Tragic Kingdom

5 years and counting.

2011-11-01T18:16:00.003+08:00

This blog should die along with all humanity.

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Drum for me, For the dawn I Sing; Hail! Hail! Soldiers of Art & Design Come Marching In!

2011-04-13T13:32:00.008+08:00

Nyaaaaaa the time has finally come for my graduation showcase! 8D It's a bit late to promote, but here's the some of the banner designs I came up with.

Please come on down to Annexe Gallery, cuz we'll be going on for the whole week. Com and support us, cuz my God, we need it. XD lmao

Anyway, this showcase is important for us to show the world "Yeah, we're designers, and we're ready for the World dammit!" Or something like that. I think the theme is actually pretty cool though~ haha Soldiers of Art & Design.. yea we fuckeen rock. 8D So please do come~ students from masscom and photography (reaallly pretty work guys), and the rest of FOCAD (Faculty of Creative Arts&Design) are joining in, so it wont hurt to look yo. Especially if you've just finished school and interested in design. It could show you what you're about to do in college. SO SHOW YOURSELF. OR DIE! >D (yay sadist mode:on!)

Date: 12th April 2011-17th April 2011

Day: Tuesday- Sunday

Time: 11am - 5pm

Venue: The Annexe Gallery, Central Market.

Entry: Enter at your own risk (FREE ENTRY).

For more details you can check out the facebook page or can ask me via twitter, cuz you know I aint gonna come back here in a while lulz. =w=

P/s: seek skulls and you'll know its me.

Edit: Oh yeah, and here's a SUPER AWESOME vid promoting the event. You should watch it for the pure epicness of it. If that vid doesn't make you wanna see the event, still just come for the skulls. 8D

My Nauseating Romance (minus the love)

2011-02-07T14:28:00.003+08:00

.... Tyler Durden replied my tweet. That would be like, the closest I'd ever get of having a famous person replying my tweets. Yes, I am that sad. And desperate. I mean, what the hell do I have to do to get Ruki or Matthew Gray Gubler or whoever else I stalk. Dammit. =w=

Ok forget about that, just butthurt fangirl rambling. YEAH YOU DONT CARE ABOUT THAT!

Anyway HAPPY 2011! 8D I think.. this is my first post of the year? Yeah I guess so, since Im lazy as usual, and I can muster the slightest energy to blablabla about whatever. Well 2010 was interesting. Every year you learn more about yourself, and other people.. the people you care about, the people you didnt think you'd care for. Well let me tell you something I've learned; people change. Yea bitch they change. Even your best friend, someone you'd think would always be there for you will change. It just depends whether you change accordingly or you learn to compromise with that changed person. Well, eventually you'll get what I'm saying.

In recent years I learned that highschool friends or anyone you went to school with wont always be your friends. Best friends from grade school till death? Come on, that RARELY EVER happens. Now thanks to social networking you can keep tabs with your old friends via facebook and myspace (or whatever you lame ppl use) and dont have to actually talk to them! Isnt that something?! I know whats going on with all my old classmates, but I havent actually talked to them in 4 years! Cool huh?

My best friend from high school deleted her facebook a couple of months ago. Now she's active only on formspring and her blog I guess. I remember I used to call her every friggin day, just to talk. I was bored and I never could get a long with anyone from college. Hell, even in highschool I'd call her everyday after school lol. When facebook became the rage I'd start calling her less and interact more online. Hey, it was cheaper and much more practical. We could share links and pics and everything so it was cool. I'd still call her more or less though when I started getting bored. Sometimes she'd sms me too. But the interaction later became less and less... so did the interaction between me and my other close school friends. Yes, change came. I wasnt the same person I was 5 years ago.

Now that my friend deleted her fb, I havent heard much from her. Last time I did was around my bday. Lol the ironic (shitty mostly) part of it her phone is unreachable too. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO CONTACT YOU SHAGY?! ARRGHH!! D<

Well, my point is.... some friends will break up eventually. I still love my shagy-poooh but the truth is, we're not the same ppl we were back then. Life happened. Her heart was broken, my life was torn, we've met ppl on another side who we find we can connect to much better.. and yet we both know we'll always be there for each other. Like the happy ending of a tragic love story. Yes, I'm overly dramatic.

That cant be said for most of the people I meet. Last year I lost.................... 3, maybe 4 friends? Sad really, cuz I dont make friends so easily anymore. 2 of those friends were people I really cared for. Well, one of them, lets just say we had creative differences. There was nothing really creative about our dispute, but the thing is that she kinda failed to compromise with my fury rage that comes ever so often.............. stop judging me. =w=

Its very rare to find someone so compatible with your character~ Let me tell you a story how I met sachi~e. If I or sachi~e told you this story, you might know that we met randomly in a class a couple of years ago. And it was like fate that brought us together. Yes it true, but I never told anyone what really was happening. Well, its like this, for me, it was like love at first sight. Its weird really, I dont know what love at first sight feels like, but when I first saw her I really wanted to be her friend. I felt she was different from anyone else in the class and I was hoping she sat near enough so I could probably talk to her or something. BEHOLD, SHE DID. lol she found an empty seat next to me. Well, at that time I had issues.. i didnt know how to speak to ppl and I was paranoid. So I ended up not speaking to her~

The following week she came in late, and she sat beside me again. While doing our work I noticed her notebook. I saw her drawings and sketches and doodle. I was relieved finally I had something in common with her. I wanted to speak, but Istill couldnt. Lmao I'm so weird, now that I'm remembering it the more it seems like a lesbian love story of some sort. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OHH MAIIIIII AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH well, no, im completely straight. Anyway, i ended up not talking to her again. Sad (pathetic), ne?

But the following week I figured, if I cant open my damn mouth to speak to her, then I'll have to make her speak to me first. So heres something I did that even sachi~e doesnt know.... 8DD I opened my notebook that was also filled with sketches and doodles and shit and I put it at an angle where she would see it. Yes it sounds lame, but come on, I completely lacked self confidence that time! I couldnt even look ppl in the eye dammit. And yea, it worked. XDD I DONT REGRET DOING THAT. I COULDNT OPEN MY MOUTH SO I LET MY DRAWING DO THE TALKING!! -dont judge me dammit. =w=

Anyway, I'm glad I did that. I found someone compatible for me. I may not find love, may never find it, but its ok. I found someone I cant let go. Lol. Which brings me to lost friend #2, where I almost lost sachi~e because of him. I think... if things didnt turn out they way they are now.. I might have lost her. I cant bare that. Honestly, you know, the very first person I opened up to when my dad left was her. It was weird, we were just having lunch together and I just got to know her... but I blurted it out to her anyway. We're awesome that way. 8D

Thank you sachi~e for failing 5 times at the same class!

NOLAN IS AWESOME. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY HE WASNT NOMINATED FOR BEST DIRECTOR FOR THE OSCARS. I THINK THATS BULLSHIT AND I CALL CONSPIRACY, JUST LIKE IT WAS A FUCKEEN FB CONSPIRACY THE SOCIAL NETWORK WON BEST PICTURE FOR THE OTHER AWARD SHOW THAT ESCAPES MY MIND AT THE MOMENT.

Oh and I'm in love with Cillian Murphy.

That is all.

THE NEED TO GO DEEPER!

2010-12-15T14:47:00.001+08:00

[Copy pasta from IMDB]

How come when the van drives off the bridge in Level One, the dream is in zero gravity in Level Two, but the dream in Level Three has perfectly normal gravity?

Firstly, we know that the effects of one level have stronger effects on their proceeding level than any after that which is why Saito feels less pain from his gunshot wounds as he gets deeper. Level three is therefore less likely to feel the effects of level one. Secondly, the dreamers in Level one (Specifically Arthur, because Level Two is Arthur's dream) are feeling a zero-gravity drop which causes Level Two to lose gravity. However the dreamers in Level Two, (Specifically Eames because Level Three is his dream) aren't FEELING zero-gravity, they're EXPERIENCING a lack of gravity. It's the movement that affects the dreamer not the experience and thus, because the dreamers probably can't feel this weightlessness when they're asleep, it won't affect their dream.

Ok that made perfect sense! 8D

/RAGE

2010-10-27T18:29:00.000+08:00

Fucking idiots. I was trying to understand, to accept.

But you.. the both of you...

All of you...

Is it fun for you to see me like this?

For how long should I remain silent until I scream out foul?

Know that we'll never be the same.

Know that you tore my heart out and burned it.

Know that you'll be the cause of rage and depression.

Cuz if you have an ounce of guilt left in you

I want it to grow and make you suffer.

When the World is Kind, but Reality Stays Cruel

2010-10-26T11:37:00.004+08:00

This life... its such a bitch.

Everytime you think you have everything under control for the first time.. it turns around and smacks you in the face. "Haha Loser"

Oh fuck you life.

Its not that I aint grateful... but you know the feeling when you have no idea what you're doing? As in, wheres the life you live? Like wondering what the hell you've been doing all this time? *sigh* Such annoyance.. the people around me, my routine, my dreams, reality, my relationships with people... I wish there was more.

Again with the whiny ranting of how fucked up this life is. Fuck you its my blog I can say whatever I want. Yes I'm childish.

But you know what? There's a difference between being childish and being immature. I like to consider myself a childish adult. Why? Cuz I can take on the responsibility life throws at me. Unlike this person whom I will not name cuz it doesnt matter, lets just say this person is a guy. So this guy likes to ramble on about how fucked up life is, like me. :D But alas! This person's luck isn't as bad as mine. I'd like to state why, and what makes my life so difficult, but I dont feel comfortable talking about it on a public blog. I dont know what his life is messed up about, but I doubt he suffers as much as I do. Sure, he got his issues, but I'd think they're more to self-issued issue rather than life's fun way of saying "fuck you". Anyway, why compare him and me? Cuz this "guy".... just annoys me. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.

Sigh... well, when life throws you lemons... you just have to enjoy the sourness. Put it in your mouth and cry, but you'll feel something awesome. Bitter, sour, but ironically amusing. When you have a negative take on your so-called "fucked-up" life, when you say everything bad always happens to me... when you think bad luck is stalking you... you know.. just STFU. People have it worst than you, so just get on with your self pitying life. Like me, I like to ramble and pity myself a lot. Why? No one gives a fuck. So after emo-ing, I just carry on. I mean, lifes like that, you cant expect everything to be rolled out in front of you, unless you're privileged. Damn, I wished I was privileged. You can't call yourself a man if you keep pitying the way your life is. If you hate your life so much, than fucking change it. Whats stopping you, rite? Money? Relationships? Fuck all of them, its your life, go live it! Cuz no one's gonna live it for you.

One thing I learned from watching Doctor Who is to just forget it all, and go where your heart desires. Its scary, but I cant live static for the rest of my life. My mind wont allow me. If I'm destined to be poor the rest of my life, then I'd find other ways to take me places.

Having ties to someone.. its heavy. I watched that George Clooney movie, Up in The Air and his motivational philosophy intrigued me, about the backpack stuff. How heavy ties and bonds to other people are. The closer the heavier. Its true you know.... the more you care the more you feel dragged behind in life. But really, why do we do it? Why tie yourself to other people? Fear of dying alone? Fear of being forgotten? We all die alone. But what is life without cherishing it with someone?

There are 2 voices in my head. One is a really dark part of me. Has no emotions, has violent thoughts and just hates everything. Somehow I think, if this part of me ever takes over.. I will be a sociopath. I mean, I dont know how to prove I do have really really scary thoughts... some might say I'm just trying to be cool or something, like making it up. Yea I do have a thing for sociopaths (Sherlock, Dexter) but that doesn't mean I wanna be emotionless and act violent for no reason. And when I say I have depression I'm not lying. =w= FYI. But another part of me, remains human. The part of me that wants to believe the good in people, that wants to love everyone. That gives a damn.

So whats my point? Well, these 2 voices in my head.... are bugging me. Confusing me to the point I dont know whats right or wrong. To be reckless, to embrace the darkness that haunts me, or to be the caring aneue people turn to. Arghh my head is a soap opera. My best friend wants to be happy, I wanna see her happy. But I cant. Misery loves company? Or am I just jealous? Jealous of what? I always believed deep down the nicer part of me knows the answers, but is suppressed by the mean part....

