Save Me From the Fires of 1000 Suns

Today.. a little ranting about Linkin Park. Recently they've released their new single, The Catalyst off their upcoming album A Thousand Suns. So the thing is, fans have mixed views about their new single, and how the album is gonna sound like. LP's transition from their Hybrid Theory era to Minutes to Midnight have been speculated by fans, and honestly most people hate it. They want the old LP back, with all their Hybrid glory, and make rebellious music like they used to. So whats my take on this, as a die hard Lp fan?

As I mentioned on my twitter page;
"Maybe its fangirlism talking, but I get pissed when ppl talk crap about the new LP songs. They just dont get what they're trying to do~ Its what artistes do, evolve. Whats wrong with trying and experimenting with something fresh and new? And how could you expect them to make music like Hybrid Theory? Yes, Hybrid was brilliant, but they gotta move on. Maybe the new album isnt gonna be as brilliant as Hyrbid, but that doesnt mean theres less passion. I guess thats what sets them apart from other bands~ Either you love them, or you could STFU."


See, LP is both artist and artiste. What I mean is that they aren't just performers, but they're also you could say, practitioners of art. If you're an artist you can understand the need to change the comfort zone you're in. You want to experience different things, to evolve. It doesn't matter if other people like it or not, because its indulgent. Either you have the openness to love it, or you hate it for your own reasons. The thing that matters is that YOU love it, because its yours and you told your story. If that story could reach out to people, make them feel, make them understand, then you have gold. To compare LP as a musical performer to someone else, maybe they come off short as creating something as widely accepted and celebrated as Hybrid Theory. Some people might think they've lost their touch, and cant recreate that epicness, unlike some other performers who dont fail to release an equally good album.

In my opinion I think they CAN reproduce Hybrid Theory, but they DONT want to. What for? They arent the same people they were back then. They cant be going on about how the hate the world, or how people hate them~ I think the lyrics that they write now, about the issues of this world, are excellent. It gives people hope. And thats saying a lot, cuz I hate this world. I despise it. Hearing the lyrics gives me something to look forward tomorrow. Who are you to condemn them of giving people that? Anyway, these are my opinions only. Yeah I love them, but I also respect other people's opinions too. Imma fangirl, but I refuse to be one of those stupid annoying whores that love Twilight and Bieber and cant understand anything other than those 2 things.

I'm not a music or an art expert, but I do love LP and been loving them since One Step Closer, and I understand and appreciate what they're trying to do. So that being said, I'll be looking forward to A Thousand Suns that's coming out September 14th. As sure as hell I'll be buying it and you know I'll be loving it. ;D

Everything has an end, but it doesnt mean it will be lost

Dear best friend. I'm sorry about my last post, whether or not you read it or not.
I wont delete it, cuz its something that I was feeling at the time, I wont hide it.

I'm just sorry cuz I the things I said will, or did hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you, in fact you know how much I love you.:D

So, if we stop being best friends like we were once upon a time, or we drift apart, I wanna tell you

that the times we had together I cherish
and whatever it is, I am here for you
I'm glad I got to know you
and I'm glad you consider(ed) me as an important person
so thank you

I hate you all, you know. But I love you.

I see you hiding with your tears
This song is written for you
It bends into your story
Everytime its played over

Energy lifts up from the trees, my heart
Fitting the ears listening

A golden glitter thread weaving
Into the garment of tears
Spinning and releasing your thoughts
Untucking the moment from your heart

Love Love Love
Here they come, my lambent fireflies
Surrounding you, lighting up your trail
Love Love Love
Close your eyes, were all under the same sky
You have me
Whoever you are
I love you.

Everyone is included
Take your time if you need rest
Fall asleep, Ill watch over you
Youll wake when youve had enough

Energy lifts up from the soil, flowers
Turning distress to strength

Whatever you do, dont give a damn what they say
You are wonderful just the way you are
Cant stop whats coming your way

Love Love Love
From highlands whispering out, calling your name
Brightening your north star
Love Love Love
Close your eyes, lets dance together all night
You dont need anything
This is real to me

Love Love Love
From highlands whispering out, calling your name
Brightening your north star
Love Love Love
Here they come, my lambent fireflies
Surrounding you, lighting up your trail
Love Love Love
Close your eyes
Were all under the same sky
You have me
Whoever you are
I love you.

"It seems strange that my life should end in such a terrible place, but for three years, I had roses, and apologized to no one. I shall die here. Every inch of me shall perish. Every inch, but one. An Inch, it is small and it is fragile, but it is the only thing the world worth having. We must never lose it or give it away. We must never let them take it from us. I hope that whoever you are, you escape this place. I hope that the world turns and that things get better. But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you. I love you. With all my heart, I love you. -Valerie"

Remember! Theres a small step to take from the living room to kitchen!

