Drum for me, For the dawn I Sing; Hail! Hail! Soldiers of Art & Design Come Marching In!

Nyaaaaaa the time has finally come for my graduation showcase! 8D It's a bit late to promote, but here's the some of the banner designs I came up with.





Please come on down to Annexe Gallery, cuz we'll be going on for the whole week. Com and support us, cuz my God, we need it. XD lmao

Anyway, this showcase is important for us to show the world "Yeah, we're designers, and we're ready for the World dammit!" Or something like that. I think the theme is actually pretty cool though~ haha Soldiers of Art & Design.. yea we fuckeen rock. 8D So please do come~ students from masscom and photography (reaallly pretty work guys), and the rest of FOCAD (Faculty of Creative Arts&Design) are joining in, so it wont hurt to look yo. Especially if you've just finished school and interested in design. It could show you what you're about to do in college. SO SHOW YOURSELF. OR DIE! >D (yay sadist mode:on!)


Date: 12th April 2011-17th April 2011

Day: Tuesday- Sunday

Time: 11am - 5pm

Venue: The Annexe Gallery, Central Market.

Entry: Enter at your own risk (FREE ENTRY).

For more details you can check out the facebook page or can ask me via twitter, cuz you know I aint gonna come back here in a while lulz. =w=

P/s: seek skulls and you'll know its me.


Edit: Oh yeah, and here's a SUPER AWESOME vid promoting the event. You should watch it for the pure epicness of it. If that vid doesn't make you wanna see the event, still just come for the skulls. 8D

When the World is Kind, but Reality Stays Cruel

This life... its such a bitch.

Everytime you think you have everything under control for the first time.. it turns around and smacks you in the face. "Haha Loser"

Oh fuck you life.

Its not that I aint grateful... but you know the feeling when you have no idea what you're doing? As in, wheres the life you live? Like wondering what the hell you've been doing all this time? *sigh* Such annoyance.. the people around me, my routine, my dreams, reality, my relationships with people... I wish there was more.






Again with the whiny ranting of how fucked up this life is. Fuck you its my blog I can say whatever I want. Yes I'm childish.

But you know what? There's a difference between being childish and being immature. I like to consider myself a childish adult. Why? Cuz I can take on the responsibility life throws at me. Unlike this person whom I will not name cuz it doesnt matter, lets just say this person is a guy. So this guy likes to ramble on about how fucked up life is, like me. :D But alas! This person's luck isn't as bad as mine. I'd like to state why, and what makes my life so difficult, but I dont feel comfortable talking about it on a public blog. I dont know what his life is messed up about, but I doubt he suffers as much as I do. Sure, he got his issues, but I'd think they're more to self-issued issue rather than life's fun way of saying "fuck you". Anyway, why compare him and me? Cuz this "guy".... just annoys me. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.

Sigh... well, when life throws you lemons... you just have to enjoy the sourness. Put it in your mouth and cry, but you'll feel something awesome. Bitter, sour, but ironically amusing. When you have a negative take on your so-called "fucked-up" life, when you say everything bad always happens to me... when you think bad luck is stalking you... you know.. just STFU. People have it worst than you, so just get on with your self pitying life. Like me, I like to ramble and pity myself a lot. Why? No one gives a fuck. So after emo-ing, I just carry on. I mean, lifes like that, you cant expect everything to be rolled out in front of you, unless you're privileged. Damn, I wished I was privileged. You can't call yourself a man if you keep pitying the way your life is. If you hate your life so much, than fucking change it. Whats stopping you, rite? Money? Relationships? Fuck all of them, its your life, go live it! Cuz no one's gonna live it for you.

One thing I learned from watching Doctor Who is to just forget it all, and go where your heart desires. Its scary, but I cant live static for the rest of my life. My mind wont allow me. If I'm destined to be poor the rest of my life, then I'd find other ways to take me places.







Having ties to someone.. its heavy. I watched that George Clooney movie, Up in The Air and his motivational philosophy intrigued me, about the backpack stuff. How heavy ties and bonds to other people are. The closer the heavier. Its true you know.... the more you care the more you feel dragged behind in life. But really, why do we do it? Why tie yourself to other people? Fear of dying alone? Fear of being forgotten? We all die alone. But what is life without cherishing it with someone?






There are 2 voices in my head. One is a really dark part of me. Has no emotions, has violent thoughts and just hates everything. Somehow I think, if this part of me ever takes over.. I will be a sociopath. I mean, I dont know how to prove I do have really really scary thoughts... some might say I'm just trying to be cool or something, like making it up. Yea I do have a thing for sociopaths (Sherlock, Dexter) but that doesn't mean I wanna be emotionless and act violent for no reason. And when I say I have depression I'm not lying. =w= FYI. But another part of me, remains human. The part of me that wants to believe the good in people, that wants to love everyone. That gives a damn.