I need a coke. =w=

Olivia's Greatest Hits

2010-10-18T16:07:00.002+08:00

Olivia's Greatest Hits CD out!
I waaaaaaaaant!! Cuz I'm so in love with her!! X3

I'll edit and update later, wanna do something... posting before I forget.
Actually it has been out a couple of days now. LOL

p/s GERARD WAY IS HOT WITH RED HAIR.
kthxbye

MySpaceBulletins

2010-09-05T03:33:00.001+08:00

Soundtrack to Your Life

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Opening Credits:
Empire State of Mind -Jay-Z& Alicia Keys
Waking Up:
Set Apart This Dream - Flyleaf
Average Day:
Uragiri No Yuuyake- Theatre Book
First Date:
Beautiful Day -u2
Falling In Love:
The Unforgiven -Metallica (lol)
Love Scene:
My Moon My Man - Feist
Fight Scene:
Pop Is Dead - Miyavi
Breaking Up:
Stars Shinig Out -Olivia
Getting Back Together:
Thats What You Get -Paramore
Secret Love:
Daybreaks Bell - Laruku
Life's Okay:
Buiiki kaesu!! - MTH
Mental Breakdown:
Hanabi -Ikimonogakari
Driving:
Brick by boring bricj -Paramore
Learning A Lesson:
Chizuru - Gazette
Deep Thought:
Escape the Flames -Olivia
Flashback:
Master of Puppets -Metallica
Happy Dance:
Shoot to Thrill -AC/DC
Regretting:
Blind Unicorn - Olivia
Long Night Alone:
Frozen -Celldweller
Death Scene:
Howling -Abingdon Boys School
Closing Credits:
Space Halo -Olivia (omg love! XD)

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Save Me From the Fires of 1000 Suns

2010-08-20T13:31:00.010+08:00

Today.. a little ranting about Linkin Park. Recently they've released their new single, The Catalyst off their upcoming album A Thousand Suns. So the thing is, fans have mixed views about their new single, and how the album is gonna sound like. LP's transition from their Hybrid Theory era to Minutes to Midnight have been speculated by fans, and honestly most people hate it. They want the old LP back, with all their Hybrid glory, and make rebellious music like they used to. So whats my take on this, as a die hard Lp fan?

As I mentioned on my twitter page;
"Maybe its fangirlism talking, but I get pissed when ppl talk crap about the new LP songs. They just dont get what they're trying to do~ Its what artistes do, evolve. Whats wrong with trying and experimenting with something fresh and new? And how could you expect them to make music like Hybrid Theory? Yes, Hybrid was brilliant, but they gotta move on. Maybe the new album isnt gonna be as brilliant as Hyrbid, but that doesnt mean theres less passion. I guess thats what sets them apart from other bands~ Either you love them, or you could STFU."

See, LP is both artist and artiste. What I mean is that they aren't just performers, but they're also you could say, practitioners of art. If you're an artist you can understand the need to change the comfort zone you're in. You want to experience different things, to evolve. It doesn't matter if other people like it or not, because its indulgent. Either you have the openness to love it, or you hate it for your own reasons. The thing that matters is that YOU love it, because its yours and you told your story. If that story could reach out to people, make them feel, make them understand, then you have gold. To compare LP as a musical performer to someone else, maybe they come off short as creating something as widely accepted and celebrated as Hybrid Theory. Some people might think they've lost their touch, and cant recreate that epicness, unlike some other performers who dont fail to release an equally good album.

In my opinion I think they CAN reproduce Hybrid Theory, but they DONT want to. What for? They arent the same people they were back then. They cant be going on about how the hate the world, or how people hate them~ I think the lyrics that they write now, about the issues of this world, are excellent. It gives people hope. And thats saying a lot, cuz I hate this world. I despise it. Hearing the lyrics gives me something to look forward tomorrow. Who are you to condemn them of giving people that? Anyway, these are my opinions only. Yeah I love them, but I also respect other people's opinions too. Imma fangirl, but I refuse to be one of those stupid annoying whores that love Twilight and Bieber and cant understand anything other than those 2 things.

I'm not a music or an art expert, but I do love LP and been loving them since One Step Closer, and I understand and appreciate what they're trying to do. So that being said, I'll be looking forward to A Thousand Suns that's coming out September 14th. As sure as hell I'll be buying it and you know I'll be loving it. ;D

Of Death, Lies, Roses, Decapitation and Inception.

2010-08-19T11:17:00.005+08:00

Hey budak! 8D

Ahhh, I missed me blog. Long time haven't been writing here... as usual, I found the time to update random crap cuz I got nothing else better to do. And as usual, from the tittle you probably know has nothing to do with what I'm gonna chatter on about.

Ok, the tragedy first.

My older brother pisses me off. He called my mom and told her he was frustrated why I gave up so easily going to Canada, and never doing what he asked me to do. In his mind that's typical Malaysians for you, their mindset at stagnation, negativity seeping into the brain sells like locusts.

You know, I AM a procrastinator, but the reason I didnt do those motion graphic tutorials that he asked me to do were because I DIDNT HAVE FRIGGIN TIME. Seriously, I was working from morning till evening, and get home late every night. Even if I wasnt tired and could do it, my younger brother needed the computer more than I did, as he was busy with his assignments. I mean, I hogged the PC everytime I'm in threat of being toast at the end of each semster, so it would only be fair to let him use it. (Yea we share the pc, we poor students, fuck off)

I dont do work Sundays cuz thats the only day I get a chance to relax. I always kept to that cuz I dont wanna end up being some person that misses out on living. Yea, you could say thats lame, but fuck you its my choice.

Then after a month waiting, my brother told me he didnt have any projects=no work=no money. He told me to just go borrow money from whoever I can. I mean, can you believe that? Not only do I have to pay for the tickets, but also visa and other things I might need. Wouldn't that trouble my mom and other people? He told me to claim my citizenship and all, but might I remind him that I'm going for my practical training only? Like, thats for less than 2 months. Its not worth it, cuz I'm still on loan, and I cant simply just become Canadian you know. If the college finds out then I would have to pay International fees now wouldn't I? Then tell me who is the one that will be suffering? Our mother right? pffft.

But screw that, the thing I'm angry about is that he said I gave up too easily. I mean, REALLY? For God's sake. I can only say if I am one to give up that easily, I wouldn't be living rite now. Even if I was, I wouldn't be here, or I wouldn't recognize the people I love. I would never have imagined he would say something that hurt me so much, never imagine he would make me cry. Thats why I have trust issues. Everytime I lean on someone, or hope for their support they turn around and abandon me. But I cant say that to my brother. I could never tell him how I feel, cuz I know that would hurt him and I'd rather be it me thats in pain than him.. he suffered enough.

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Ok enough of that crap. Take a look at cute Pomeranian Puppies.

Ok enough of that.

I watched the very awesome Inception the other day. And another day. And planning to watch it again. Cuz it feels like a dream you dont wanna end, like when you have a really cool dream then you suddenly wake up, and you try falling back to sleep in hopes you redream it. Thats how awesome it is. I mean, the flow of the whole movie is just so beautiful, especially the climax. How it starts off (the climax) and little by little it build up untill the explosive peak.

Its just so perfect, and thats saying something. I just love how the movie itself is an original concept (yes you can see influences from other movies and stuff, and YES I know about the Scrooge comic, and its mind blowing, but.. screw it. :D)

Ok, even if it wasn't original if you choose to believe Chris Nolan stole it from Scrooge, the way he executed the damn movie was beautiful. The slow motion and the zero gravity.. fuck yes. And the part where they're in the van and everything is slowing down and they're arms and legs go up so beautifully when the van swivels left and right, up and down... the stupid audience I was watching it with were laughing at those parts. I didnt think it was funny at all, hell, seeing the motion they created was just spectacular. All the characters were interesting, lovable, they were human yo. Shit, I wanna write something better than crap I'm talking about here, but my mind is blown.

One thing for sure is, and I quote from @NathanFillion, " Inception. All I'm gonna say is: Hotel hallway. That's a long way from 3rd Rock from the Sun. Nice. "

Yea, my thoughts exactly! Holy shi--- mind especially blown when I realized that dude kicking asses at zero gravity was that teenage alien dude with long hair. I mean, SHIIIIIITT. Its like, watching Keanu Reeves in Bill& Ted then watching him in The Matrix... one right after the other... only like 5 times more mind blowing, cuz I've never seen Joseph Gordon-Levitt star in anything except 3rd rock! THEN I REALIZED HE WAS COBRA FRIGGIN COMMANDER! @_______@ *OKIMMAFANGIRLHIMNOW 8D*

Awesome poster for awesome movie

And the alien teams up with Jack

You've come a long way, my son. We are proud.

I also bought the new Darren Shan book, The Thin Executioner. Really an interesting read, although not as gripping as Cirque, nor as gory as Demonata. I really think all Malaysian children should read Thin Executioner, as it really stresses on respecting other cultures, races, religions and just have respect for one another. The book follows a young son of an executioner, who was dishonored by his father in front of his whole village. He then decides to go on a journey to regain his honor, respect and the hand of his love. Accompanied by a slave that must sacrifice himself for his family, they both encounter hardships and adventure that teaches us all very good lessons.

Still, I prefer blood, brains, and gore. 8D

Pfft.

2010-07-26T15:19:00.003+08:00

I love skulls

I love flowers (roses) and skulls and guns

I love Ed Hardy (eventhough ppl say only douchebags like them)

But for God's sake

WHY THE HELL CANT I DRAW A FRIKKEN SKULL??!!

Random Self-Insecure Tapemeasure Quiz

2010-07-20T16:44:00.002+08:00

Your Last Words:

"So, you're a cannibal."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

Your Bathroom Habits Say You're Selfish

You are very independent and self-centered. You don't solve other people's problems - and you don't expect them to solve yours.

Your idea of fashion is jeans and a t-shirt. Clean, if you're lucky.

You are a little shy and easily embarrassed. You often wonder if you are normal.

In relationships, you are practical and realistic. You have a romantic side, but you only let it out when it's appropriate.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

Tweet My Twitter Freak! (I have no clue wth that means)

2010-07-20T16:20:00.001+08:00

Yea so I'm almost kinda active on twitter. 8D
Cool I stalk celebrities now. Nobody really gives a damn what I tweet about~ Bahahahahah!

I also have a formspring. I dont know why~

Facebook betrayed me. Ruthless piece of jackshit. How could it?! After all the memories we had together~ It made my friends think I dont wanna friend them anymore, and made me emo cuz I thought nobody wanna friend me anymore either. =.= Hence, I make new one. Pffffft. [Sayonara, Bradley]

I missed blogging. Hhahahahahahah XDDD
And I hate myspace even more than before Bwahahahahahahahah~!! So dead, only go there to check updates from jrockers. Apparently they dont use friggin Twitter or FB like the rest of the world. Except Olivia~ ohh darling Livey chan, so updated on... stuff. .____.

Find my twitter thingy!
@ChizuruMiyuki

Formspring me something!
blackorchidpulp

myspace me something unimportant!
myspace.com/byakuya-oniisan

... and facebook~~
no, thats personal enough. >.>

The days I realize I wasnt really living, but not at all dying.

2010-07-20T15:33:00.004+08:00

Wow I havent been blogging at all. HAH! Thought I was dead dint you? DIDNT YOU?!
Well, not yet at least~ 8D

Yea so I've started my internship already, and as I foresaw I didnt get to go to Canada. Fuck. I dont wanna talk about it, cuz it stabs me in the heart everytime I think about it. =.=
But aside from that, I'm doing ok where I am now. To say its not as good as being in Canada.. well.. pfft, but hey, at least I'm still learning here. You know being an eccentric-dont-give-a-damn kinda designer, being in a corporate environment helps a lot to understand what corporate people want, and how they look at things. Its pretty hard coping with what they want and expect, but its all good.

Lately I've been really emo~ not that emo emo, but depressed, to the extent I think I need professional help XDD. What problems I have.. well not really the kind of problems you find in a telenovela, but sometimes things just get out of hand.

Look at this cute thing. K-k-kawaii~!! Less than 3!!

It doesn't help when your whole family is against you. You know, when a friend goes and betrays you it really hurts, but what if your own flesh and blood does that? I'm not saying my family doesn't love me... not at all, but.. its just weird... how I always find myself crying alone at night. *sigh*

Which brings me to the point of blogging about stupid crap like my depression. See, I know, my life was meant to be a crappy one. Not crappy la, but not full of excitement and ambition my mind dreams of. Just a normal everyday life maybe, if I'm lucky. But for now, my life is like the lowest depths of low. To the point I get suffocated and wish that one day someone will come and save me. But this here is reality, and in reality, I gotta save myself dammit. Cuz no fucking dude is gonna come and reach out, so I gotta pull myself up, and then become the dude that saves the lost. Thats what all those nights of tears and self pity taught me. In other words, throw everything at me, cuz as long as I keep to the promises I made to myself, I refuse to succumb to the fear in me.

The promises I made to myself, it keeps me going, keeps my head up.

If death comes and takes me today, I regret not living. Not living life the way I wanted to. Not being a good enough muslim, not being a good enough daughter or sister or friend or person. But thats humans for you, never good enough, never happy with what they have.

