Tonight, we die.

The red moon shines brightly
as it mocks the diamonds of the land
glass tears brake and shatter
i call back, take my hand

To the brightest star I would see,
come to me, come to me,
before tonight dies
and the dawn roams free
as it takes away the darkness that I hold so dear
will I see your eyes
in the morning
or would the rain come down
and make it the end of me

Take me away
sail me free
into everafter
bring me into your wonderland, gumdrops or pearls
the shadow grows larger, i am a coward, am i a coward
my mask is breaking

The lost queen is dying
the butterflies are on the move
the clouds have parted
but will the light shine through?

A new day.

What About Now lyrics
Songwriters: Hartzler, Josh; Hodges, David; Moody, Ben;

Shadows fill an empty heart as love is fading
From all the things that we are but are not saying
Can we see beyond the scars and make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky and open up to
The ways you made me feel alive, the ways I loved you
For all the things that never died
To make it through the night, love will find you

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes to start a new day
This broken heart can still survive with a touch of your grace
Shadows fade into the light
I am by your side, where love will find you

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

Now that we're here, now that we've come this far
Just hold on
There is nothing to fear, for I am right beside you
For all my life, I am yours

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, baby, before it's too late
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

Someday, maybe.

SADAKO IS DEAD.

Teh Best Damn Thang...

...watching Paris Hilton's head roll on Supernatural and Colin Morgan say "Well look on the bright side, you still got me.." to Bradley James in Merlin. Hell yeah that made my week.


~ XDD

die die die my darling

i thought after a while it would've died away already
honestly i did think so
but then today when you came
suddenly i felt the pain
damnit, why'd i have to let myself be so vulnerable?
was it just because i wanted to know what it was like?
to have that bubbly feeling, happy always in the inside?
was it just so i could feel attached to someone?

im sorry, i made you like my toy
im paying the price i assure you
i dont know why
i do feel the pain
the ache
again
and again
makes me hate myself
it makes me feel ashamed i let my heart be free and naive
i wish i could go back
and keep everything inside
all the nonsense emotion
thats the person i was
and thats the person that i am
for i am the solitude shadow
being left behind
but watching closely
i can be your friend
i can be your enemy
but in the end, i still remain alone
though i am grateful for the few people that come my way
eventually they will leave
so i guess thats what made me do it
and now i regret
im sorry~

Dream come true? XDD

lol. but that was a long time ago, ne? XDD

Of the Supernatural and ...Merlin~ *and spoilers galore!*

Ok, before I forget.. HAHAHAAHA PON CHYAN!! I WAS RIGHT DAMMIT!!!!! SEE MY AWESOME THEORY OF SAM'S ROLE IN SUPERNATURAL!!! fuck, but still... lame... >.>

ok, spoiler:

lol-ed so freakin hard at Dean's attempt to corrupt Castiel. hahahaha Ohh.. the joy of watching those two... i wish i could yaoi them... ahahaaha Castiel's face was so funny!!! And I want surprised the hooker went out screaming~ hahahahaha!! well, at least it was because of nothing I would *cough* have imagined *cough*

Just stick to the basics, DO NOT order off the menu!

Moving on... Merlin has come back into my life, and I am happily fangirling Arthur again, played by teh most awesome Bradley James~ And.. in the first episode of the second season, we first see him... scruffy, just woke up and not wearing a shirt... (nosebleed) ahhh... that scene was MADE FOR THE FANGIRLS!!! AND I LOVED IT!! KYAAAAAAAA!! (<--- mandatory fangirl scream) But the thing is, I'm so pissed off at the direction of the series is going...