Yesterday night me went beraya at Kay's house all the way in gombak... so freakin far, I am grateful that highways exists.. （´Д｀）

anyway, i was really hoping to taste kay's mama's chicken~ XDD demo demo.... i only got kuey teow~ ohh nevermind, sedap juge. hahahahahaha. me give kay kay duit raya also, so nice her aneue~ 8DD

well, the stupid part of all this is when i was at her house we didnt know what to do.. so being the hikikomori/otaku/computer addicts we are, we go online and watch gintama while spamming vivian and wen who were also online (wen was at vivi's house, hahaha like mama like son （´Д｀）) ... hahahahahhaa phail. Mamoru coincidentally was online too, so i made him come along to kay's house~ (me and kay never met him before, suddenly ask him to come over... 8D crazy kids)

and so we found our victim. >D

Very awkward at first.. then after breaking the ice by kutuk several fellow *ehem* spammers *ehm* we got along quite nicely. Luckily i brought over bungapi so we can play~~ yaaay~!! XDD
(not tht fun laa playing alone T^T)

I aksed kay if she had any candles... she brought out birthday candles...... XDDXDDDD
Then, i attempted to melt the wax from those birthday candles (eventhough i knew it wouldn't work) and suddenly ruru chyan came out... "Lilin cake mne nak cair.. *facepalm*" XDDD
So kay went to find one very small stub of a candle.. ok laa... can still be used~ （´Д｀）


and so Kay's house was like it was on fire.... XDD (i brought 1 whole box and some big ones, unfortunately no firecrackers. XDD)

We made lotsa idiotic patterns on the pavement and the cheap bungapi burned out too fast... dammit, but the funny thing was that sometimes it would ignite again and suddenly just take of randomly in the air like mercun go haywire~ XDD tht was fun, one almost kena me (scream like girl) then when kay was trying to ignite hers suddenly it flew of XDDD (ayt x ley blaa~)

the climax was when we gathered all the sisa2 of the bungapi and all the stick from the big ones and set them on fire (ruru was the who threw the match.. i somehow phail with matches （´Д｀）)
hence, beautiful flames and sparks came to life....

ok.. too much flames....

*start cuak*

*kay gets hose*

*me cuak samore, ruru start gelak*

*kay fumbles with the hose, water cannot come out*

*flames start dying*

*me watch kay still fumbling with the hose, only then she realizes she didnt turn the faucet*

*flames die*

*kay waters it down*

*phail*


（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）

ok so then being good Samaritan, i wanted to help sweep the driveway and cleanup the freakin mess we made, so i asked for a broom.. kay gave me the very lembut type~ she said thts the only one she could find~ somewhere, sometime at this point ruru was inside and for some reason (i forgot) i stole his shoes and wanted to burn it. hahahahahahahaha

"hoi! kasut rm200 lebih aku!! bagi balik!!!"

*me run*

*kay runs out of the way*

*ruru almost corner me*

*me try to pass the shoes to kay, but kay lari*

*me run to the back*

*ruru kejar samore*

"kay!! where are you?! amek laa nehh!!"

*kay xmo msk campur*

*me run samore, ruru right behind*

*suddenly i trip on my kain and fall~ ruru get back his shoes*

"tu laa! aku berdaulat!!"

*phail*

moral: dont do evil in baju kurung.
*i found out after i went back my knee was scrapped and bled a bit.. good thing my baju didn't tear =o=*

and that was the end events of Miyuki's Adventure: Beraya at Kay's House!!! <--- heh, nice tittle no? XDD

And how the hell you get a car crash outta this?

Also, dedicated to:

kay kay, my lovely kay kay
ratu shark poyo
hiro pon and his sayang, and his other sayang. XD
masahiro kun~
and vivi chan <3

why? cuz these people above i have recently pissed off in one way or another, or simply the other way around.. =__= or just simply we share a lot of "gossip"
>D

yay for MCR!!! XDDD

A Little Girl's First Experience with Alcohol

Ehm, not me. XD

But earlier today I went to the supermarket and while at the cashier, I saw this elderly man give his Jolly Shandy to his young daughter, maybe around 7 or 8. The guy finished most of it and gave the little that was left for the girl to taste... so the girl took it enthusiastically and had a sip, then ran to the other kids waiting outside.

All the other kids were so amazed... they were like "waahh... what does it taste like??" and the little girl took another sip, made a face and went "gaahh!"