I dream; I dream of being someone who creates art, masterpieces. Recently I've been introduced to videos, which is awesome. I love movies~ one day... maybe I can make my own~ But what I dream the most about... is being free. My mother doesn't care if I wanna go out, as long as I dont bother her. But I'm not talking about that kinda freedom. Its just so sad... there is nothing really I can say I'm free to do. I dream of a world with no boundaries, but what I am in now is like a box. Closed box~

R.I.P Milla Jirojovich, Mommy loves you forever.

Its funny how I write about crappy crap first then something totally different at the bottom. XDD Then back to total crap. Bwahahahaha XDDDD

So, my baby Jiro died last May. I was heartbroken, my baby... Jiro was so smart, like the most smartest cat in the world I tell ya. Other cats are just at her mercy. pfft.

Jiro... she loved the outside. I brought her home cuz her owner had to keep her on the balcony when she was away cuz her other cats would chase and scratch her. She was smart enough not to jump off~ :D

When I first brought her home I remember her mouth was foaming... my mother thought she ate a frog.. but no, she was just super paranoid. XDD Like me!! *awww sho cute~*

Jiro kun would always go out and hang out on the roof. She hated being kept inside, she only came back to eats and sleep and play with me sometimes when it got too hot to stay outdoors~

But she got sick... my mom said not to let her out, cuz if she did go out, she'd never come back. So I put her in my brother's room (he doesn't use it, its empty) and spent her dying days in there. She'd always beg to come out, and sit near the door so she could have an opportunity to run. But I still didnt let her go out. I said to her "Jiro, kalau jiro baik nnt mommy bwk kluar ok?"

But a few days went past and she died

I got home and found her by the door

She wanted to go out and taste her freedom just one more last time.

Jiro baby, mommy is so sorry. Mommy regrets not taking care of you properly, not letting you out when I knew you wanted to see feel the wind again. Pls forgive mommy. Mommy loves you forever.

At least now you arent tied down, you dont have boundaries you have to keep to.

You're not living in a closed box.

Everything has an end, but it doesnt mean it will be lost

2010-03-21T17:17:00.003+08:00

Dear best friend. I'm sorry about my last post, whether or not you read it or not.
I wont delete it, cuz its something that I was feeling at the time, I wont hide it.

I'm just sorry cuz I the things I said will, or did hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you, in fact you know how much I love you.:D

So, if we stop being best friends like we were once upon a time, or we drift apart, I wanna tell you

that the times we had together I cherish
and whatever it is, I am here for you
I'm glad I got to know you
and I'm glad you consider(ed) me as an important person
so thank you

To the one I loved, our dance is about to end~

2010-03-18T01:07:00.006+08:00

I dont know why I still call you my best friend... I dont know you anymore. Hell, you seem to not want to have anything to do with me~ You think I bitch around just to be a bitch?

Well fuck you, and fuck whatever it is that your thinking, cuz you dont give a damn about how I feel. Its idiotic isnt it? The only way I have to express myself to you is through my blog. Think about it. Why the hell is that?

So yea. Dont you think I'd be pissed off about now? God dammit, you know that this is the last thing that I'd want to do, but for crying out loud, what the hell do you think I am? My heart isnt for you to break!

I hate you all, you know. But I love you.

2010-03-07T20:45:00.002+08:00

I see you hiding with your tears
This song is written for you
It bends into your story
Everytime its played over

Energy lifts up from the trees, my heart
Fitting the ears listening

A golden glitter thread weaving
Into the garment of tears
Spinning and releasing your thoughts
Untucking the moment from your heart

Love Love Love
Here they come, my lambent fireflies
Surrounding you, lighting up your trail
Love Love Love
Close your eyes, were all under the same sky
You have me
Whoever you are
I love you.

Everyone is included
Take your time if you need rest
Fall asleep, Ill watch over you
Youll wake when youve had enough

Energy lifts up from the soil, flowers
Turning distress to strength

Whatever you do, dont give a damn what they say
You are wonderful just the way you are
Cant stop whats coming your way

Love Love Love
From highlands whispering out, calling your name
Brightening your north star
Love Love Love
Close your eyes, lets dance together all night
You dont need anything
This is real to me

Love Love Love
From highlands whispering out, calling your name
Brightening your north star
Love Love Love
Here they come, my lambent fireflies
Surrounding you, lighting up your trail
Love Love Love
Close your eyes
Were all under the same sky
You have me
Whoever you are
I love you.

"It seems strange that my life should end in such a terrible place, but for three years, I had roses, and apologized to no one. I shall die here. Every inch of me shall perish. Every inch, but one. An Inch, it is small and it is fragile, but it is the only thing the world worth having. We must never lose it or give it away. We must never let them take it from us. I hope that whoever you are, you escape this place. I hope that the world turns and that things get better. But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you. I love you. With all my heart, I love you. -Valerie"

Welcome to the Dead Leaf Parade.

2010-03-07T05:10:00.006+08:00

So yea, now for real updates.

First of all... SHOUJO MANGA BANZAI!! rofl, I'm so loving shoujo manga now... the comedy ones, mind you.. definitely NOT Vampire Knight and the like~

And you know why? Because of bishies. Yes, i like them more straight. LMAO!! Yaoi hinting is nice, but to have them wasted on fellow guys are just a waste~ T*T

Ok, honestly, I dont really read a lot of shoujo manga, and most of them are insanely intolerable, especially those where the characters have eyes as bigs as melons. But, there are a few that are really good~ Skip Beat, Kaicho wa Maid sama, High School Debut, one shots from Motomi Kyousuke, my fave shoujo mangaka and I recently started reading Oresama Teacher.. damn hawwwwwwt~ *nyappy~*

Switch girl is also good, cuz the heroine is just crack (pun not intended). Wallflower is good because of Nakahara Sunako, a girl I wish to be very much. But ultimately, Mogami Kyouko from Skip Beat has got to be the luckiest (well, after her bad luck streak la) girl ever. She has the most popular actor in Japan, 2 (scary and hawwt) vk rockers plus some other dudes trying to win her heart.. the best part is... SHE HAS NONE!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

Ohh did I mention the actor dude is also scary? I think he's probably the most scariest in the manga, after Kyouko. I think I have a thing for scary guys like that. It makes me wonder if I'm really a masochist. Hmmm~~ lol random

[ok REAL update now]

I'm now into my 6th semester, so next semester which will start in June (I think) I'll be starting my friggin internship!! BWAAHHHH~!! I cant wait to get out of tht dumbass college. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!!

So right now, I'm trying to hunt down my work so I can add them to my so empty portfolio. T*T

My mother wants me to balik kampung for my practical.... in other words, go back to Canada~ for like, 3 months.. until Raya. So if I do go there, I would be fasting there.... "orz you have to wake up at 4 dammit~

KAYKAY!! HIKARI!! ANEUE WILL MISS YOU DEARLY!! That is.. if I go... I dont wanna get my hopes up or anything, anything can happen you know... the thing is my mom is like, dead set on sending me away~ =w=

I just hope I can still be able to be a hikikomori if I go there~

Aside from going there, I'm interested going to Animasia or some publishing company that my friends are aiming for. It'd be cool if you get to do your practical with people you know.. it makes being anti social easier.. you dont need to socialize as much with people you never met before. Rofl.

Incomprehensible logic from hell, I know. XDD

P/S: I forgot to make a post tribute to Ruki during his birthday. T*T gomen ne, taka chan. But I think I got it covered... all over... my blog... his smexxy face~~ *drools* Happy Belated Bday though darling~ Love you~ ngeeeeeeeeee~~ :3

Oh Kenken... I need to post more of your pics~ Do you realize how much I love you? This ai'nt healthy man~ T*T Ahh.. fuck whoever, I cant stop loving you. Take that, *********

btw, *cough* encik senior sudah single balik. from what i've been stalking la. 8D

Wishful balloons, fly away with my heart, my feelings... and explode with all your might

2010-03-07T04:28:00.006+08:00

Its the 7th already..... Kenken's bday was 2 days ago... I missed my annual planned happy birthday spam on all of my anti-social networking sites.. damn. OTZ at least I got to spam fb~ *semangat*

Wahh~ its been a while since I was last posted something here. Posted and actually WROTE something.. hahha should I copy pasta more random lyrics? XP

You know, I thought it was just a joke before this, but I have come to realize I really cant, I mean seriously CANT have any emotions or feelings or whatever the hell crap for anyone.... cuz I fangirl too much!! It took THREE guys to tell me that, and yet I thought nothing of it.

I love Kenichi too much.

On the eve of his birthday, I was in a really bad mood.. but suddenly for some reason I felt light hearted... and was kept being reminded of him~ (I lost track of what day it was - rofl) Plus I was listening to my emo kero soundtrack~ I felt... eto~ you know... the feeling you have when you see your crush~ lol~ Then I realized it was almost the 5th. XDD Super fangirl PAWAAAAAA!!

Just in case you're wondering, my emo kero playlist includes these songs;

21 guns

kuroi namida ~deep sadness version [anna tsuchiya]

guren [2nd husband's band]

dreams [haikara]

love love love [olivia]

tears and rainbows (which i love!!) [olivia]

goodbye days [yui]

wonderwall [oasis]

.... well you get the picture. :3

By the time you get to this part, you realize I really dont have anything good to say. 8D

I just felt like writing.. rather talking... its what, 5 a.m who the hell am i supposed to talk to? The ghost above my ceiling? No~ pfft.

Happy Birthday Kenichi... even though I may remain lifeless, loveless, emotionless, single and worthless (most probably end up alone and die a virgin) I will always love you.

Tonight, we die.

2009-12-08T23:43:00.001+08:00

The red moon shines brightly
as it mocks the diamonds of the land
glass tears brake and shatter
i call back, take my hand

To the brightest star I would see,
come to me, come to me,
before tonight dies
and the dawn roams free
as it takes away the darkness that I hold so dear
will I see your eyes
in the morning
or would the rain come down
and make it the end of me

Take me away
sail me free
into everafter
bring me into your wonderland, gumdrops or pearls
the shadow grows larger, i am a coward, am i a coward
my mask is breaking

The lost queen is dying
the butterflies are on the move
the clouds have parted
but will the light shine through?

A new day.

2009-12-08T01:35:00.001+08:00

What About Now lyrics
Songwriters: Hartzler, Josh; Hodges, David; Moody, Ben;

Shadows fill an empty heart as love is fading
From all the things that we are but are not saying
Can we see beyond the scars and make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky and open up to
The ways you made me feel alive, the ways I loved you
For all the things that never died
To make it through the night, love will find you

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes to start a new day
This broken heart can still survive with a touch of your grace
Shadows fade into the light
I am by your side, where love will find you

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

Now that we're here, now that we've come this far
Just hold on
There is nothing to fear, for I am right beside you
For all my life, I am yours

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, baby, before it's too late
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

Someday, maybe.

2009-10-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

SADAKO IS DEAD.

Teh Best Damn Thang...

2009-10-14T10:45:00.002+08:00

...watching Paris Hilton's head roll on Supernatural and Colin Morgan say "Well look on the bright side, you still got me.." to Bradley James in Merlin. Hell yeah that made my week.

~ XDD

die die die my darling

2009-10-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

i thought after a while it would've died away already
honestly i did think so
but then today when you came
suddenly i felt the pain
damnit, why'd i have to let myself be so vulnerable?
was it just because i wanted to know what it was like?
to have that bubbly feeling, happy always in the inside?
was it just so i could feel attached to someone?

im sorry, i made you like my toy
im paying the price i assure you
i dont know why
i do feel the pain
the ache
again
and again
makes me hate myself
it makes me feel ashamed i let my heart be free and naive
i wish i could go back
and keep everything inside
all the nonsense emotion
thats the person i was
and thats the person that i am
for i am the solitude shadow
being left behind
but watching closely
i can be your friend
i can be your enemy
but in the end, i still remain alone
though i am grateful for the few people that come my way
eventually they will leave
so i guess thats what made me do it
and now i regret
im sorry~

Dream come true? XDD

2009-09-29T21:59:00.002+08:00

lol. but that was a long time ago, ne? XDD

Of the Supernatural and ...Merlin~ and spoilers galore!

2009-09-27T20:45:00.010+08:00

Ok, before I forget.. HAHAHAAHA PON CHYAN!! I WAS RIGHT DAMMIT!!!!! SEE MY AWESOME THEORY OF SAM'S ROLE IN SUPERNATURAL!!! fuck, but still... lame... >.>

ok, spoiler:

lol-ed so freakin hard at Dean's attempt to corrupt Castiel. hahahaha Ohh.. the joy of watching those two... i wish i could yaoi them... ahahaaha Castiel's face was so funny!!! And I want surprised the hooker went out screaming~ hahahahaha!! well, at least it was because of nothing I would *cough* have imagined *cough*

Just stick to the basics, DO NOT order off the menu!

