACY, JUST LIKE IT WAS A FUCKEEN FB CONSPIRACY THE SOCIAL NETWORK WON BEST PICTURE FOR THE OTHER AWARD SHOW THAT ESCAPES MY MIND AT THE MOMENT.

Oh and I'm in love with Cillian Murphy.


That is all.

When the World is Kind, but Reality Stays Cruel

This life... its such a bitch.

Everytime you think you have everything under control for the first time.. it turns around and smacks you in the face. "Haha Loser"

Oh fuck you life.

Its not that I aint grateful... but you know the feeling when you have no idea what you're doing? As in, wheres the life you live? Like wondering what the hell you've been doing all this time? *sigh* Such annoyance.. the people around me, my routine, my dreams, reality, my relationships with people... I wish there was more.






Again with the whiny ranting of how fucked up this life is. Fuck you its my blog I can say whatever I want. Yes I'm childish.

But you know what? There's a difference between being childish and being immature. I like to consider myself a childish adult. Why? Cuz I can take on the responsibility life throws at me. Unlike this person whom I will not name cuz it doesnt matter, lets just say this person is a guy. So this guy likes to ramble on about how fucked up life is, like me. :D But alas! This person's luck isn't as bad as mine. I'd like to state why, and what makes my life so difficult, but I dont feel comfortable talking about it on a public blog. I dont know what his life is messed up about, but I doubt he suffers as much as I do. Sure, he got his issues, but I'd think they're more to self-issued issue rather than life's fun way of saying "fuck you". Anyway, why compare him and me? Cuz this "guy".... just annoys me. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.

Sigh... well, when life throws you lemons... you just have to enjoy the sourness. Put it in your mouth and cry, but you'll feel something awesome. Bitter, sour, but ironically amusing. When you have a negative take on your so-called "fucked-up" life, when you say everything bad always happens to me... when you think bad luck is stalking you... you know.. just STFU. People have it worst than you, so just get on with your self pitying life. Like me, I like to ramble and pity myself a lot. Why? No one gives a fuck. So after emo-ing, I just carry on. I mean, lifes like that, you cant expect everything to be rolled out in front of you, unless you're privileged. Damn, I wished I was privileged. You can't call yourself a man if you keep pitying the way your life is. If you hate your life so much, than fucking change it. Whats stopping you, rite? Money? Relationships? Fuck all of them, its your life, go live it! Cuz no one's gonna live it for you.

One thing I learned from watching Doctor Who is to just forget it all, and go where your heart desires. Its scary, but I cant live static for the rest of my life. My mind wont allow me. If I'm destined to be poor the rest of my life, then I'd find other ways to take me places.







Having ties to someone.. its heavy. I watched that George Clooney movie, Up in The Air and his motivational philosophy intrigued me, about the backpack stuff. How heavy ties and bonds to other people are. The closer the heavier. Its true you know.... the more you care the more you feel dragged behind in life. But really, why do we do it? Why tie yourself to other people? Fear of dying alone? Fear of being forgotten? We all die alone. But what is life without cherishing it with someone?






There are 2 voices in my head. One is a really dark part of me. Has no emotions, has violent thoughts and just hates everything. Somehow I think, if this part of me ever takes over.. I will be a sociopath. I mean, I dont know how to prove I do have really really scary thoughts... some might say I'm just trying to be cool or something, like making it up. Yea I do have a thing for sociopaths (Sherlock, Dexter) but that doesn't mean I wanna be emotionless and act violent for no reason. And when I say I have depression I'm not lying. =w= FYI. But another part of me, remains human. The part of me that wants to believe the good in people, that wants to love everyone. That gives a damn.

So whats my point? Well, these 2 voices in my head.... are bugging me. Confusing me to the point I dont know whats right or wrong. To be reckless, to embrace the darkness that haunts me, or to be the caring aneue people turn to. Arghh my head is a soap opera. My best friend wants to be happy, I wanna see her happy. But I cant. Misery loves company? Or am I just jealous? Jealous of what? I always believed deep down the nicer part of me knows the answers, but is suppressed by the mean part....





I need a coke. =w=

Everything has an end, but it doesnt mean it will be lost

Dear best friend. I'm sorry about my last post, whether or not you read it or not.
I wont delete it, cuz its something that I was feeling at the time, I wont hide it.

I'm just sorry cuz I the things I said will, or did hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you, in fact you know how much I love you.:D

So, if we stop being best friends like we were once upon a time, or we drift apart, I wanna tell you

that the times we had together I cherish
and whatever it is, I am here for you
I'm glad I got to know you
and I'm glad you consider(ed) me as an important person
so thank you

die die die my darling

i thought after a while it would've died away already
honestly i did think so
but then today when you came
suddenly i felt the pain
damnit, why'd i have to let myself be so vulnerable?
was it just because i wanted to know what it was like?
to have that bubbly feeling, happy always in the inside?
was it just so i could feel attached to someone?

im sorry, i made you like my toy
im paying the price i assure you
i dont know why
i do feel the pain
the ache
again
and again
makes me hate myself
it makes me feel ashamed i let my heart be free and naive
i wish i could go back
and keep everything inside
all the nonsense emotion
thats the person i was
and thats the person that i am
for i am the solitude shadow
being left behind
but watching closely
i can be your friend
i can be your enemy
but in the end, i still remain alone
though i am grateful for the few people that come my way
eventually they will leave
so i guess thats what made me do it
and now i regret
im sorry~

And, this is why tarrot sucks.