So whats my point? Well, these 2 voices in my head.... are bugging me. Confusing me to the point I dont know whats right or wrong. To be reckless, to embrace the darkness that haunts me, or to be the caring aneue people turn to. Arghh my head is a soap opera. My best friend wants to be happy, I wanna see her happy. But I cant. Misery loves company? Or am I just jealous? Jealous of what? I always believed deep down the nicer part of me knows the answers, but is suppressed by the mean part....





I need a coke. =w=

Everything has an end, but it doesnt mean it will be lost

Dear best friend. I'm sorry about my last post, whether or not you read it or not.
I wont delete it, cuz its something that I was feeling at the time, I wont hide it.

I'm just sorry cuz I the things I said will, or did hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you, in fact you know how much I love you.:D

So, if we stop being best friends like we were once upon a time, or we drift apart, I wanna tell you

that the times we had together I cherish
and whatever it is, I am here for you
I'm glad I got to know you
and I'm glad you consider(ed) me as an important person
so thank you

Kimi wa hitori ja nai~

I right this in the memory of one of my fave mangakas, Yoshito Usui sensei, who passed away recently. Yoshito sensei was the mangaka of Crayon Shin Chan, one manga that has a special place in my heart. All the times when i was down, emo, all alone, when I felt the world was my enemy, I'd take a shin chan manga and just read it. It put a smile on my face when everything else failed, and made me laugh so hard I'd forget all my problems. I'd post a link to the news, but ironically... i read it at sankaku complex. *phail*

*cough* Well, i was online with Vee senpai yesterday and she said probably Shin Chan would be done by someone else now. Unfortunately it'd be totally different from the original.. T^T I'm just hoping Shin Chan would have proper closure for the readers and fans~

Yoshito Usui sensei, may you rest in peace.



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And on another note, Happy birthday sengal chan! May my ****one day be big enough to rival yours! XDD nggeee~

Remember! Theres a small step to take from the living room to kitchen!

Yesterday night me went beraya at Kay's house all the way in gombak... so freakin far, I am grateful that highways exists.. （´Д｀）

anyway, i was really hoping to taste kay's mama's chicken~ XDD demo demo.... i only got kuey teow~ ohh nevermind, sedap juge. hahahahahaha. me give kay kay duit raya also, so nice her aneue~ 8DD

well, the stupid part of all this is when i was at her house we didnt know what to do.. so being the hikikomori/otaku/computer addicts we are, we go online and watch gintama while spamming vivian and wen who were also online (wen was at vivi's house, hahaha like mama like son （´Д｀）) ... hahahahahhaa phail. Mamoru coincidentally was online too, so i made him come along to kay's house~ (me and kay never met him before, suddenly ask him to come over... 8D crazy kids)

and so we found our victim. >D

Very awkward at first.. then after breaking the ice by kutuk several fellow *ehem* spammers *ehm* we got along quite nicely. Luckily i brought over bungapi so we can play~~ yaaay~!! XDD
(not tht fun laa playing alone T^T)

I aksed kay if she had any candles... she brought out birthday candles...... XDDXDDDD
Then, i attempted to melt the wax from those birthday candles (eventhough i knew it wouldn't work) and suddenly ruru chyan came out... "Lilin cake mne nak cair.. *facepalm*" XDDD
So kay went to find one very small stub of a candle.. ok laa... can still be used~ （´Д｀）


and so Kay's house was like it was on fire.... XDD (i brought 1 whole box and some big ones, unfortunately no firecrackers. XDD)

We made lotsa idiotic patterns on the pavement and the cheap bungapi burned out too fast... dammit, but the funny thing was that sometimes it would ignite again and suddenly just take of randomly in the air like mercun go haywire~ XDD tht was fun, one almost kena me (scream like girl) then when kay was trying to ignite hers suddenly it flew of XDDD (ayt x ley blaa~)

the climax was when we gathered all the sisa2 of the bungapi and all the stick from the big ones and set them on fire (ruru was the who threw the match.. i somehow phail with matches （´Д｀）)
hence, beautiful flames and sparks came to life....

ok.. too much flames....

*start cuak*

*kay gets hose*

*me cuak samore, ruru start gelak*

*kay fumbles with the hose, water cannot come out*

*flames start dying*

*me watch kay still fumbling with the hose, only then she realizes she didnt turn the faucet*

*flames die*

*kay waters it down*

*phail*


（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）

ok so then being good Samaritan, i wanted to help sweep the driveway and cleanup the freakin mess we made, so i asked for a broom.. kay gave me the very lembut type~ she said thts the only one she could find~ somewhere, sometime at this point ruru was inside and for some reason (i forgot) i stole his shoes and wanted to burn it. hahahahahahahaha

"hoi! kasut rm200 lebih aku!! bagi balik!!!"