Moving on... Merlin has come back into my life, and I am happily fangirling Arthur again, played by teh most awesome Bradley James~ And.. in the first episode of the second season, we first see him... scruffy, just woke up and not wearing a shirt... (nosebleed) ahhh... that scene was MADE FOR THE FANGIRLS!!! AND I LOVED IT!! KYAAAAAAAA!! (<--- mandatory fangirl scream) But the thing is, I'm so pissed off at the direction of the series is going...

*spoilers!! spoilers!!!*

Ok, we see in season 1, Gwen was like, all over Merlin, and Arthur had something for Morgana right? So what the hell, come in season 2, where the hell did these "moments" between Gwen and Arthur come from? I mean, the only hint of it in season 1 was the last episode where Arthur was sick and dying AND unconscious and Gwen was by his side, saying those "ganbatte" lines or whatever... and in the series, Gwen just so happens to be a maid! WTH?!! The people behind the series just want to make up this sorry excuse for a love tragedy or something? And would Merlin be ok with ArthurxGwen, since in the trailer of one of the episodes he was kissing Gwen, but crying at the same time~ And he was the one with all the "moments" with Gwen, so HE TAKE GWEN LAAA!!! (huh! yes kay! LET SHE BE WITH MERLIN!! BWHAHA!!)

It'll be much more interesting if Arthur were paired up with Morgana, since she's a seer, and Uther really wants magical beings to die. Imagine, Arthur eloping with Morgana for fear of Uther~ But then he wouldn't get the throne now would he? But it still would be much more interesting if he was with Moragana nonetheless. Anyway, Gwen would also bring the downfall of Arthur, the Old Dragon should tell that to Merlin. Tell Merlin he should kill Gwen. haahahahahahahahaa!!!! DIE BITCH!! DIE!!!!!!!!

(In the legend Gwen commits adultery with Lancelot, henceforth brings the downfall of King Arthur, Arthur went out to kill Lancelot, putting Gwen under Mordred's care but later married her and stole the thrown. Arthur killed him, but was wounded and was brought to Avalon (or on the lines of something like tht =.=). If you remember, Mordred was the druid boy Merlin and Morgana tried to save, even after being told by the dragon he'd be the death of Arthur.. ironically it was Arthur that sent him back to his people.)

Another thing I want to clear up for some Merlin fans is about Excalibur. In the series Merlin went and threw the sword in a lake. Some people said this was stupid, because, well, in all places why the hell throw it in a lake? This is because in one of the Arthurian legends, Arthur receives Excalibur from the Lady of the Lake, also known as Nimueh.

Speaking of Nimueh, in one of the legends, she is supposedly Merlin's apprentice and later Merlin falls in love with her, building her a house by the lake of Diana. Merlin tells her a weird story of Diana and her lover, how she trapped her lover and poured hot lead onto him (as if there isnt another way to kill a guy) so she could be with some knight. The guy saw how fucking assed crazy Diana was and so he cut of her head and threw her body in the lake. This kinda mirrored what Nimueh did later on, as she trapped Merlin in a tomb (Merlin saw it coming, he but he didnt do anything and just went on teaching Nimueh everything he knew).

So, like hell I'd end this post without mentioning Morgana's original character. Her actual name is Morgan le Fay, alternatively known as Morgana which I like to call her. So in the legend, she's a badass powerful enchantress, the antagonist of King Arthur and Gwen. Contrary to the series, Gwen and Morgana really do hate each other... she's still Arthur's half sister (different father), in later literature she is Arthur's healer and one of the enchantresses that takes him to Avalon.

After being forced to marry one of Uther's allies, she is unhappy with the marriage and takes on a string of lovers, later being caught by Gwen and thrown out. She then continues studying magic, at one point being a student under Merlin while plotting against Arthur and Gwen. Morgana was the one who stole Excalibur's scabbard and threw it in the lake, never to be found. It is said it had magical powers itself, the bearer would not bleed to death in battle. She also was the one who exposed Gwen and Lancelot (yeaahhh!! go girl!!) and used Mordred as a pawn in her game. But at the end of one legend, all her evilness was said to be a test for Arthur and his knights and to scare the shit out of Gwen (yes, im reading wiki). Anyhow, Morgana still rocks. XD Oh and I'm wondering if she'll become the evil person she is in the series, last season we saw her almost embracing her evil side, having almost killed Uther... but that didnt work out now did it? hmm... might be interesting seeing her joining the dark side. haha

And after all this, why you ask, WHY do I still watch Merlin, eventhough it has been butchered and become so.. corny as to draw in interest from the t.v couch potatoes of the world?

The answer is Bradley James. lol. *nosebleed*

Kimi wa hitori ja nai~

2009-09-25T16:17:00.007+08:00

I right this in the memory of one of my fave mangakas, Yoshito Usui sensei, who passed away recently. Yoshito sensei was the mangaka of Crayon Shin Chan, one manga that has a special place in my heart. All the times when i was down, emo, all alone, when I felt the world was my enemy, I'd take a shin chan manga and just read it. It put a smile on my face when everything else failed, and made me laugh so hard I'd forget all my problems. I'd post a link to the news, but ironically... i read it at sankaku complex. *phail*

*cough* Well, i was online with Vee senpai yesterday and she said probably Shin Chan would be done by someone else now. Unfortunately it'd be totally different from the original.. T^T I'm just hoping Shin Chan would have proper closure for the readers and fans~

Yoshito Usui sensei, may you rest in peace.

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And on another note, Happy birthday sengal chan! May my ****one day be big enough to rival yours! XDD nggeee~

Remember! Theres a small step to take from the living room to kitchen!

2009-09-24T11:38:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night me went beraya at Kay's house all the way in gombak... so freakin far, I am grateful that highways exists.. （´Д｀）

anyway, i was really hoping to taste kay's mama's chicken~ XDD demo demo.... i only got kuey teow~ ohh nevermind, sedap juge. hahahahahaha. me give kay kay duit raya also, so nice her aneue~ 8DD

well, the stupid part of all this is when i was at her house we didnt know what to do.. so being the hikikomori/otaku/computer addicts we are, we go online and watch gintama while spamming vivian and wen who were also online (wen was at vivi's house, hahaha like mama like son （´Д｀）) ... hahahahahhaa phail. Mamoru coincidentally was online too, so i made him come along to kay's house~ (me and kay never met him before, suddenly ask him to come over... 8D crazy kids)

and so we found our victim. >D

Very awkward at first.. then after breaking the ice by kutuk several fellow *ehem* spammers *ehm* we got along quite nicely. Luckily i brought over bungapi so we can play~~ yaaay~!! XDD
(not tht fun laa playing alone T^T)

I aksed kay if she had any candles... she brought out birthday candles...... XDDXDDDD
Then, i attempted to melt the wax from those birthday candles (eventhough i knew it wouldn't work) and suddenly ruru chyan came out... "Lilin cake mne nak cair.. *facepalm*" XDDD
So kay went to find one very small stub of a candle.. ok laa... can still be used~ （´Д｀）

and so Kay's house was like it was on fire.... XDD (i brought 1 whole box and some big ones, unfortunately no firecrackers. XDD)

We made lotsa idiotic patterns on the pavement and the cheap bungapi burned out too fast... dammit, but the funny thing was that sometimes it would ignite again and suddenly just take of randomly in the air like mercun go haywire~ XDD tht was fun, one almost kena me (scream like girl) then when kay was trying to ignite hers suddenly it flew of XDDD (ayt x ley blaa~)

the climax was when we gathered all the sisa2 of the bungapi and all the stick from the big ones and set them on fire (ruru was the who threw the match.. i somehow phail with matches （´Д｀）)
hence, beautiful flames and sparks came to life....

ok.. too much flames....

*start cuak*

*kay gets hose*

*me cuak samore, ruru start gelak*

*kay fumbles with the hose, water cannot come out*

*flames start dying*

*me watch kay still fumbling with the hose, only then she realizes she didnt turn the faucet*

*flames die*

*kay waters it down*

*phail*

（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）（´Д｀）

ok so then being good Samaritan, i wanted to help sweep the driveway and cleanup the freakin mess we made, so i asked for a broom.. kay gave me the very lembut type~ she said thts the only one she could find~ somewhere, sometime at this point ruru was inside and for some reason (i forgot) i stole his shoes and wanted to burn it. hahahahahahahaha

"hoi! kasut rm200 lebih aku!! bagi balik!!!"

*me run*

*kay runs out of the way*

*ruru almost corner me*

*me try to pass the shoes to kay, but kay lari*

*me run to the back*

*ruru kejar samore*

"kay!! where are you?! amek laa nehh!!"

*kay xmo msk campur*

*me run samore, ruru right behind*

*suddenly i trip on my kain and fall~ ruru get back his shoes*

"tu laa! aku berdaulat!!"

*phail*

moral: dont do evil in baju kurung.
*i found out after i went back my knee was scrapped and bled a bit.. good thing my baju didn't tear =o=*

and that was the end events of Miyuki's Adventure: Beraya at Kay's House!!! <--- heh, nice tittle no? XDD

I believed him when Mr. Daniel told us school robs a child's sense of inquiry.

2009-09-21T11:28:00.003+08:00

... and therefore, you should always remember, there are things in this universe that is just too large (read: awesome) for school. I'm not gonna tell you you dont have to go, cuz then you're just gonna end up a bum.

And in other news, Friday night was spent at alamanda with shagy, of whom finally had time for me since her sayang went away. Supposedly balik kampung, but unknown to her I asked my good friend Kayoko (from ju-on) to scare the shit out of him the other day... there were no survivors. XDD jkjk.

GAaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh~ Burger King was nice.... hehehehe.... sooo goood... especially when you tgh kebulur..... ohh.. the beautiful melted cheese and mushrooms.... and hershey's sunday pie... XD yes, HERSHEY'S. So you know.. CHOCOLATE. AND ICE CREAM. XXDD

shagy makan whopper. pfft.
XD

After tht we go jln2.. si poyo got laa her bag... blabla... demo, me couldnt find any kasut raya tht i liked... and if i liked any... ta muat.... =o= stupidsmallfeetpeople.

Anyway, while we were walking i realized.... why shagy punye *tuuuuuut* lg bsr?
XDDXDDDDXDDDD
tetibe menonjol.... alaaaaaa... jeles ahh ni.......
then me asked her, "gg.. ko size ape?"
shagy: *sengeh2 kambeng* @#%
alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 cup lg bsr kott!!! aahh! benci!!! DX
*look down* ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! keciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DDDX *phail*

ok, abaikan.

after jalan2 we passed famous amos.. aahhh... the smell.. cannot go... *buys more ice cream*
hahaha, cookies&something i forgot its name.
but next time i want Ferraro Rocher ! lol~ *facepalm*

I was planning on buying sushi, but unfortunaltely kedai dh tutup~ pfft. shaggy punye pasal la.
She wanted to buy big apple doughnuts. Kedai also dh tutup. hahaha padan muke.
(me likey teh choco and teh cherry and teh apple and teh oreo~ XDD)
and so since there was no other food to her liking, she buyed apple pie, from McD. XD

next week.. i wanna eat sushi! ioi going desu! sushi banzai!
or maybe... can go to pasta gohan? OMG their sundaes were awesome. Wanna try their pasta pulak. XD (duit raya dh byk.. hahahahahahahahaha)

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Emm.... raya posts? Later la, here is the official Tuanku Hana/Ore sama Miyuki Sadako teh awesome greeting;

Disini, dengan izin Tuhan, beta, Tuanku Hana, Kumicho kepada Animaru Punch no Gumi Epmire, ingin menyampaikan salam aidilfitri kepada semua muslimin dan muslimat, dan juga orang bawahan beta. Kasih beta kepada anda semua tak terhingga.. :'D (emotional part)

Beta juga memohon seribu kemaafan daripada hamba sekalian, jikalau beta ada ter/sengaja membuat kesilapan atau terguris hati sesiapa... (contrary to popular belief) beta pun manusia juga. Harus juga diingat, beta, telah mengampunkan salah dan silap tuan-tuan hamba (dan hamba-hamba) yang begitu banyak.

May this aidilfitri be filled with blessings and goodwill. (<------- ok, bm phail. =.=)

Sekian, Terima Kasih.