I wonder if that made her drunk? XD

Speaking of little girls, yesterday me go lepakking with my favorite punchbag/kekasih, shagy! XD
Jalan2 at alamanda~ heheheeh shagy belanja me waffles at waffle station... My God, it was the best!! Imagine... a beautiful fluffy waffle with 4 SCOOPS OF VANILLA ICE CREAM, Fudge, banana, peach, blueberries and strawberry topping. VERY HAPPY DESU! XDXDDD
Then we went o watch G.I Joe.. with shagy's other kekasih. Pfffft. I'm so much better dammit. Anyway, while waiting for 7 o'clock (thats when the movies started) we sat outside... tch. Well, that part was boring. I dont get her boyfriend really.. its like in 2 hours he could smoke like 1 box of cigarettes! (Ok, exageratting a bit, but HE DOES SMOKE A LOT!!) and im sorry to say, i couldnt really understand what the hell he was talking about~ He spoke with a kinda slurrrrrrrr~.. hahahaha

The funny part was he didnt know shagy's past... so he thought me and her were collegemates. Hahaha, you know, thats just asking to be played by me. When I told him we met in high school he actually asked where we studied...LOL!!! Apa lagi... Sarawak desu. XDD

Anyway, eventhough I may not like the guy, he makes my stupid girl happy... haiiiiihh.. what to do? Layan je la... Orang bercinta ni.. susah nak sogok.. so why bother? I've tried so many times already.. Bwaaaaaaaahhh... the girl is still happy with him. Fine, if he makes her feel that way... im... (reluctantly) ok with it. hahaha ske laa tu shagy. bodoh kau.

Which reminds me of the conversation i had with her yesterday.. about her classmate Munzir. His cousin and shagy got scandal a while back... hahaha, dah nk msk meminang lak tu. XDD
And for some reason during high school me kena bahan me and munzir got scandal.. im always like "WTF?!" hahahaha good times, good times~

So, shagy was telling me (something like this laaa :P):

Shagy: Weiyh, munzir ade contact aku dowh. Aku tanye die single lg ke?
Die ckp alaaa hana xnk kt aku~

me: LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
gle bangang kawan kao.

shagy: Hahahaha, pastu aku ckp "Ko xde tanye~ cmne die nk taw?"
die kate, "alaa.. hana tu fhm2 je laaaa~"

me: kepala hotakkkk korg. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Anyway, ASL LAAA KORG NAK JUGAK UNGKIT NAMA AKU HAH??!!! SIAL LAAAAA!!!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, funny la. Long time havent laughed like that~

To munzir, if you're still short, me dont want you. You know why? CUZ I STILL REMEMBER YOU SAYING IM NOT A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL REMEMBER FOREVER!!!!!!!!

**hahaha, jk, jk. All my posts have been so emo, i thought why not trying to post something happy. Well, aparently im phailing.

Anyway, back to little girls. After the movie, me and shagy round2 alamanda.. then we passed Famous Amos~ a little girl was there. She was asking her daddy to buy her ice cream while making a suggestive gesture with her hands at *ehm* suggestive place~

me: *look at shagy*
shagy: *looks at me*
both: BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!
*run away*

haiihhh.. little girls these days....

p/s: SHAGY PAKAI 2 SPECK!!!! XDXDDD 1 kt t-shirt, another....... LOL
(inside joke, folks)

Hello, Mr.Brightside.

Finally, I'm done for this semester. All my final coursework I did cincai only. WTF, I give up. Now all I need to do is to upload my crummy personal website on a server and I'll be free from Segi... until March 23, that is. Bwaahhh, and my animation lecturer even gave us some advice before we parted ways.. more like warning though... "Next sem someone else is gonna teach you guys. Its a Chinese fellow. Strange guy. Very strict, cannot play² in his class. He wont be giving you any chances like me (stares at me XD). His standard: Final Fantasy."

OMG, I'm freakin doomed. T^T

Anyway, this last day was both happy, and very depressing. Sucidal depressing. Shall I ramble what the hell happened to me here? Umm.. maybe some other time. You know, my head is always up in space. I barely come down..its so peaceful up there.. part of the reason why I'm always out is because once I get back down to Earth I think I become depressed.. well, I'm not sure about that, but one thing's for sure that I have a psychological problem of some sort.. 0.o'' Anyway, by going into blank blur mode I think helps me stay sane.. XP

Surprised? Lol, I've had so many countless times finding myself crying alone in a bathroom stall, It's become like a monthly thing to me. (BEWARE! Beginning to get all emo all of a sudden~)
I find myself being abandoned by everyone I depend on, thats why now I don't trust anyone. My parents, my brothers, my friends. Everytime, I find myself alone. Is it because I don't open up to people? But how can I? I don't trust anyone, so how can I tell them my problem? I don't even tell my best friend.. Does that make me a bad friend for not trusting her? Is it that I'm scared of being hurt again that I stay away from those who "care" for me? DO they even care? Who am I to them???? If my father could leave me like he did, then why shouldn't others do the same?


. . . .

I think I'm psycho-ing myself.


Oh yea, thats the first time I publicly said my father left me. OMG, I'm getting teary eyed. XDXDlol, Maybe some other time I can get more off my mind. I'm not used to expressing what I'm feeling. hahahahaahaha. So, random people from the internet that randomly came across this blog, I'm sorry I emo-ed half way throug my post. This one was supposed to be the happy one. Dammit. pfft. yea I suck, but who cares, this is MY BLOG, WHERE I RULE. BWAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nonetheless, whatever crappy things happen to me, I'll still try and look for the rainbow after the storm

Hello, Mr.Brightside :)