*me run*

*kay runs out of the way*

*ruru almost corner me*

*me try to pass the shoes to kay, but kay lari*

*me run to the back*

*ruru kejar samore*

"kay!! where are you?! amek laa nehh!!"

*kay xmo msk campur*

*me run samore, ruru right behind*

*suddenly i trip on my kain and fall~ ruru get back his shoes*

"tu laa! aku berdaulat!!"

*phail*

moral: dont do evil in baju kurung.
*i found out after i went back my knee was scrapped and bled a bit.. good thing my baju didn't tear =o=*

and that was the end events of Miyuki's Adventure: Beraya at Kay's House!!! <--- heh, nice tittle no? XDD

I believed him when Mr. Daniel told us school robs a child's sense of inquiry.

... and therefore, you should always remember, there are things in this universe that is just too large (read: awesome) for school. I'm not gonna tell you you dont have to go, cuz then you're just gonna end up a bum.

And in other news, Friday night was spent at alamanda with shagy, of whom finally had time for me since her sayang went away. Supposedly balik kampung, but unknown to her I asked my good friend Kayoko (from ju-on) to scare the shit out of him the other day... there were no survivors. XDD jkjk.

GAaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh~ Burger King was nice.... hehehehe.... sooo goood... especially when you tgh kebulur..... ohh.. the beautiful melted cheese and mushrooms.... and hershey's sunday pie... XD yes, HERSHEY'S. So you know.. CHOCOLATE. AND ICE CREAM. XXDD

shagy makan whopper. pfft.
XD

After tht we go jln2.. si poyo got laa her bag... blabla... demo, me couldnt find any kasut raya tht i liked... and if i liked any... ta muat.... =o= stupidsmallfeetpeople.

Anyway, while we were walking i realized.... why shagy punye *tuuuuuut* lg bsr?
XDDXDDDDXDDDD
tetibe menonjol.... alaaaaaa... jeles ahh ni.......
then me asked her, "gg.. ko size ape?"
shagy: *sengeh2 kambeng* @#%
alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 cup lg bsr kott!!! aahh! benci!!! DX
*look down* ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! keciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DDDX *phail*

ok, abaikan.

after jalan2 we passed famous amos.. aahhh... the smell.. cannot go... *buys more ice cream*
hahaha, cookies&something i forgot its name.
but next time i want Ferraro Rocher ! lol~ *facepalm*

I was planning on buying sushi, but unfortunaltely kedai dh tutup~ pfft. shaggy punye pasal la.
She wanted to buy big apple doughnuts. Kedai also dh tutup. hahaha padan muke.
(me likey teh choco and teh cherry and teh apple and teh oreo~ XDD)
and so since there was no other food to her liking, she buyed apple pie, from McD. XD

next week.. i wanna eat sushi! ioi going desu! sushi banzai!
or maybe... can go to pasta gohan? OMG their sundaes were awesome. Wanna try their pasta pulak. XD (duit raya dh byk.. hahahahahahahahaha)

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Emm.... raya posts? Later la, here is the official Tuanku Hana/Ore sama Miyuki Sadako teh awesome greeting;

Disini, dengan izin Tuhan, beta, Tuanku Hana, Kumicho kepada Animaru Punch no Gumi Epmire, ingin menyampaikan salam aidilfitri kepada semua muslimin dan muslimat, dan juga orang bawahan beta. Kasih beta kepada anda semua tak terhingga.. :'D (emotional part)

Beta juga memohon seribu kemaafan daripada hamba sekalian, jikalau beta ada ter/sengaja membuat kesilapan atau terguris hati sesiapa... (contrary to popular belief) beta pun manusia juga. Harus juga diingat, beta, telah mengampunkan salah dan silap tuan-tuan hamba (dan hamba-hamba) yang begitu banyak.

May this aidilfitri be filled with blessings and goodwill. (<------- ok, bm phail. =.=)

Sekian, Terima Kasih.

damn.. i just realized merlin isn't out till next week.. ToT

mnyaaw. screw tht. and you. and whoever. bahhh. i hate everyone. baaaahhhh. yes everyone. all you ppl tht call themselves my "friend". now really, what do you ppl know about me? if i wasnt fasting right now.. geez.. i so wanna curse~ yes, i am angry, and everyone is on my nerves. especially W^$#%@% facebook. and stupid !#^$!^%& tomotomo. and wimax. @#$^ you.


now random pics thread.

I have no idea why i have this. =_= when i read this manga also i forgot.

