Welcome to the Dead Leaf Parade.

So yea, now for real updates.

First of all... SHOUJO MANGA BANZAI!! rofl, I'm so loving shoujo manga now... the comedy ones, mind you.. definitely NOT Vampire Knight and the like~

And you know why? Because of bishies. Yes, i like them more straight. LMAO!! Yaoi hinting is nice, but to have them wasted on fellow guys are just a waste~ T*T

Ok, honestly, I dont really read a lot of shoujo manga, and most of them are insanely intolerable, especially those where the characters have eyes as bigs as melons. But, there are a few that are really good~ Skip Beat, Kaicho wa Maid sama, High School Debut, one shots from Motomi Kyousuke, my fave shoujo mangaka and I recently started reading Oresama Teacher.. damn hawwwwwwt~ *nyappy~*

Switch girl is also good, cuz the heroine is just crack (pun not intended). Wallflower is good because of Nakahara Sunako, a girl I wish to be very much. But ultimately, Mogami Kyouko from Skip Beat has got to be the luckiest (well, after her bad luck streak la) girl ever. She has the most popular actor in Japan, 2 (scary and hawwt) vk rockers plus some other dudes trying to win her heart.. the best part is... SHE HAS NONE!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

Ohh did I mention the actor dude is also scary? I think he's probably the most scariest in the manga, after Kyouko. I think I have a thing for scary guys like that. It makes me wonder if I'm really a masochist. Hmmm~~ lol random

[ok REAL update now]

I'm now into my 6th semester, so next semester which will start in June (I think) I'll be starting my friggin internship!! BWAAHHHH~!! I cant wait to get out of tht dumbass college. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!!

So right now, I'm trying to hunt down my work so I can add them to my so empty portfolio. T*T

My mother wants me to balik kampung for my practical.... in other words, go back to Canada~ for like, 3 months.. until Raya. So if I do go there, I would be fasting there.... "orz you have to wake up at 4 dammit~

KAYKAY!! HIKARI!! ANEUE WILL MISS YOU DEARLY!! That is.. if I go... I dont wanna get my hopes up or anything, anything can happen you know... the thing is my mom is like, dead set on sending me away~ =w=

I just hope I can still be able to be a hikikomori if I go there~

Aside from going there, I'm interested going to Animasia or some publishing company that my friends are aiming for. It'd be cool if you get to do your practical with people you know.. it makes being anti social easier.. you dont need to socialize as much with people you never met before. Rofl.

Incomprehensible logic from hell, I know. XDD

P/S: I forgot to make a post tribute to Ruki during his birthday. T*T gomen ne, taka chan. But I think I got it covered... all over... my blog... his smexxy face~~ *drools* Happy Belated Bday though darling~ Love you~ ngeeeeeeeeee~~ :3

Oh Kenken... I need to post more of your pics~ Do you realize how much I love you? This ai'nt healthy man~ T*T Ahh.. fuck whoever, I cant stop loving you. Take that, *********

btw, *cough* encik senior sudah single balik. from what i've been stalking la. 8D

Wishful balloons, fly away with my heart, my feelings... and explode with all your might

Its the 7th already..... Kenken's bday was 2 days ago... I missed my annual planned happy birthday spam on all of my anti-social networking sites.. damn. OTZ at least I got to spam fb~ *semangat*

Wahh~ its been a while since I was last posted something here. Posted and actually WROTE something.. hahha should I copy pasta more random lyrics? XP

You know, I thought it was just a joke before this, but I have come to realize I really cant, I mean seriously CANT have any emotions or feelings or whatever the hell crap for anyone.... cuz I fangirl too much!! It took THREE guys to tell me that, and yet I thought nothing of it.

I love Kenichi too much.

On the eve of his birthday, I was in a really bad mood.. but suddenly for some reason I felt light hearted... and was kept being reminded of him~ (I lost track of what day it was - rofl) Plus I was listening to my emo kero soundtrack~ I felt... eto~ you know... the feeling you have when you see your crush~ lol~ Then I realized it was almost the 5th. XDD Super fangirl PAWAAAAAA!!

Just in case you're wondering, my emo kero playlist includes these songs;

21 guns

kuroi namida ~deep sadness version [anna tsuchiya]

guren [2nd husband's band]

dreams [haikara]

love love love [olivia]

tears and rainbows (which i love!!) [olivia]

goodbye days [yui]

wonderwall [oasis]

.... well you get the picture. :3

By the time you get to this part, you realize I really dont have anything good to say. 8D

I just felt like writing.. rather talking... its what, 5 a.m who the hell am i supposed to talk to? The ghost above my ceiling? No~ pfft.

Happy Birthday Kenichi... even though I may remain lifeless, loveless, emotionless, single and worthless (most probably end up alone and die a virgin) I will always love you.

Tonight, we die.

The red moon shines brightly
as it mocks the diamonds of the land
glass tears brake and shatter
i call back, take my hand

To the brightest star I would see,
come to me, come to me,
before tonight dies
and the dawn roams free
as it takes away the darkness that I hold so dear
will I see your eyes
in the morning
or would the rain come down
and make it the end of me

Take me away
sail me free
into everafter
bring me into your wonderland, gumdrops or pearls
the shadow grows larger, i am a coward, am i a coward
my mask is breaking

The lost queen is dying
the butterflies are on the move
the clouds have parted
but will the light shine through?

A new day.

What About Now lyrics
Songwriters: Hartzler, Josh; Hodges, David; Moody, Ben;

Shadows fill an empty heart as love is fading
From all the things that we are but are not saying
Can we see beyond the scars and make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky and open up to
The ways you made me feel alive, the ways I loved you
For all the things that never died
To make it through the night, love will find you

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes to start a new day
This broken heart can still survive with a touch of your grace
Shadows fade into the light
I am by your side, where love will find you

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

Now that we're here, now that we've come this far
Just hold on
There is nothing to fear, for I am right beside you
For all my life, I am yours

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, baby, before it's too late
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

Someday, maybe.

SADAKO IS DEAD.

Teh Best Damn Thang...

...watching Paris Hilton's head roll on Supernatural and Colin Morgan say "Well look on the bright side, you still got me.." to Bradley James in Merlin. Hell yeah that made my week.


~ XDD

die die die my darling

i thought after a while it would've died away already
honestly i did think so
but then today when you came
suddenly i felt the pain
damnit, why'd i have to let myself be so vulnerable?
was it just because i wanted to know what it was like?
to have that bubbly feeling, happy always in the inside?
was it just so i could feel attached to someone?

im sorry, i made you like my toy
im paying the price i assure you
i dont know why
i do feel the pain
the ache
again
and again
makes me hate myself
it makes me feel ashamed i let my heart be free and naive
i wish i could go back
and keep everything inside
all the nonsense emotion
thats the person i was
and thats the person that i am
for i am the solitude shadow
being left behind
but watching closely
i can be your friend
i can be your enemy
but in the end, i still remain alone
though i am grateful for the few people that come my way
eventually they will leave
so i guess thats what made me do it
and now i regret
im sorry~