....Scary Mary D8

2009-09-18T14:05:00.000+08:00

damn.. i just realized merlin isn't out till next week.. ToT

2009-09-13T13:42:00.004+08:00

mnyaaw. screw tht. and you. and whoever. bahhh. i hate everyone. baaaahhhh. yes everyone. all you ppl tht call themselves my "friend". now really, what do you ppl know about me? if i wasnt fasting right now.. geez.. i so wanna curse~ yes, i am angry, and everyone is on my nerves. especially W^$#%@% facebook. and stupid !#^$!^%& tomotomo. and wimax. @#$^ you.

now random pics thread.

I have no idea why i have this. =_= when i read this manga also i forgot.

At least i can look forward to DTB 2nd season. But wtf, hei's hair ish so long! =__=

This is love. I'll always love you. BUT @^%&$ Sunway Pyramid, where the hell you go?! =__=;;

And, this is why tarrot sucks.

2009-09-01T16:44:00.002+08:00

I like Tepung Pelita, Dont say its only for Old People!

2009-08-28T12:31:00.004+08:00

You know, my room is always dark... i seldom switch on the lights and most of the time rely on the light from my brother's joining room he doesnt use, unless playing his guitar) and the light from my monitor.

Remember Jiro? Yes, my baby pipo, the anti-social cat stuck in my room. She's so smart, but at times very naughty.

Well, after having losing all 3 of her babies, Jiro went into some weird phases.. lol. Now she;s in the hyperactive-i-wanna-play phase, which is adorable, but unfortunately i dont have that much time to play.. (read:lazy)

So Jiro goes and runs around in my bro's room, comes back to my room, and goes crazy all over again. One night she come back to my room with a shoe lace in her mouth, signalling me she wants to play~

So me played. Play play play

Everynight i played with her with the old shoelace..

Often times, on my bed~

Then last night... my brother was in my room reading something he dl somewhere, so he turned on my lights.

The shoelace wasnt a shoelace. It was a strand from a mop.

phail.

Hello, Are You There?

2009-08-24T05:58:00.003+08:00

Ieyla forwarded me a very nice e-mail... unfortunately i dont do chain letters, so i'll just post it here with some modifications.
Dedicated to all the ones who have been there for me, past, present and future. Me love yuuh! XD

What would you do if every time you fell in love with someone you had to say goodbye?

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?

What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?

What would you do if you loved someone more than anything else and you could never have them?

Some people live and some people die.

But I want to tell you I love you and you are a true friend...

That I will always be here for you when and if you need me...

If I died tomorrow, you would be in my heart forever.

Would I be in yours?

You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next year, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life..

I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS ALWAYS & FOREVER! ! !

When i say garbage, i mean garbage. This is the cool sexy one though...

2009-08-18T20:42:00.007+08:00

And below ish dedicated to...... ">.> *nyaa blushhhh*

Its really cool actually cuz the "i think im paranoid" part can be associated with me, but the meaning~~~ XDD

kyannnnnnnnng~ *blussssshhhhhh*
(aint that annoying?)

And how the hell you get a car crash outta this?

2009-08-18T20:32:00.003+08:00

Also, dedicated to:

kay kay, my lovely kay kay
ratu shark poyo
hiro pon and his sayang, and his other sayang. XD
masahiro kun~
and vivi chan <3

why? cuz these people above i have recently pissed off in one way or another, or simply the other way around.. =__= or just simply we share a lot of "gossip"
>D

yay for MCR!!! XDDD

Miyuki's Wonderful Weekend Adventure!

2009-08-17T17:32:00.007+08:00

Nyaaaaa~ Me back with updates~
I'm so lazy to post.. my keyboard is fucking idiotic. Everytime I type in t an r follows, or y a u appears.. if i go caps lock then a w will get typed in as well.. so annoying. i wish i could get a new keyboard!!!!!!!!!

ok, so now we dive into miyuki's wonderful weekend adventure, saturday being a trip to GACC in Melaka and on sunday going to Tension Academy's so-called "gathering"~

GACC @ MMU Melaka!

I didnt sleep the whole night... why? Because of excitement you might say? Nooo... its because I was going with Sachi, her dad was going to drive us there. I asked CCkuk, former of TA if he'd like to tag along, as he was very emo on a Thursday and I'd thought it might cheered him up~

I dont know if it was a good or bad thing~ =__=;;

Anyway, so the trip and everything was fine.. when we reached MMU i seriously had to go to the toilet.. and the nearest toilet to the main entrance was CRAP! All of them were squating toilets and they couldnt even flush properly. Then the tap didnt have water! WTF!?! XD

*suddenly lazy to write*

Well, to shorten things, we went running around mmu, then sleep, then lepak~
Hiro joined us later after being sesat~ >D
Which made things much more fun~~
Cuz we got to bahan him and his beloved sayang~~~

Most of the time we (me and sachi) spent teasing CC being gay. First with his best friend Neuro, than with Hiro, then with everyone else. He just seemed.. very gheeyyyy~ And teasing him with 2 very straight ppl were very amusing. (Yes, i am mocking you pon chyan.)

Me also got to meet vivi chan~~ She's soo adorable! Nyaaaaaa~~ Me wanted to give her onee chan hug~ hahahahahaha.. but me gave her ichigo pokky instead XD

Etoo.. just to clear things, I DID NOT plan that little awkward meeting between hiro and vivi~ Seriously, I was planning something else, but OMG, that turned out a little too perfect~ I mean, honestly, I DID NOT SEE hiro behind or anywhere near me and vivi~ I was just bringing her randomly everywhere!!! I AM INNOCENT DAMMIT!!!!!!! I WAS PLANNING GROUP MEETING, GROUP DESU!!!!! ToT

My apologies to anyone who felt offended. (by that meaning Vivi chan, cuz she's so innocentandsuperkawaii i couldnt bare make tease her like that~ <--- onee chan mode XD)

So we went back at 7, and otw home we stopped by Ayer Keroh R&R, me bought those giant keropok thingies, sedaaaaap~~ 1 for me family, another for Neuro XDD (tetibe je... XP)

And with that, we ended our Saturday adventure, soon to be continued the next day for the TA gathering I didnt even know existed.

(A LOT of parts have been skipped. Pics are with Sachi, I'll upload some when I get my hands on them.)

*Stay tuned for part 2 of Miyuki's Wonderful Weekend Adventure!

oh gle bosan

2009-08-15T00:48:00.002+08:00

so bored~~~~~~ i cant sleep... i need to wake up at 4 a.m so i can be on time at my friends house at 6.30 am to go to melaka~

oh gle bosan.

before this i tried calling up random ppl (wanted to prank call them.. go smthg like *creepy voice* "warrrrrghhh~ tonight i shall eat thy soul.. and rip your body to shreds~" *hang up quickly*) i dont know why, it always ends up as a failure..

first one to call: masahiro kun
no answer

2nd: shagy
pffffffffffffft.

3rd: hiro pon
=___________=;;;

*suddenly recieve msg from masahiro*
chesss.. lepakking rupanya.

4th: akiran
(for some reason half way through i didnt feel like pranking him anymore, dakara, i hung up XDD)

5th: pyonn chan
nyaaaaaa!! why is your phone always dead??!!!!??!!!

6th: try calling shagy again
*phail*

oohhh~~ all my "friends" have forsaken me!! (except masahiro kun XDD, who good willingly passed me some nice info on some nice ppl~)

i need to do some evil now.. getting some ideas from my all time sadistic hero, hamada masatoshi~

hahaha, you can guess im watching gaki no tsukai. yay! im addicted again!! XDD
oh and i read some manga about killer school girls, which in fact, proves that highschool girls ARE INDEED DANGEROUS.

Doubt (started a long time ago, but just managed to finish)
Saitama Chainsaw Shoujo (looking forward to see the ending! XD alien invasion? hope its not some dumb dream~)
Gekkoh (abandoned... damn, the story was too slow~)
and some other stuff~~ forgot already (i've been reading yaoi~ XDDXDD lol!!!)

ok, back to hamada.. yay! gaki no tsukai banzai!!!

Sorrow Made Me.

2009-08-12T20:15:00.003+08:00

Finally, we get back to class after 3 weeks of holiday.. well, holiday for everyone except me la.
Anyway, this sem im taking 4 subjects... interestingly all of them have different lecturers and classes~ weeeeeee~

Research Project, taught by Mr. Daniel and Multimedia Design2 with Shahrulnizam on Wednesday
Animation 2 with the communist dictator on Thursday
and Drawing Concept 2 with Encik Dugong aka Mr. Lim on Friday~

ahahahahahaha!!!!!! You do know what that means right? XDXDDD

1) I FREAKIN PASSED MY FRIGGIN ANIMATION 1!!!!!!!!!! XDDXDDXDDD LOL
2) I STILL CONTINUE MY REGIME OF HATING MONDAYS AND STAYING HOME ON TUESDAYS!! XDD

hmmmmmmm~~~~ but my mural painting still not finish la... i wonder when i'll get to continue? im so lazy~~ theres a lot, and most of it is the higher parts where its hard for a short person like me to reach.. moreover im afraid of heights *epic phail*

tch. baaaaaaaaaaahh.. anyway, i'll still have to do it. i'll just gamble my freakin life on the stupid ladder~ who else is gonna do it? ne? XD

*ganbatte, miyuki! Y^Y*

A Little Girl's First Experience with Alcohol

2009-08-09T23:30:00.003+08:00

Ehm, not me. XD

But earlier today I went to the supermarket and while at the cashier, I saw this elderly man give his Jolly Shandy to his young daughter, maybe around 7 or 8. The guy finished most of it and gave the little that was left for the girl to taste... so the girl took it enthusiastically and had a sip, then ran to the other kids waiting outside.

All the other kids were so amazed... they were like "waahh... what does it taste like??" and the little girl took another sip, made a face and went "gaahh!"

I wonder if that made her drunk? XD

Speaking of little girls, yesterday me go lepakking with my favorite punchbag/kekasih, shagy! XD
Jalan2 at alamanda~ heheheeh shagy belanja me waffles at waffle station... My God, it was the best!! Imagine... a beautiful fluffy waffle with 4 SCOOPS OF VANILLA ICE CREAM, Fudge, banana, peach, blueberries and strawberry topping. VERY HAPPY DESU! XDXDDD
Then we went o watch G.I Joe.. with shagy's other kekasih. Pfffft. I'm so much better dammit. Anyway, while waiting for 7 o'clock (thats when the movies started) we sat outside... tch. Well, that part was boring. I dont get her boyfriend really.. its like in 2 hours he could smoke like 1 box of cigarettes! (Ok, exageratting a bit, but HE DOES SMOKE A LOT!!) and im sorry to say, i couldnt really understand what the hell he was talking about~ He spoke with a kinda slurrrrrrrr~.. hahahaha

The funny part was he didnt know shagy's past... so he thought me and her were collegemates. Hahaha, you know, thats just asking to be played by me. When I told him we met in high school he actually asked where we studied...LOL!!! Apa lagi... Sarawak desu. XDD

Anyway, eventhough I may not like the guy, he makes my stupid girl happy... haiiiiihh.. what to do? Layan je la... Orang bercinta ni.. susah nak sogok.. so why bother? I've tried so many times already.. Bwaaaaaaaahhh... the girl is still happy with him. Fine, if he makes her feel that way... im... (reluctantly) ok with it. hahaha ske laa tu shagy. bodoh kau.

Which reminds me of the conversation i had with her yesterday.. about her classmate Munzir. His cousin and shagy got scandal a while back... hahaha, dah nk msk meminang lak tu. XDD
And for some reason during high school me kena bahan me and munzir got scandal.. im always like "WTF?!" hahahaha good times, good times~

So, shagy was telling me (something like this laaa :P):

Shagy: Weiyh, munzir ade contact aku dowh. Aku tanye die single lg ke?
Die ckp alaaa hana xnk kt aku~

me: LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
gle bangang kawan kao.

shagy: Hahahaha, pastu aku ckp "Ko xde tanye~ cmne die nk taw?"
die kate, "alaa.. hana tu fhm2 je laaaa~"

me: kepala hotakkkk korg. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Anyway, ASL LAAA KORG NAK JUGAK UNGKIT NAMA AKU HAH??!!! SIAL LAAAAA!!!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, funny la. Long time havent laughed like that~

To munzir, if you're still short, me dont want you. You know why? CUZ I STILL REMEMBER YOU SAYING IM NOT A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL REMEMBER FOREVER!!!!!!!!

**hahaha, jk, jk. All my posts have been so emo, i thought why not trying to post something happy. Well, aparently im phailing.