At least i can look forward to DTB 2nd season. But wtf, hei's hair ish so long! =__=

This is love. I'll always love you. BUT @^%&$ Sunway Pyramid, where the hell you go?! =__=;;

And, this is why tarrot sucks.

oh gle bosan

so bored~~~~~~ i cant sleep... i need to wake up at 4 a.m so i can be on time at my friends house at 6.30 am to go to melaka~

oh gle bosan.

before this i tried calling up random ppl (wanted to prank call them.. go smthg like *creepy voice* "warrrrrghhh~ tonight i shall eat thy soul.. and rip your body to shreds~" *hang up quickly*) i dont know why, it always ends up as a failure..

first one to call: masahiro kun
no answer

2nd: shagy
pffffffffffffft.

3rd: hiro pon
=___________=;;;

*suddenly recieve msg from masahiro*
chesss.. lepakking rupanya.

4th: akiran
(for some reason half way through i didnt feel like pranking him anymore, dakara, i hung up XDD)

5th: pyonn chan
nyaaaaaa!! why is your phone always dead??!!!!??!!!

6th: try calling shagy again
*phail*

oohhh~~ all my "friends" have forsaken me!! (except masahiro kun XDD, who good willingly passed me some nice info on some nice ppl~)

i need to do some evil now.. getting some ideas from my all time sadistic hero, hamada masatoshi~

hahaha, you can guess im watching gaki no tsukai. yay! im addicted again!! XDD
oh and i read some manga about killer school girls, which in fact, proves that highschool girls ARE INDEED DANGEROUS.

Doubt (started a long time ago, but just managed to finish)
Saitama Chainsaw Shoujo (looking forward to see the ending! XD alien invasion? hope its not some dumb dream~)
Gekkoh (abandoned... damn, the story was too slow~)
and some other stuff~~ forgot already (i've been reading yaoi~ XDDXDD lol!!!)

ok, back to hamada.. yay! gaki no tsukai banzai!!!

Sorrow Made Me.

Finally, we get back to class after 3 weeks of holiday.. well, holiday for everyone except me la.
Anyway, this sem im taking 4 subjects... interestingly all of them have different lecturers and classes~ weeeeeee~

Research Project, taught by Mr. Daniel and Multimedia Design2 with Shahrulnizam on Wednesday
Animation 2 with the communist dictator on Thursday
and Drawing Concept 2 with Encik Dugong aka Mr. Lim on Friday~

ahahahahahaha!!!!!! You do know what that means right? XDXDDD

1) I FREAKIN PASSED MY FRIGGIN ANIMATION 1!!!!!!!!!! XDDXDDXDDD LOL
2) I STILL CONTINUE MY REGIME OF HATING MONDAYS AND STAYING HOME ON TUESDAYS!! XDD

hmmmmmmm~~~~ but my mural painting still not finish la... i wonder when i'll get to continue? im so lazy~~ theres a lot, and most of it is the higher parts where its hard for a short person like me to reach.. moreover im afraid of heights *epic phail*

tch. baaaaaaaaaaahh.. anyway, i'll still have to do it. i'll just gamble my freakin life on the stupid ladder~ who else is gonna do it? ne? XD

*ganbatte, miyuki! Y^Y*

A Little Girl's First Experience with Alcohol

Ehm, not me. XD

But earlier today I went to the supermarket and while at the cashier, I saw this elderly man give his Jolly Shandy to his young daughter, maybe around 7 or 8. The guy finished most of it and gave the little that was left for the girl to taste... so the girl took it enthusiastically and had a sip, then ran to the other kids waiting outside.

All the other kids were so amazed... they were like "waahh... what does it taste like??" and the little girl took another sip, made a face and went "gaahh!"

I wonder if that made her drunk? XD

Speaking of little girls, yesterday me go lepakking with my favorite punchbag/kekasih, shagy! XD
Jalan2 at alamanda~ heheheeh shagy belanja me waffles at waffle station... My God, it was the best!! Imagine... a beautiful fluffy waffle with 4 SCOOPS OF VANILLA ICE CREAM, Fudge, banana, peach, blueberries and strawberry topping. VERY HAPPY DESU! XDXDDD
Then we went o watch G.I Joe.. with shagy's other kekasih. Pfffft. I'm so much better dammit. Anyway, while waiting for 7 o'clock (thats when the movies started) we sat outside... tch. Well, that part was boring. I dont get her boyfriend really.. its like in 2 hours he could smoke like 1 box of cigarettes! (Ok, exageratting a bit, but HE DOES SMOKE A LOT!!) and im sorry to say, i couldnt really understand what the hell he was talking about~ He spoke with a kinda slurrrrrrrr~.. hahahaha

The funny part was he didnt know shagy's past... so he thought me and her were collegemates. Hahaha, you know, thats just asking to be played by me. When I told him we met in high school he actually asked where we studied...LOL!!! Apa lagi... Sarawak desu. XDD

Anyway, eventhough I may not like the guy, he makes my stupid girl happy... haiiiiihh.. what to do? Layan je la... Orang bercinta ni.. susah nak sogok.. so why bother? I've tried so many times already.. Bwaaaaaaaahhh... the girl is still happy with him. Fine, if he makes her feel that way... im... (reluctantly) ok with it. hahaha ske laa tu shagy. bodoh kau.