And the funny thing is... (part 3)

I dont know why... suddenly I feel I'm still dissapointed.
XDXDD

Anyway, everything end well... just have to shut that ego out~ Crack and hack that son of a bitch far away.. yeaaaaa..... *blur*


Time to get some ice cream.... >.> and start saving up for GACC deshuuu... X3

I am Sadako's Guilty Pleasure (XDXD)

The Best of You
Foo Fighters

I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you

Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new?

I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
No, I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You'd die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
Your trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

I’ve got another confession my friend
I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!

p/s:
SHAGY, aku merajok ngn ko. Pujuk aku balik SKARANG JUGAK.
Hiro, you are an idiot. Damn you~
Kay, me nak ikot pegi Genting!! T^T
Jeradine, dont forget my Jigoku Shoujo next week~ ^_^
Masahiro kun, I randomly put names la to the previous tag~ I didnt want to tag anyone~ but got questions below that~ more fun ne? XDXDXD
Frankie, why you dont layan me???? You dont love me anymore??!! TToTT
Hikari, SELAMAT PULANG!!! hahahaha!!!

And yes, I do like Foo Fighters.... they rock~

○_○ 100?! OMG, You Gotta Be Kidding Me! [Tagged by a ShounenNeko]]

Tagged by Masahiro kun~ aiyaahh... should I answer truthfully? Oh well, I'll answer according to my truth~ HAHAHAHA >D

001. Real Name : It doesnt concern you. All you need to know that officially, I go by the name "Hana"

002. Nickname(s) : Miyuki Sadako(screen name), Miyuki (nice mode), Sadako (angst mode), Yuki Chan (Yone chan calls me that, and only Yone!), Miyu Chan (If someone unapproprite calls me by that so moe name, i sall KILL), Duyung (Mr.Lim!!! D<), Miko (shagy bodoh =.=), and..... the pyonkichi chan (i swear, if someone other then Pyon calls me that, I'll stab that person to death) <------- wah, a lot eh? =.='''''

003. Age : 19 yrs 16 months

004. Zodiac Sign : Snake... hehhe

005. Male or Female : SheMale

006. Elementary : SK Kelana Jaya 2 (1997-2000), Sk Putrajaya 2 (2000-2001), before 1997, i remains a secret from all of you... muahahaha

007. Middle School: SMK Putrajaya 1
008. High School : SMK Putrajaya 1

009. College School : Segi College Subang Jaya

010. Hair colour : Soon to be blonde like ruki! XD

011. Long or Short : Long.. T^T, gonna potong soon! yea!

012. Loud or Quiet : depends~

013. Sweats or Jeans : sweats~ XDXD how nerdy is that? Ah, janji i feel comfy to sleep~ haha

014. Phone or Camera : Camera Phone

015. Health Freak : BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAH DONT MAKE ME LAUGH!

016. Drink or Smoke : I frown upon thos trecherous things! 

017. Do you have a crush on someone : If you mean my various fangirl crushings, then yea. If you mean as in someone around me, NO. 