Anyway, back to little girls. After the movie, me and shagy round2 alamanda.. then we passed Famous Amos~ a little girl was there. She was asking her daddy to buy her ice cream while making a suggestive gesture with her hands at *ehm* suggestive place~

me: *look at shagy*
shagy: *looks at me*
both: BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!
*run away*

haiihhh.. little girls these days....

p/s: SHAGY PAKAI 2 SPECK!!!! XDXDDD 1 kt t-shirt, another....... LOL
(inside joke, folks)

T^T

2009-08-05T16:10:00.003+08:00

im so sad~
i dont like what i have become~

im so sad~
i dont like the fact that my brother gets to be a wannabe rockstar~

im so sad~
i dont like the fact pyon~ chan havent given me my chocolate yet~

I AM MIYUKI'S BORED SOUL. TTATT

p/s:
pon chyan~ you should buy a purple bass...

kay kay~ we should really go to petrosains one day... =.=

masahiro kun~ you know.. i know where you live lo... maybe i should be threatening you in exchange for something of my interest? hmmm.. i think im too nice la... hahahahaha

beatrice~ i need paint. and i need a car...

Yes, I am miyuki's forsaken soul. My hands are numb from painting the whole damn day and now im bored and cold. And im sick again.

Hello, my recklessness again.

Insert completely unrelated title here

2009-08-04T16:50:00.002+08:00

Nyaaaaaaa~ wonderful people of planet Earth! Mari peluk! XD

I'm now on holiday from stupid college now.. but i still need to come back everyday.. why? Cuz I'm makin your damn college walls more beautiful. Right now me and Jeradine are doing a massive collaboration in the stairwell of Segi.. and its damn hard. Everyday I go home with dirty clothes and a pained neck. For what? For the satisfaction of having (finally) somoething of mine admired by fellow students and lecturers.

pffft.

Also, to vivi chan... GOMENASAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My lovely phone got problems, so I recieved your sms of distress a bit very late... T^T *phail* Anyway, as to your question, I'll answer it here, albeit being several weeks too late. If im not mistaken you asked which would I choose, money or love, ne? I choose.. money XD

See, when people say money cant buy you happiness, their wrong. Money does make you happy. And what? If you're broke, you can be happy? Please, take a look in reality, do you think when you dont have money, even if you have wonderful friends and a family that cares can make you happy? In this corrupted society? No...
And love? hahahaha... love is a wonderful thing.... i wont deny it. With love you feel the world and all its filth is nothing to you. You see beauty, you see... whatever you want to see. But with love, comes pain, and its a bittersweet pain to feel, but not all love stories have a happy ending. And hell, where can love get you? It can make you a better person, a better human... it can make you stronger and all, but in this day and age, it will eventually fade, and get you nowehere.

You are alone dakara.

Well, thats coming from a child of a broken home, with a history of betrayal and distrust~ ahhh.. how wonderful love could be if i could actually feel it~ *phail*

Anyway, vivi chan~ me sorry for leaving you hanging... *hugs* gomen ne~ *give candy*

And we come to another friend... i dont know what to do with you. I still dont know where I stand. Do you even see me as a friend? Why must blogging be the only way of communictaion between us... you suck. You are so lame.... it seems that i am no more use to you.

And thus, i am alone again~

*Sigh* MatsuKen............... why you hurt me also? Im so sad... all you like in women...
*starts to cry*
You only like mature women~
Older girls...
Like Koyuki~
*cries even harder*
So if a girl isnt mature, does that mean she isnt strong? You make me feel so sad...

But I still love you~

I'll be fangirling Ruki for now.... untill Koyuki is no more~
T^T

Another emo story.

You make me very happy... <33

2009-07-30T16:33:00.004+08:00

I'm so happy... why? Cuz of my 3rd obsession.. Ruki <33

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(dont get me wrong, i still love kenichi forever and ever, and he's still my no.1 XD)

(and i really like ruki, although he's short.. he got that... *inaudible sound*)

The Invisible Wall

[The Gazette]

Pig that is soaked in soup of crime
Is it a pain of the children whom you murdered
Hate yourself

In the maze without an end,
why do you still breathe?

Gareki no shita de shinjitsu ga notauchimawaru e wa,
Naniyorimo fukai [The invisible wall],
Kodoku zouo shitto fuan,
Kyomu ni saita muhyoujou naniyorimo omoi[The invisible wall]

Sanjou oou fujouri ni omoeta warau aozora

In the maze without an end,
Ayamachi ni obore,
In the maze without an end,
Why do you still breathe?

Sorrow made you, [x3]
In the bottom of the dark sea,
Sorrow made you, [x3]
Tsugunai tsuzuke and die.

Pig that is soaked in soup of crime

In the maze without an end,「Hate yourself」
Ayamachi ni obore,
In the maze without an end, 「Hate yourself」
Why do you still breathe?

Sorrow made you, [x3]
In the bottom of the dark sea,
Sorrow made you, [x3]
Aijou mo shiranu kodoku na parade,
Sorrow made you, [x3]
In the bottom of the dark sea
Sorrow made you, [x3]
Tsugunai tsuzuke and die.

Sorrow made you
In the maze without an end...
Why do you still breathe?

Translation:
Pig is that soaked in soup of crime
Is it a pain of the children whom you murdered
Hate yourself

In the maze without an end...
Why do you still breathe?

The picture in which the truth coils up below the rubble
Is the deepest of all
[The invisible wall]
The facial inexpressiveness
In which isolation, hatred, jealousy, anxiety
And nothingness bloom is the heaviest of all
[The invisible wall]

The blue sky that seemed to be absurd
Concealed a terrible spectacle

In the maze without an end...
Drowning in our faults
In the maze without an end...
Why do you still breathe?

Sorrow made you
In the bottom of the dark sea
Sorrow made you
Keep on recompensing it...And die

Pig is that soaked in soup of crime
In the maze without an end...

"Hate yourself"
Drowning in our faults
In the maze without an end...
"Hate yourself"
Why do you still breathe?

Sorrow made you
In the bottom of the dark sea
Sorrow made you
A lonely parade that doesn't even know about love

Sorrow made you
In the maze without an end...
Why do you still breathe?

Wicked Cats, In The Corner, Please!

2009-07-29T17:13:00.004+08:00

When the hell will I get to see Merlin again? I'm so damn bored~~ urggghhhhhhhhhhhhh

Stupid British TV only will air it sometime in September I hear.. damn. And Im still waiting for the 5th season of Supernatural.. they said its gonna be the last season, and im dying to find out what the hell is gonna happen. I got my own theory, but its so obvious it will suck if it really happens. Come on, surprise me!

Speaking of which.... it has been a long time since I watched Gaki no Tsukai... I miss Hamada and Matsumoto.... *sigh* I wish I could watch someone kicking someone else's ass for no good reason at all.. its fun you know..

All hail Prince Arthur!! (Bradley James, yeay!!)

And the funny thing is... (part 3)

2009-07-23T18:20:00.003+08:00

I dont know why... suddenly I feel I'm still dissapointed.
XDXDD

Anyway, everything end well... just have to shut that ego out~ Crack and hack that son of a bitch far away.. yeaaaaa..... *blur*

Time to get some ice cream.... >.> and start saving up for GACC deshuuu... X3

I am Miyuki's Weird Eating Habit

2009-07-21T12:11:00.002+08:00

For a person with such a physique as mine, I find it kinda weird that I'm so picky when it comes to food..

And I have nothing else to blog about. But Im bored desu kara.

Me Dont Like!

: Curry
I can tolerate it, but me still dont like it. Especially when it comes with rice, for some reason.

:Spicy Food
Sakit perut laaa... when food is too spicy you cant actually taste the food... pfft.

:Certain Seafood
I dont eat sotong, ok. Certain types of fish, more often processed (i.e: breaded fish, keropok lekor), but rarely in its true form. I like Dory fish though. Ikan Selar is for my cat. XD
And I like prawns... espeially tempura, hahahaha. Hard to say about crab.. I'm not used to the taste yet, but who knows in the future? XD

:100% Sugar
Like the gigantic colorful lollipops L always has.. and I like cotton candy only if its fresh from the machine (cuz its cool X3)

:Dont like chilli sauce >.<''
Don't even try to put it in front of me while I'm eating. Makes me nausea.. sorry if I offend anyone. :P

:I dont like the yolk part of telur asin. XD
whaaat? the yolk tastes weird la. XDDXDD

:When I order Mee Goreng Mamak, I mean MEE GORENG MAMAK.
When I order something specific, I expect to recieve it. If the waiter brings me something else, I wont eat it, out of principle. If the waiter comes back and says they dont have it and offers something else, than I'll consider it. But if they pandai2 tukar, than pandai2 la kau makan sendiri.

:I know when you give me leftovers.
I can tell. I am therefore, the daughter of a chef.
I dont mind la if im eating at home, but if dining out, i will scream.

:Food that seem too "exotic" for their own good.
Please, no escargot.

:Food that has weird textures.
Its not tottaly a lost case. I may try something.. but I'll be very weary... XD

:Durians, Jackfruits and the like... XD

Am i missing something..? Maybe got a bit more, but those are the main things I annoy most people about. XD
I wouldnt bother going in about the things i like... XDXDD

And the funny thing is... part2

2009-07-19T19:40:00.002+08:00

I said the next post is gonna be happy.

Maybe later.

You betrayed your promise.

Maybe you didnt take it seriously, but i did.

Now I know where I stand.
Thanks for making it sooner than later.

And the funny thing is... (NOOO MORE EMO!! DAMN YOU!!! >.<'')

2009-07-17T12:04:00.003+08:00

Lately I've been hanging out with some great ppl, friends of mine in their own right and way.
I thank them for their great company, I love every single one of them.

But thanks to that I forgot something.

Something happened recently and only after that incident I came to remember the truth,

You are alone.
You live among companions and ppl that show compassion,
but ultimately you die alone.

Last Thursday I got in a conversation with a girl from my animation class.. I never really spoke to her before, and she turned out to be an interesting person. Well, she saw my blog and read all the emo enteries, and said that she used to be like me, all emo and negative about the world before she met her boyfriend. After that she changed into.. a person lightly less dark. lol

Makes me wonder... what will happen to me if I find love? Will it really change me?

=______=;;

yea right.

T^T

*sigggggghhhhhhh*

That time somehow seems very far away. Ngeh.

Oh, and to the happy couples out there, may thou be happy in your candy coated wonderland.
And as a reminder, to those couples, you know, although you're so drunken in love, there are other people that need you too. There are other people around you. Please don't forget your friends, cuz they love you too.

And, to those stated above, please dont feel offended to my post. You people dont annoy me, really. I annoy myself. Its because of the fact that love always seem to hurt me, in one way or another. I just wish my life wasn't filled with hurt for a change.

WHY THE HELL AM I SO EMO????!!!!!!!!!
NGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!

I blame it for the lack of ppl I communicate with! Thats right! I have no friends, dakara, I spill everything on this fucking blog. Fuck yea.
NGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAAAAAA!!!!!! T^T

ok, i wanna stop now before i say something i'll regret. BAHHHH.
Next post: Random Happiness! (for a change) XDD

When The Stars Fade Away....

2009-07-09T15:12:00.002+08:00

Rain of stars by ~Mar-ka on Deviantart

Stop Crying Your Heart Out
Oasis

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

'Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (i'm not scared)
You'll never change what's been and gone

'Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

'Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

p.s: i do what i do cuz i love you too.

That Vampire Molested My Kitten!

2009-07-07T17:05:00.002+08:00

The above title has nothing to do with anything and something I thought of cuz my neck hurts.

Ok, anyway, the past week has been weird for me. Why? Honestly I dont remember. XD
But what I do remember is someone is pissing me off, and they're acting like its not their fucking problem. Well, just so you know, the world doesnt evolve around you. Everytime.. EVERYTIME. My God, you are so lame. Get a life.

Hey, do I look like a person who'd wish you the worst? Do you really think I'm that terrible? To my own friend? You know, I really dont know where I stand anymore. Or if I am any of importance for you. Damn, am I just something you assume you can take for granted? Yea, sure... i so called "dont understand" or "i changed" or whatever else you can think of. Fuck you. Like hell i dont understand, what you think im so naiive as to not know, not see what you are going through? Or the fact that I now can literally think, and assume the right course of action, sans the meaningless emotion people face with these problems, and tell you my prespective, without showing any mercy to the other half makes me different from the person you once knew, the person who'd say the same things, but ultimately follow whatever you'd foolishly do in the end? <----- ok, i hav no idea what i just said, but it sounded meaningful. =__=

You perfectly know how angry I am. I wont be saying all this if I wasnt. I wont be swearing like some bitchin asshole who deserves to die wouldnt I? But I also perfectly know, you dont understand WHY im angry. And we both know, you, yes, YOU, would never admit, nor appologize for whatever the hell you've done to me. Yea, its not YOUR problem, it mine eh?

I borrow the words of my darling Ruki,

Fuck Off. (Until you understand all of this)

NO! BURN DOWN THE VILLAGE UNTIL YOU FIND THEM!