Which reminds me of the conversation i had with her yesterday.. about her classmate Munzir. His cousin and shagy got scandal a while back... hahaha, dah nk msk meminang lak tu. XDD
And for some reason during high school me kena bahan me and munzir got scandal.. im always like "WTF?!" hahahaha good times, good times~

So, shagy was telling me (something like this laaa :P):

Shagy: Weiyh, munzir ade contact aku dowh. Aku tanye die single lg ke?
Die ckp alaaa hana xnk kt aku~

me: LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
gle bangang kawan kao.

shagy: Hahahaha, pastu aku ckp "Ko xde tanye~ cmne die nk taw?"
die kate, "alaa.. hana tu fhm2 je laaaa~"

me: kepala hotakkkk korg. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Anyway, ASL LAAA KORG NAK JUGAK UNGKIT NAMA AKU HAH??!!! SIAL LAAAAA!!!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, funny la. Long time havent laughed like that~

To munzir, if you're still short, me dont want you. You know why? CUZ I STILL REMEMBER YOU SAYING IM NOT A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL REMEMBER FOREVER!!!!!!!!

**hahaha, jk, jk. All my posts have been so emo, i thought why not trying to post something happy. Well, aparently im phailing.

Anyway, back to little girls. After the movie, me and shagy round2 alamanda.. then we passed Famous Amos~ a little girl was there. She was asking her daddy to buy her ice cream while making a suggestive gesture with her hands at *ehm* suggestive place~

me: *look at shagy*
shagy: *looks at me*
both: BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!
*run away*

haiihhh.. little girls these days....

p/s: SHAGY PAKAI 2 SPECK!!!! XDXDDD 1 kt t-shirt, another....... LOL
(inside joke, folks)

T^T

im so sad~
i dont like what i have become~

im so sad~
i dont like the fact that my brother gets to be a wannabe rockstar~

im so sad~
i dont like the fact pyon~ chan havent given me my chocolate yet~


I AM MIYUKI'S BORED SOUL. TTATT


p/s:
pon chyan~ you should buy a purple bass...

kay kay~ we should really go to petrosains one day... =.=

masahiro kun~ you know.. i know where you live lo... maybe i should be threatening you in exchange for something of my interest? hmmm.. i think im too nice la... hahahahaha

beatrice~ i need paint. and i need a car...

Yes, I am miyuki's forsaken soul. My hands are numb from painting the whole damn day and now im bored and cold. And im sick again.

Hello, my recklessness again.

*Insert completely unrelated title here*

Nyaaaaaaa~ wonderful people of planet Earth! Mari peluk! XD

I'm now on holiday from stupid college now.. but i still need to come back everyday.. why? Cuz I'm makin your damn college walls more beautiful. Right now me and Jeradine are doing a massive collaboration in the stairwell of Segi.. and its damn hard. Everyday I go home with dirty clothes and a pained neck. For what? For the satisfaction of having (finally) somoething of mine admired by fellow students and lecturers.

pffft.

Also, to vivi chan... GOMENASAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My lovely phone got problems, so I recieved your sms of distress a bit very late... T^T *phail* Anyway, as to your question, I'll answer it here, albeit being several weeks too late. If im not mistaken you asked which would I choose, money or love, ne? I choose.. money XD

See, when people say money cant buy you happiness, their wrong. Money does make you happy. And what? If you're broke, you can be happy? Please, take a look in reality, do you think when you dont have money, even if you have wonderful friends and a family that cares can make you happy? In this corrupted society? No...
And love? hahahaha... love is a wonderful thing.... i wont deny it. With love you feel the world and all its filth is nothing to you. You see beauty, you see... whatever you want to see. But with love, comes pain, and its a bittersweet pain to feel, but not all love stories have a happy ending. And hell, where can love get you? It can make you a better person, a better human... it can make you stronger and all, but in this day and age, it will eventually fade, and get you nowehere.

You are alone dakara.

Well, thats coming from a child of a broken home, with a history of betrayal and distrust~ ahhh.. how wonderful love could be if i could actually feel it~ *phail*

Anyway, vivi chan~ me sorry for leaving you hanging... *hugs* gomen ne~ *give candy*



And we come to another friend... i dont know what to do with you. I still dont know where I stand. Do you even see me as a friend? Why must blogging be the only way of communictaion between us... you suck. You are so lame.... it seems that i am no more use to you.