018. Eat or Drink : What I live my life for.

019. Piercings : Not yet~ hehehehe

020. Tattoos : No... I like it natural~ XDXD

021. Social or Anti-Social:  ANTI! AND PROUD OF IT!

022. First Piercing : Wait.. in a few months maybe~ haha

023. First Relationship : baaaaahh~

024. First Best Friend : some bitch.. but if its  REAL bf, then... shagy!!!! hug hug!

025. First Award : Can't remember~ =___=

026. First Kiss : Mama♥

027. First Pet :  Neko chan

028. First Big Vacation : Back in 199...6?  i think.. to the U.S

029. First Love at first sight: Hiroto~ XD

030. First Big Birthday : Sometime when I was a kid.. pffft~ I want cake NOW!

Currently
049. Eating : TT^TT feed me~
050. Drink : air kosong..............
051. Excitement Level : very low, almost zero
052. I'm about to : go toilet
053. Listening to : Filth in the Beauty (Gazette), Drella (Alicenine), Rock You (Olivia)
054. Plan for today : Trying to complete 3d modelling, surfing the net, procrastinating
055. Waiting for : food, this to end~
056. Energy Level : none.
057. Thinking of someone: Kenichi, and for some reason, Chui Lee.. miss you~ v.v
058. Want kids? : see la.
059. Want to get married?: YEA!!!! XDXDXD (phail)
060. Careers in mind? : Something that lets me earn a lot. And dont have to work on weekends~
068. Lips or Eyes? : emm.. in what? opposite sex? then....... both! XD (kenichi!!!!!!!♥♥♥♥♥♥)
069. Romantic or Funny? : again, what? aiyaahh~ *see above*
070. Shorter or Taller? : TALLER!!!! TALLER!!!!!! XD (talking about guys rite?? =.=)
071. Protective or Caring? : *im assuming you're taling about my ideal guy.. =.=* both then~
072. Romantic or Spontaneous? : Sponatneous~ haha
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?:  ~>.>
074. Sensitive or Loud? : Nice mix in between
075. Hook-up or Relationship? : im single, and alone in this world... wuuwuuuwuu~~
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? : *devil smile*
080. Lost glasses or contacts : 2 glasses missing *if found, pls return to me, sankyuu*
081. Ran away from home : tried to.. phail
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: >D
083. Killed somebody : >D
084. Broken someone's heart : heart, mind, body and soul... etoo.... but not in a romantic relationship la~ ahaaaa~
085. Been arrested : NEVA! I'm too genius to be caught! XD
087. Cried when someone died : No one close to me has died yet... 

Do you Believe in,
089. Yourself : ngeeh~
090. Miracles : myaaaww~
091. Love at first sight: BAAAAAHH!! 
092. Heaven : yeaaaa...
093. Santa Claus : hehehehehe 
094. Tooth Fairy : of course~
095. Kiss in the first date: TToTT
097. Is there someone you would want to be with right now? : Pyon chan.... nak ikut gi holland!! T^T
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? : NOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

099. Do you believe in God? : Yes! ^^
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people: It was not really 100 truths

And the victims are:

Ayumu Shagy  Poyo Chan

Whoever that han't got a life.

I took a good... 30 mins or so to answer that... gosh, masahiro kun...... so evil~ XD

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Bodoh. X sangka lk ko bce blog aku eh. Mentang² tertulis "Budak Pink BFF" ko perasan la nme ko? Sengal. Sengal tahap karma kau.

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1) Xde pn ko ckp ko cuti.... klu ade pn.. aku lupe. XDDXDD Ko ingat aku nk ingat laa sume2 tu? Ape, ko ingat aku calender ke? Anyway, see... cm tadi aku ajk ko klua, mesti ade² je ko xley... seperti biasa.. xperlula aku ungkit psl kejadian bday aku la ye. Ko fhm² je la. Ahaa~~ tp aku x kira! Sabtu aku heret ko klua gk. Ko kena blanje aku tgk.... Chun Li. Hehehehe, sbb Friday aku nk tgk Watchmen. Lgpn..ko kn sudah berjanji dgn mmbr ko yg lain nak gi tgk sme².... (perliperli amek ko majal)

2) No 2 ape ah? Aku lupe...ohh bye
Mmg laa ko ckp dhaaa~~ Tp aku tulis lps tu "Shagy ckp byebye ngan aku! Klu x aku nk kutuk ko kt blog~~"

So skang jgn salahkan aku :D

3) Pic aku ngn ko? Aku ade stalker dowh, xmo ltk gmbr aku.. ngeeee.. ko taw td aku online msn tetibe die cm "Hana chan~ i mizz u so much.." Geli geli aku weiyh! Ko kn taw aku.. aku tak reti ckp ngn orang aku xske tanpa bwat org tu..scared for life. Ayat aku direct kot. Cmne aku nak halau die? Pastu ade lg sorg.... mngaku lk tu die tgh stalk aku. Hahahahaha OOT lk. Mesti ko tataw OOT tu ape.. lol. Xpe, abaikan. Anyway, Nnt aku edit gmbr kami berdua.. so muka aku censored. Aku ske dowh bwat cmtu.. hahhaha
Ohh.. zmn skola... haaa.... hehehehehehe.. (tetiba senyum sinis lak aku) Ko ingat x time aku, ko ngn Lulu jalan stok pgang squeaky toy pastu org ingat kasut kitorg brbunyik?? Klaka sial. Pastu buli pengawas Kakak Kerek... hahaha, mne agknye Kakak Kerek tu pegi ahh? Best sial kacau die. Ktorg penah bwat jahat ngn geng Boyan ko tu ke ah? Aku rse cm.. aku kurang dowh bwat jht ngn diorg.. lg2 Kimmie. Kimmie cm skema je. Tp klu Lin.. hahahaha aku ngn die lari drpd Fatimah Pilus.. time tu Maths nye bengkel bosan, org nk bla, tp die jge ngn rotan, mata stok cm singa sial... So kitorg lari ikut bengkel seram kt blakang tuh..hahahahaha, lari cm gle kitorg.. sampai medan kot! XDXDXD lol
ahahaha.. bengkel.. byk memori ko kt situ kn? Mcm time bulan pose skola xde air.. smpai kt situ bru ko dpt melepaskn hajat. XDXDXD Hahahahaa, creepy gle weiyh time tu, aku sah2 ckp mesti ade org shady lpk situ dowh. Haahahahahahahahaha!!! XDXD

4) oh xde eh? XD

Kesimpualannya, kami berdua sgt mendap dek kesengalan tahap gaban. Ha, sesuai la tu. Bak kte... spe entah lupe.. "Ha, kembar datang!!" Babi. XDDXDD