2009-06-30T13:50:00.005+08:00

This is an OUTRAGE! HOW DARE THIS SUDDEN OUTCOME HAPPEN TO ME!!!!!!

My dear friends, PAPA BEARD CREAMPUFF in Sunway Pyramid

I S G O N E

where? why? how? who?: I havent a clue. As I visited Sunway Pyramid last Sunday to check on my favourite place, to my despair, it was GONE. VANISHED. REPLACED.

My world is turning into darkness again.. my love.... my hope....

I will forever and always remember you...the tastiness of the beautiful pastry.. for i am heartbroken...

sengal. terima kasih.

2009-06-30T13:38:00.003+08:00

The title says it all. You know who you are.

I LOVE YOU! YES I DO!

2009-06-26T17:06:00.004+08:00

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! MATSUYAMA KENICHI! AND LINKIN PARK!

AND HELL IF ANYONE TELLS ME OTHERWISE!!!!!!!

Linkin Park - "New Divide"

wow~ long time no see, old friend~

2009-06-21T19:00:00.004+08:00

1. Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dengan wang sendiri??
- Something to eat.. =_=

2. Apakah paling penting dlm hidup kamu?
- Something that makes me happy and whole~

3. Dimanakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu??
- Di tempat gle exclusive and expensive

4. Berapa lama hubungan kamu berkekalan?
- ehm.... >.>

5. Adakah anda sedang dilamun cinta??
- MatsuKen desu X3

6. Dimanakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam??
- Mamak

7. Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?
- Singapore Ghost Stories~ XD

8. Apakah nama penuh kamu??
- Perlu ke?

9. Kamu lebih senang dengan ayah atau mak??
- again, perlu ke?

10. Namakan orang yang ingin kamu jumpa dalam hidup kamu buat pertama kalinya??
- matsuyama kenichi
- ruki
- the whole alice nine! XD I AM A HAPPY FANGIRL!

11. Sebutkan 8 nama sahabat yang paling rapat dengan kamu.buat masa skrg:
- shagy ratu shark poyo
- fatin pyon chan
- alya j-not?
- jeradine krocherub chan~
- kay! my imouto!
- pon chyan~ XD
- em.. insert your name here.

12. Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian sendiri??
- malaslah

13. Tempat yang paling seronok yang kamu mahu pergi?
- otaku paradise... some place that has chocolate and ice cream and waffles and matsuken~

14. Butirkan 5 perkara tentang orang yang tag kamu..
- xde org tag aku, curi from shagy
- shagy curi chester daripadaku
- curi gambar abang aku >.<
- amek ice cream baskin robbins aku dgn sgt banyak~
- janji nak blanje waffles ngn ice cream, tp xde pon... T^T

15. 8 perkara yang amat saya gilai - linkin park. - matsuyama kenichi. - anime. - manga. - jrockers. - waffles. - black tshirts. - music. 16. Pelukan atau ciuman?? - haaaaaaahhhhhh~ nak peluk ken chan~ 17. 8 perkataan yang sering diucapkan - fuck - wth?!
- wtf?!?!!
- babi la kao!!
- waffle!
- kepala hotaaaakkkk~
- malas syalll~~
- gedik la kao!!!
(asl sume cm mencarut je? XD)

18. 8 buah buku yang paling baru di baca??
- only manga baby~ XD
oh and re-read Da vinci code and Frankenstein~

19. 8 lagu yang saya boleh dengar berulang kali??
- ~dice: alice nine
- new divide : linkin park.
- filth in the beauty : the gazette
- whats the story morning glory? : oasis
- the sharpest lives : my chemical romance.
- rain : olivia
- distress and coma : the gazette
- all our lives : foo fighters

20. Mari men'TAG' 8 orang lain
- oh. sgt malas~

I am.... the light at the edge of your depression.

2009-05-31T22:04:00.003+08:00

Heyya again...

Im sitting here in this CC trying to pass the time for 3 hours and find myself getting mood swings.

The post earlier... I sounded harsh. I shouldn't be taking it out on the little ppl that care for me.
Yes, life's a bitch. But somewhere inside, (incredibly) i still have hope.

And well... I accidentally read and watched smthg that reminded me of that. pfft~

Anyway, that reminded me of a nice song... I'm reminded of my brother everytime I listen to it...
He used to sing it to me when I was small... God, I miss him~ :)

Don't Look Back in Anger
Oasis

Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you've never been
But all the things that you've seen
They slowly fade away

So I'll start a revolution from my bed
'Cuz you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

And so, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
I heard you say

Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows
Where nobody knows if it's night or day
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a rock and roll band
Who'll throw it all away

I'm gonna start a revolution from my bed
'Cuz you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, 'cuz summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
'Cuz you ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

And so, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
I heard you say

(guitar solo)

So, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
I heard you say

So, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
I heard you say
At least not today.

This is a joke. This is all a joke.

2009-05-31T20:34:00.002+08:00

You know, I really loved Watchmen ... but the sad thing is I only got to see it once, and I got in late cuz I was waiting for my cousin (pfffffft~~) and missed like the whole part where the comedian dies and like, 20 minutes after that (T^T)

And you know, I love quoting random stuff from movies and tv~ XDXDXD (I should do Supernatural after this.. XD i love Dean.. such random crap from thy mouth~)

Edward Blake: God damn I love working on American soil, Dan. Ain't had this much fun since Woodward and Bernstein. Congress is pushing through some new bill that's gonna outlaw masks. Our days are numbered. Till then it's like you always say, we're society's only protection.
Dan Dreiberg: From what?
Edward Blake : You kidding me? From themselves.
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Dan Dreiberg: [referring to the exit tunnel] There's a maintenance hatch that will let you out two blocks north.
Rorschach: I remember. I used to come here often, back when we were partners.
Dan Dreiberg: Those were good times, huh Rorschach? What happened?
Rorschach: [as he walks down the tunnel] You quit.
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Jon Osterman: In my opinion, the existence of life is a highly overrated phenomenon.
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And one of my favourites:

Rorschach: [reading from journal] Rorschach's Journal. October 12th, 1985: Dog carcass in alley this morning, tire tread on burst stomach. This city is afraid of me. I have seen its true face. The streets are extended gutters and the gutters are full of blood and when the drains finally scab over, all the vermin will drown. The accumulated filth of all their sex and murder will foam up about their waists and all the whores and politicians will look up and shout "Save us!"... and I'll whisper "no."

XDXDXD Seriously, I love Rorschach~ XDXDXD lol

I am Miyuki's wasted life

2009-05-31T19:54:00.002+08:00

I hate my life, and I hate myself for hating it, and I deserve no pity whatsoever.

Moving on;

Shagy, I don't care anymore. You don't wanna hang out with me then fine. I'm used to it already, its not like you never done that to me back in school. Everytime I ask you, you always have something to do. Fine. I wont bother you anymore~ Aku bkn merajuk lagi, aku cuma dh malas ok.
Ko nak suro aku tggu kau? Ahaaahaa, aku tggu ko sjk dulu lg weiyh, ble ko ade time utk aku ko cari la aku, sbb aku dh bosan~ Klu bkn aku yg msg ke call ko, ade ke ko trgerak nk contact aku?

Bosan syal. Tp ko fhm kn... daku maseh chentakan dikau shagy! (cuma aku bosan je. nk cr laen, boleh? XDXD)

Same goes to everyone else. I'm tired of having no life, to tell you the truth I'm not as free as people think. Sadly, I've spent April and May at home, my college, at my mom's office and just going back and forth to those places and some random places in between. I spent my time just passing through doing literally nothing and I'm just so friggin ed up already to the point that I decided I have to actually start doing something, hence me projectX thingy, and brushing up on drawing so I could one day be actually usefull for something. But seriously, how can a 20 year old spend days indoors being anti-social? I mean, I hate people in general! Something is seriously wrong with me! Damnit!!! I dont even know half the things I'm rambling about! What the hell am I doing for God's sake?!?!!!

NGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just strangle me already!!! I'm done with it!! D<

I am Miyuki's Deadly Poke.

2009-05-29T12:33:00.003+08:00

You know, me and Kurocherub got some boring classes that start in the afternoon, but we always come early (that means 11 for me.. XDXD) In our free time we do random stuff, hence, a pokin vs. stabbing competition. (Kena potong a bit though.. =.=)

I am Sadako's Guilty Pleasure (XDXD)

2009-05-29T12:05:00.004+08:00

The Best of You
Foo Fighters

I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you

Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new?

I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
No, I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You'd die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
Your trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

I’ve got another confession my friend
I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!

p/s:
SHAGY, aku merajok ngn ko. Pujuk aku balik SKARANG JUGAK.
Hiro, you are an idiot. Damn you~
Kay, me nak ikot pegi Genting!! T^T
Jeradine, dont forget my Jigoku Shoujo next week~ ^_^
Masahiro kun, I randomly put names la to the previous tag~ I didnt want to tag anyone~ but got questions below that~ more fun ne? XDXDXD
Frankie, why you dont layan me???? You dont love me anymore??!! TToTT
Hikari, SELAMAT PULANG!!! hahahaha!!!

And yes, I do like Foo Fighters.... they rock~

I am Shagy's tagged victim.

2009-05-28T15:29:00.005+08:00

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed
Who said ppl can touch me? =.=''

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
Doomed, then feel like going back to sleep, only to realize I'll be doomed all the same.

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
. . . . .
Cant remember. XDXD I hate taking pictures~ Maybe..... long long time ago........ with Kay?
XDXDXDXDXDXDXD LOL!!!!

4. Would you considered yourself spoiled?
I wish I could~ T^T

5. Will you ever donate blood?
Maybe.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
ahhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~ =__=

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
Is that a problem?

8. What does your last text message say?
Something like "Go find a public library" XDXDXD

9. What are you thinking right now?
The annoying person that I feel like stabbing

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
Yea. Unfortunately, that PERSON would rather be with someone else. HMPH!!!

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
3 a.m

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
*drumroll* Tesco Puchong Branch! XDXD

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
The person I feel like stabbing.

14. Who was the last person to text you?
Pon chyan~

TEN lucky People to do this quiz ;

1. Kay
2. Shagy (me tag jugak!!! bluek!!! XP)
3. Vivi chan
4. Masahiro
5. Beatrice
6. Hiro pon
7. Kurocherub chan
8. Joanne
9. Hikari
10. Random Person

15. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
Mamat Tua. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Kawaii girl

17. If no. 1 and no.7 get together , would it be good?
OMG!! NuoooooooooOOOOOOO!!! Jeradine ish SO not like that! And even so, noone kacau my kawaii imotou!!

18. What is no.1 studying about?
Form 4, so anything a typical student would.. taking LK... at SMK Bintang Utara.. i think~ ahahaha

20. Is no. 4 single?
I have no idea, but since he's so free, I think, yea, probably~ :P

21. Say something about no. 2.
Kalau psl bnde merepek cmni baru ingat aku eh... poyo... cesss~

22. What do you think of no. 3 and no.6 being together?
Someone's dream come true~ >.>

23. Describe no.9.
Sadist sister that went away to study in Johor~ Ohhh.... hiiiiikaaariiiiii~~
Your chainsaw is getting ruuuuusstyyyyyyyyyy~~

24. What will you do if no. 6 and no.7 fight?
Seriously, that would be very interesting.. hmmm....
ME WATCH.

25. Do you like no. 5?
Yes, she's a very good friend and one of the nicest person I've ever met~ :D

I am Jack's smirking revenge.

2009-05-25T13:08:00.004+08:00

Ohooo~me watched Fight Club the other day.. and seriously,I loved every second of it.
ahahaa~~

The fights in it were real, I mean, no cool kung-fu matrix stuff, but real street ugly fighting. Which was disturbing really,but entertaining nontheless.. (seriously? hopefully i'm still considered normal.. a bit. XD) And Brad Pitt was awesome.. never really liked him you know, but he is really fun to watch. The guy CAN act, its just his bonafide superstardom that makes people like me not interested... =.= and not to mention Edward Norton and Helena Bonham Carter~

But what I liked most about the movie was the diaolog. Man, it was seriously crazy. XDXD
If you haven't watched Fight Club yet,go watch it. I'm just amazed at how long it took for me to get hold of it (came out it 1999), but it's also a good thing, cuz if I had watched it sooner, I don't think I would've understood half the crap they were bitchin' about~

Anyway, some memorable quotes (taken off imbd.com) :

Narrarator: This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time.

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Lou: [Lou hits Tyler in the face] Do you hear me now?
Tyler Durden: No, I didn't quite catch that, Lou. [Lou hits Tyler again]
Tyler Durden: Still not getting it. [Lou hits Tyler a few more times]
Tyler Durden: Ok, I got it. Shit, I lost it. [Lou continues to beat up Tyler]

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Tyler Durden: Only after disaster can we be resurrected.