And thus, i am alone again~

*Sigh* MatsuKen............... why you hurt me also? Im so sad... all you like in women...
*starts to cry*
You only like mature women~
Older girls...
Like Koyuki~
*cries even harder*
So if a girl isnt mature, does that mean she isnt strong? You make me feel so sad...


But I still love you~

I'll be fangirling Ruki for now.... untill Koyuki is no more~
T^T

Another emo story.

And the funny thing is... (part 3)

I dont know why... suddenly I feel I'm still dissapointed.
XDXDD

Anyway, everything end well... just have to shut that ego out~ Crack and hack that son of a bitch far away.. yeaaaaa..... *blur*


Time to get some ice cream.... >.> and start saving up for GACC deshuuu... X3

I am Sadako's Guilty Pleasure (XDXD)

The Best of You
Foo Fighters

I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you

Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new?

I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
No, I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You'd die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
Your trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

I’ve got another confession my friend
I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!

p/s:
SHAGY, aku merajok ngn ko. Pujuk aku balik SKARANG JUGAK.
Hiro, you are an idiot. Damn you~
Kay, me nak ikot pegi Genting!! T^T
Jeradine, dont forget my Jigoku Shoujo next week~ ^_^
Masahiro kun, I randomly put names la to the previous tag~ I didnt want to tag anyone~ but got questions below that~ more fun ne? XDXDXD
Frankie, why you dont layan me???? You dont love me anymore??!! TToTT
Hikari, SELAMAT PULANG!!! hahahaha!!!

And yes, I do like Foo Fighters.... they rock~

I am Shagy's tagged victim.

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed
Who said ppl can touch me? =.=''

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
Doomed, then feel like going back to sleep, only to realize I'll be doomed all the same.

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
. . . . .
Cant remember. XDXD I hate taking pictures~ Maybe..... long long time ago........ with Kay?
XDXDXDXDXDXDXD LOL!!!!

4. Would you considered yourself spoiled?
I wish I could~ T^T

5. Will you ever donate blood?
Maybe.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
ahhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~ =__=

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
Is that a problem?

8. What does your last text message say?
Something like "Go find a public library" XDXDXD

9. What are you thinking right now?
The annoying person that I feel like stabbing

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
Yea. Unfortunately, that PERSON would rather be with someone else. HMPH!!!

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
3 a.m

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
*drumroll* Tesco Puchong Branch! XDXD

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
The person I feel like stabbing.

14. Who was the last person to text you?
Pon chyan~


TEN lucky People to do this quiz ;

1. Kay
2. Shagy (me tag jugak!!! bluek!!! XP)
3. Vivi chan
4. Masahiro
5. Beatrice
6. Hiro pon
7. Kurocherub chan
8. Joanne
9. Hikari
10. Random Person

15. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
Mamat Tua. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Kawaii girl

17. If no. 1 and no.7 get together , would it be good?
OMG!! NuoooooooooOOOOOOO!!! Jeradine ish SO not like that! And even so, noone kacau my kawaii imotou!!

18. What is no.1 studying about?
Form 4, so anything a typical student would.. taking LK... at SMK Bintang Utara.. i think~ ahahaha

20. Is no. 4 single?
I have no idea, but since he's so free, I think, yea, probably~ :P

21. Say something about no. 2.
Kalau psl bnde merepek cmni baru ingat aku eh... poyo... cesss~

22. What do you think of no. 3 and no.6 being together?
Someone's dream come true~ >.>

23. Describe no.9.
Sadist sister that went away to study in Johor~ Ohhh.... hiiiiikaaariiiiii~~
Your chainsaw is getting ruuuuusstyyyyyyyyyy~~

24. What will you do if no. 6 and no.7 fight?
Seriously, that would be very interesting.. hmmm....
ME WATCH.

25. Do you like no. 5?
Yes, she's a very good friend and one of the nicest person I've ever met~ :D

I am Jack's smirking revenge.

Ohooo~me watched Fight Club the other day.. and seriously,I loved every second of it.
ahahaa~~

The fights in it were real, I mean, no cool kung-fu matrix stuff, but real street ugly fighting. Which was disturbing really,but entertaining nontheless.. (seriously? hopefully i'm still considered normal.. a bit. XD) And Brad Pitt was awesome.. never really liked him you know, but he is really fun to watch. The guy CAN act, its just his bonafide superstardom that makes people like me not interested... =.= and not to mention Edward Norton and Helena Bonham Carter~

But what I liked most about the movie was the diaolog. Man, it was seriously crazy. XDXD
If you haven't watched Fight Club yet,go watch it. I'm just amazed at how long it took for me to get hold of it (came out it 1999), but it's also a good thing, cuz if I had watched it sooner, I don't think I would've understood half the crap they were bitchin' about~

Anyway, some memorable quotes (taken off imbd.com) :

Narrarator: This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time.