*spoilers!! spoilers!!!*


Ok, we see in season 1, Gwen was like, all over Merlin, and Arthur had something for Morgana right? So what the hell, come in season 2, where the hell did these "moments" between Gwen and Arthur come from? I mean, the only hint of it in season 1 was the last episode where Arthur was sick and dying AND unconscious and Gwen was by his side, saying those "ganbatte" lines or whatever... and in the series, Gwen just so happens to be a maid! WTH?!! The people behind the series just want to make up this sorry excuse for a love tragedy or something? And would Merlin be ok with ArthurxGwen, since in the trailer of one of the episodes he was kissing Gwen, but crying at the same time~ And he was the one with all the "moments" with Gwen, so HE TAKE GWEN LAAA!!! (huh! yes kay! LET SHE BE WITH MERLIN!! BWHAHA!!)



It'll be much more interesting if Arthur were paired up with Morgana, since she's a seer, and Uther really wants magical beings to die. Imagine, Arthur eloping with Morgana for fear of Uther~ But then he wouldn't get the throne now would he? But it still would be much more interesting if he was with Moragana nonetheless. Anyway, Gwen would also bring the downfall of Arthur, the Old Dragon should tell that to Merlin. Tell Merlin he should kill Gwen. haahahahahahahahaa!!!! DIE BITCH!! DIE!!!!!!!!

(In the legend Gwen commits adultery with Lancelot, henceforth brings the downfall of King Arthur, Arthur went out to kill Lancelot, putting Gwen under Mordred's care but later married her and stole the thrown. Arthur killed him, but was wounded and was brought to Avalon (or on the lines of something like tht =.=). If you remember, Mordred was the druid boy Merlin and Morgana tried to save, even after being told by the dragon he'd be the death of Arthur.. ironically it was Arthur that sent him back to his people.)

Another thing I want to clear up for some Merlin fans is about Excalibur. In the series Merlin went and threw the sword in a lake. Some people said this was stupid, because, well, in all places why the hell throw it in a lake? This is because in one of the Arthurian legends, Arthur receives Excalibur from the Lady of the Lake, also known as Nimueh.

Speaking of Nimueh, in one of the legends, she is supposedly Merlin's apprentice and later Merlin falls in love with her, building her a house by the lake of Diana. Merlin tells her a weird story of Diana and her lover, how she trapped her lover and poured hot lead onto him (as if there isnt another way to kill a guy) so she could be with some knight. The guy saw how fucking assed crazy Diana was and so he cut of her head and threw her body in the lake. This kinda mirrored what Nimueh did later on, as she trapped Merlin in a tomb (Merlin saw it coming, he but he didnt do anything and just went on teaching Nimueh everything he knew).



So, like hell I'd end this post without mentioning Morgana's original character. Her actual name is Morgan le Fay, alternatively known as Morgana which I like to call her. So in the legend, she's a badass powerful enchantress, the antagonist of King Arthur and Gwen. Contrary to the series, Gwen and Morgana really do hate each other... she's still Arthur's half sister (different father), in later literature she is Arthur's healer and one of the enchantresses that takes him to Avalon.

After being forced to marry one of Uther's allies, she is unhappy with the marriage and takes on a string of lovers, later being caught by Gwen and thrown out. She then continues studying magic, at one point being a student under Merlin while plotting against Arthur and Gwen. Morgana was the one who stole Excalibur's scabbard and threw it in the lake, never to be found. It is said it had magical powers itself, the bearer would not bleed to death in battle. She also was the one who exposed Gwen and Lancelot (yeaahhh!! go girl!!) and used Mordred as a pawn in her game. But at the end of one legend, all her evilness was said to be a test for Arthur and his knights and to scare the shit out of Gwen (yes, im reading wiki). Anyhow, Morgana still rocks. XD Oh and I'm wondering if she'll become the evil person she is in the series, last season we saw her almost embracing her evil side, having almost killed Uther... but that didnt work out now did it? hmm... might be interesting seeing her joining the dark side. haha


And after all this, why you ask, WHY do I still watch Merlin, eventhough it has been butchered and become so.. corny as to draw in interest from the t.v couch potatoes of the world?

The answer is Bradley James. lol. *nosebleed*