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Lou: [Lou hits Tyler in the face] Do you hear me now?
Tyler Durden: No, I didn't quite catch that, Lou. [Lou hits Tyler again]
Tyler Durden: Still not getting it. [Lou hits Tyler a few more times]
Tyler Durden: Ok, I got it. Shit, I lost it. [Lou continues to beat up Tyler]

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Tyler Durden: Only after disaster can we be resurrected.

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Tyler Durden: Fuck damnation, man! Fuck redemption! We are God's unwanted children? So be it!
Narrator: OK. Give me some water!
Tyler Durden: Listen, you can run water over your hand and make it worse or... [shouts]
Tyler Durden: look at me... or you can use vinegar and neutralize the burn.
Narrator: Please let me have it... *Please*!
Tyler Durden: First you have to give up, first you have to *know*... not fear... *know*... that someday you're gonna die.

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Tyler Durden: [pointing at an emergency instruction manual on a plane] You know why they put oxygen masks on planes?
Narrator: So you can breath.
Tyler Durden: Oxygen gets you high. In a catastrophic emergency, you're taking giant panicked breaths. Suddenly you become euphoric, docile. You accept your fate. It's all right here. Emergency water landing - 600 miles an hour. Blank faces, calm as Hindu cows.
Narrator: That's, um... That's an interesting theory.

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Tyler Durden: It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.

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Tyler Durden: In the world I see - you are stalking elk through the damp canyon forests around the ruins of Rockefeller Center. You'll wear leather clothes that will last you the rest of your life. You'll climb the wrist-thick kudzu vines that wrap the Sears Tower. And when you look down, you'll see tiny figures pounding corn, laying strips of venison on the empty car pool lane of some abandoned superhighway.

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Tyler Durden: You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world.

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Tyler Durden: Listen up, maggots. You are not special. You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake. You're the same decaying organic matter as everything else.

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Narrator: On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.

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Tyler Durden: Do you know what a duvet is?
Narrator: It's a comforter...
Tyler Durden: It's a blanket. Just a blanket. Now why do guys like you and me know what a duvet is? Is this essential to our survival, in the hunter-gatherer sense of the word? No. What are we then?
Narrator: ...Consumers?
Tyler Durden: Right. We are consumers. We're the bi-products of a lifestyle obsession.

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Tyler Durden: We're consumers. We are by-products of a lifestyle obsession. Murder, crime, poverty, these things don't concern me. What concerns me are celebrity magazines, television with 500 channels, some guy's name on my underwear. Rogaine, Viagra, Olestra.
Narrator: Martha Stewart.
Tyler Durden: Fuck Martha Stewart. Martha's polishing the brass on the Titanic. It's all going down, man. So fuck off with your sofa units and Strinne green stripe patterns.

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Narrator: Was it ticking?
Airport Security Officer: Actually throwers don't worry about ticking 'cause modern bombs don't tick.
Narrator: Sorry, throwers?
Airport Security Officer: Baggage handlers. But, when a suitcase vibrates, then the throwers gotta call the police.
Narrator: My suitcase was vibrating?
Airport Security Officer: Nine times out of ten it's an electric razor, but every once in a while... [whispering]
Airport Security Officer: it's a dildo. Of course it's company policy never to, imply ownership in the event of a dildo... always use the indefinite article a dildo, never your dildo.
Narrator: I don't own... [Officer waves Narrator off]

Oh, teman.

Tukar bahasa, gunakan B.M lak~ hahaha.. (yea, and may you all MARVEL AT MY BEAUTIFUL BM!!! XDXD MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Anyway, aku ade sorg kawan ni~~ Name die.. pendek kata, shagy.
Shagy ni.. kt blog die ade tulis bnde ntah cm "The old me is dead and gone.. blablabla, somethingsomething bnde x menarik"
ok.

So, short story pompuan ni ckp die menyesal (?) or dgn diri die yg dulu..or diri die yg dulu ni skang dh mati, mampos xlyn kaa?

Kamu nehh.... menyesal sgt ke ng diri ko yg lame hah?
Ko bangga laa ngn diri ko yg skarang ye?

Oh, aku bkn ape... si shagy ni.. best friend aku.. aku fhm sgt laa ape yg terkandung dlm isi otak die tu... xde bende ponn. haha.

Tp yg aku nk ckp skang ni...
Kenapa mesti menyesal ngn diri kamu yg dulu? (And I'm not just talking about shagy here!)
Tapi, bukan ke... diri ko yg dulu tu laa... mengubah jadi diri ko yg skarang?

Yea, aku benci, menyesal, ntah ape kejadah lagi feeling kt action aku from the past, tapi, tu sume dijadikan pengajaran weiyhh.... Jadikan sebahagiaan drpd diri ko yg skarang.


Oh cgy-cgy.. aku nantikan saat ko nk bwk aku gi funfair. AKU NAK PEGI FUNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!
p/s: weiyh smalam aku jmpe bdk cm ramadhan seyh~ lalalalala


Ahahaha.. ckp psl kawan.. teringat si Bedah... Fatin oh Fatin~ kemana kau menghilang ohh rakan evilku?
Fatin ni pn satu... menghilang gi Holland... you better bwk balik BELGIUM CHOCO utk aku. Or else expect more fish tagging pictures of you on Facebook! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!
Dah tu hari tu janji nak bg poster L Change the WorLd.. baahhh... mesti abang ko x amek kn...hmph.... mesti ko xde ckp pn ngn abang ko suro amekkn utk aku kn... <.<


Oh, Kenichi...
teringat plk PC baby aku... sian die... hanging lagi... myawwww..... sorry baby.. mama yg bersalah~~ T^T
Haritu aku bkk cr lgu jpn aku...
dan sangat kecewa....
lagu2 yg latest download sume hilang...
ALICENINE AND GAZETTE WEIYHHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TTTT_____TTTT

demo, yg paling buat aku sedih... lagu OH MY JULIET hilang.
Oh... no, no, babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TT^TT

It rains in My Heart When the Sky Cries

I think I'm depressed. =.=''

Seriously~ Haaaaah.....I'm tired already. Mentally tired. I've had enough, I want out.
You know, these past few days have been stressing for me. One thing that is getting to me is my 3dmodelling work.
Well, I guess it suits me right for delaying and procrastinating so much. Damn, after my internet got cut only I realized how damn lazy I really am. For God's sake, imagine me sleeping or doing random stupid stuff instead of working on my 3dmodelling.. I mean, I do realize the fact that I keep delaying finishing it is because of something mentally bugging me, but, damn, 3 weeks! 3 WEEKS!!! arrghhh... and then when I DO WANNA START doing it, suddenly my pc got problem la... what the fcking hell la? Seriously, i cant take it!

Then yesterday I didn't know what I should do... keep quiet and ponteng my animation class today, or tell my lecturer, Dictator Ching and face him today~

I was actually scared... i knew what i should do, but i dont know why, i just couldn't find the answer. It may seem like nothing, ponteng class, and really, it isn't.. (hahhahhahahahahaha) but, you know, sometimes... its better to face your problems and be honest to yourself. My lecturer, he knew I had problems with modelling and so far, he has been helpful and tolerant throughout all the weeks I took to finish the first assignment. Bahhhh, I guess I ffel like I'm cheating myself in this subject. I know I can do it, but I just dont wanna do it. I suck, I hate myself for that.

Its funny, while I was thinking about what I should do, I suddenly was reminded of Hiro pon~ hahaha XD
ehemmm... Its cuz everytime I get myself into trouble like this I go emo and bitch about it to him... XDXDXD lol
Then he tells me what I should do, but then go "Oh, I know that.. just bitchin"...I mean.. whats the point? XDXD Aiyahh.. idiot...

Anyway, its like, when I'm faced with a problem, I know what I'm supposed to do.. but last night, I was such in a state of despair, I wanted to cry.. I felt helpless for some reason.. If I'm doing whats right, then why am I crying? Then it hit me. I had no faith in myself.


And thus continued with the thoughts of deadly despair, at the same time trying to cancel them out and think positive. After a while I was ok though, hahaha, and dictator-san said it was ok, but he said that I'll have to finish everything before the end of June, and get an A, or fail. Yea, A or FAIL. Nothing in between. XDXD lol *swt*

I decided to come today. Though I was depressed the whole time. I got a little "panic" or "anxiety"or something like that in class.. hahaha~ maybe not a real attack la, but I was worried and thinking bad thoughts till I couldn't control my feelings and cried~ T*T

I feel stupid now~~ grrrrrr.....

Anyway, now, I officially pledge my alliance to the Communist Dictator!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! *not a communist la, just saying XP*

*Looks at what I just wrote*
I'm damn messed up la. And annoying. And really.. WTFH?
Now.. where'd my ignorance go....? XD

Hope It Gives You Hell [Stolen from Kay Kay]

I'm bored like hell. I feel empty and hatred filling up inside me. Oh well, at least I can release tension with random hate mail~ Kay, I stole from you~ hahaha

Dear (the first person that comes to your mind).I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

___12___,
-Your name-



1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - CastratePink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scared
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

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Dear Shagy.
I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it when that night at the mental hospital and I saw you ignore my best friend. I'm sure you're scared enough to understand that Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep my virginity as a memory. You should also know that I never will forget embarrassing rash.

Fuck off now,
Miyuki♥