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Tyler Durden: Fuck damnation, man! Fuck redemption! We are God's unwanted children? So be it!
Narrator: OK. Give me some water!
Tyler Durden: Listen, you can run water over your hand and make it worse or... [shouts]
Tyler Durden: look at me... or you can use vinegar and neutralize the burn.
Narrator: Please let me have it... *Please*!
Tyler Durden: First you have to give up, first you have to *know*... not fear... *know*... that someday you're gonna die.

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Tyler Durden: [pointing at an emergency instruction manual on a plane] You know why they put oxygen masks on planes?
Narrator: So you can breath.
Tyler Durden: Oxygen gets you high. In a catastrophic emergency, you're taking giant panicked breaths. Suddenly you become euphoric, docile. You accept your fate. It's all right here. Emergency water landing - 600 miles an hour. Blank faces, calm as Hindu cows.
Narrator: That's, um... That's an interesting theory.

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Tyler Durden: It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.

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Tyler Durden: In the world I see - you are stalking elk through the damp canyon forests around the ruins of Rockefeller Center. You'll wear leather clothes that will last you the rest of your life. You'll climb the wrist-thick kudzu vines that wrap the Sears Tower. And when you look down, you'll see tiny figures pounding corn, laying strips of venison on the empty car pool lane of some abandoned superhighway.

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Tyler Durden: You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world.

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Tyler Durden: Listen up, maggots. You are not special. You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake. You're the same decaying organic matter as everything else.

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Narrator: On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.

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Tyler Durden: Do you know what a duvet is?
Narrator: It's a comforter...
Tyler Durden: It's a blanket. Just a blanket. Now why do guys like you and me know what a duvet is? Is this essential to our survival, in the hunter-gatherer sense of the word? No. What are we then?
Narrator: ...Consumers?
Tyler Durden: Right. We are consumers. We're the bi-products of a lifestyle obsession.

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Tyler Durden: We're consumers. We are by-products of a lifestyle obsession. Murder, crime, poverty, these things don't concern me. What concerns me are celebrity magazines, television with 500 channels, some guy's name on my underwear. Rogaine, Viagra, Olestra.
Narrator: Martha Stewart.
Tyler Durden: Fuck Martha Stewart. Martha's polishing the brass on the Titanic. It's all going down, man. So fuck off with your sofa units and Strinne green stripe patterns.

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Narrator: Was it ticking?
Airport Security Officer: Actually throwers don't worry about ticking 'cause modern bombs don't tick.
Narrator: Sorry, throwers?
Airport Security Officer: Baggage handlers. But, when a suitcase vibrates, then the throwers gotta call the police.
Narrator: My suitcase was vibrating?
Airport Security Officer: Nine times out of ten it's an electric razor, but every once in a while... [whispering]
Airport Security Officer: it's a dildo. Of course it's company policy never to, imply ownership in the event of a dildo... always use the indefinite article a dildo, never your dildo.
Narrator: I don't own... [Officer waves Narrator off]

Me New Shiney Tragic Kingdom! XD

2009-05-23T23:06:00.003+08:00

I changed my blof name to Tragic Kingdom... (randomly stole from No Doubt.. aahh.. shut jya boo-ing!) cuz I put "Lyrical Syndicate" as the tittle for me assignment blog.. which is my brand new shiney music blog~ hahaha

So.. dont ask anymore~ XD

Wheeeeeeeee!!!! TAAAAAGGGGG~ =.=

2009-05-23T21:58:00.002+08:00

Ahaaa... again.

You've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with the ABC's of YOU. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you - but not in a creepy stalker kind of way.

A- ANIMARU PUNCH NO GUMI! HAIYAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!

B- Black.. x blh dipisahkan!! bwahahahahahaha!!!

C- Cheerios~ me love that damn cereal!

D- Deviousssssss....... >D And detective drama fckin rocks.

E- Extremely nerdy.

F- Frankie~ Onii chan that me love the most!

G- Gazette ROCKS!

H- Hamada Masatoshi... me fave sadist

I- Im not gay. XDXD

J- J-rockin' yo!

K- Kay Kay! Kawaii best spammer buddy~ hug aneue! XDXD

L- Linkin Park 4 Life!

M- Matusyama Kenichi... I FREAKIN LOVE YOU! MY DAMN OBSSESSION!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

N- No Talent. No life. My future scares me... T^T

O- OTAKU DESU! XD

P- Procratinator. Ahhh.. damn.. so many...assignments... TT__TT

Q- Queen of the Distress and Coma HAPPY Underworld

R- albeit all my nerdyness and lifeless life i have.. i.do.seriously. ROCK.

S- Shagy.. me awek sejati. XD

T- Tora is one hot guitarist... (ok, i ran out of ideas.. =.=)

U- Uruha... is also a hot guitarist, but me dont like him for some reason.

V- Vivi chan that tagged meh. (I think.. cant remember... =.=)

W- W A F F L E S.

X- Xarel.. name of some random person who failed at stalking me... >D hahaha, YOU SHALL NEVER WIN! XD

Y- Yagami Raito supporter! And you thought I'm an L follower... HAH!

Z- zzZZZZZzzzzz... me love sleeping.

And I tag.. shagy!! XDXD
and everyone else who reads this! XD

ngeh. im lazy to read this... SO WHAT DAMMIT? DO I CARE?? BAHHHHHHHHH!!

2009-05-23T21:50:00.002+08:00

Syafiq tagged me on facebook... but me too lazy to paste it there~

Go to this page and find out about thyself~

Mine ish: =.=''
Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Oh, teman.

2009-05-18T14:28:00.003+08:00

Tukar bahasa, gunakan B.M lak~ hahaha.. (yea, and may you all MARVEL AT MY BEAUTIFUL BM!!! XDXD MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Anyway, aku ade sorg kawan ni~~ Name die.. pendek kata, shagy.
Shagy ni.. kt blog die ade tulis bnde ntah cm "The old me is dead and gone.. blablabla, somethingsomething bnde x menarik"
ok.

So, short story pompuan ni ckp die menyesal (?) or dgn diri die yg dulu..or diri die yg dulu ni skang dh mati, mampos xlyn kaa?

Kamu nehh.... menyesal sgt ke ng diri ko yg lame hah?
Ko bangga laa ngn diri ko yg skarang ye?

Oh, aku bkn ape... si shagy ni.. best friend aku.. aku fhm sgt laa ape yg terkandung dlm isi otak die tu... xde bende ponn. haha.

Tp yg aku nk ckp skang ni...
Kenapa mesti menyesal ngn diri kamu yg dulu? (And I'm not just talking about shagy here!)
Tapi, bukan ke... diri ko yg dulu tu laa... mengubah jadi diri ko yg skarang?

Yea, aku benci, menyesal, ntah ape kejadah lagi feeling kt action aku from the past, tapi, tu sume dijadikan pengajaran weiyhh.... Jadikan sebahagiaan drpd diri ko yg skarang.

Oh cgy-cgy.. aku nantikan saat ko nk bwk aku gi funfair. AKU NAK PEGI FUNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!
p/s: weiyh smalam aku jmpe bdk cm ramadhan seyh~ lalalalala

Ahahaha.. ckp psl kawan.. teringat si Bedah... Fatin oh Fatin~ kemana kau menghilang ohh rakan evilku?
Fatin ni pn satu... menghilang gi Holland... you better bwk balik BELGIUM CHOCO utk aku. Or else expect more fish tagging pictures of you on Facebook! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!
Dah tu hari tu janji nak bg poster L Change the WorLd.. baahhh... mesti abang ko x amek kn...hmph.... mesti ko xde ckp pn ngn abang ko suro amekkn utk aku kn... <.<

Oh, Kenichi...
teringat plk PC baby aku... sian die... hanging lagi... myawwww..... sorry baby.. mama yg bersalah~~ T^T
Haritu aku bkk cr lgu jpn aku...
dan sangat kecewa....
lagu2 yg latest download sume hilang...
ALICENINE AND GAZETTE WEIYHHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TTTT_____TTTT

demo, yg paling buat aku sedih... lagu OH MY JULIET hilang.
Oh... no, no, babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TT^TT

Grey would be the color.... if I had a Heart~

2009-05-18T13:54:00.002+08:00

One day...
I'm gonna runaway.
I wont regret
And I wont turn back.
Till then, I'll just have to hold on
Wait silently, for my time to be forgotten and gone.
--------------------------------------------------------------

I still recall the taste of your tears
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ear
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
Scraping through my head
'til I don't want to sleep anymore

You make this all go away
I just want something I can never have
You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now
This thing is slowly taking me apart
Grey would be the color if I had a heart

You'll make this all go away
I just want something I can never have
In this place it seems like such a shame
Though it all looks different now
I know it's still the same
And everywhere I look you're all I see
Just a fading reminder of who I use to be

Something I can Never Have, Flyleaf

Feeling Trinka Trinka! XD

2009-05-08T11:08:00.003+08:00

I love cupcakes~ I love them, I seriously do.. yes, it seems girly, but they're so pretty~ nyaaaa~!!! XDXD

Yay for pinky gheyy cupcakes! Hoorey for purple bithcy ones! Xlol

Anyway, more good news~ Linkin Park ish coming out with a new single, called "New Divide" will come out on May 18th and guess what.... its the theme song for Transformers:Revenge of the Fallen!! OMGOMGOMGOMOGMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I totally goota sse the movie! mnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwww!!!!!!!!

Hahahaha, gotta love 'em~ XD

Etoo.... mmmm... i want cupcakes la. Hahhahahahahahahaha~ (Actually I forgot what I wanted to blog about~ nyaaaaaaa~~~!!!!!! *kena piak*)

It rains in My Heart When the Sky Cries

2009-05-07T15:46:00.002+08:00

I think I'm depressed. =.=''

Seriously~ Haaaaah.....I'm tired already. Mentally tired. I've had enough, I want out.
You know, these past few days have been stressing for me. One thing that is getting to me is my 3dmodelling work.
Well, I guess it suits me right for delaying and procrastinating so much. Damn, after my internet got cut only I realized how damn lazy I really am. For God's sake, imagine me sleeping or doing random stupid stuff instead of working on my 3dmodelling.. I mean, I do realize the fact that I keep delaying finishing it is because of something mentally bugging me, but, damn, 3 weeks! 3 WEEKS!!! arrghhh... and then when I DO WANNA START doing it, suddenly my pc got problem la... what the fcking hell la? Seriously, i cant take it!

Then yesterday I didn't know what I should do... keep quiet and ponteng my animation class today, or tell my lecturer, Dictator Ching and face him today~

I was actually scared... i knew what i should do, but i dont know why, i just couldn't find the answer. It may seem like nothing, ponteng class, and really, it isn't.. (hahhahhahahahahaha) but, you know, sometimes... its better to face your problems and be honest to yourself. My lecturer, he knew I had problems with modelling and so far, he has been helpful and tolerant throughout all the weeks I took to finish the first assignment. Bahhhh, I guess I ffel like I'm cheating myself in this subject. I know I can do it, but I just dont wanna do it. I suck, I hate myself for that.

Its funny, while I was thinking about what I should do, I suddenly was reminded of Hiro pon~ hahaha XD
ehemmm... Its cuz everytime I get myself into trouble like this I go emo and bitch about it to him... XDXDXD lol
Then he tells me what I should do, but then go "Oh, I know that.. just bitchin"...I mean.. whats the point? XDXD Aiyahh.. idiot...

Anyway, its like, when I'm faced with a problem, I know what I'm supposed to do.. but last night, I was such in a state of despair, I wanted to cry.. I felt helpless for some reason.. If I'm doing whats right, then why am I crying? Then it hit me. I had no faith in myself.

And thus continued with the thoughts of deadly despair, at the same time trying to cancel them out and think positive. After a while I was ok though, hahaha, and dictator-san said it was ok, but he said that I'll have to finish everything before the end of June, and get an A, or fail. Yea, A or FAIL. Nothing in between. XDXD lol *swt*

I decided to come today. Though I was depressed the whole time. I got a little "panic" or "anxiety"or something like that in class.. hahaha~ maybe not a real attack la, but I was worried and thinking bad thoughts till I couldn't control my feelings and cried~ T*T

I feel stupid now~~ grrrrrr.....

Anyway, now, I officially pledge my alliance to the Communist Dictator!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! *not a communist la, just saying XP*

*Looks at what I just wrote*
I'm damn messed up la. And annoying. And really.. WTFH?
Now.. where'd my ignorance go....? XD

Living One Step Closer

2009-05-06T10:59:00.003+08:00

I loved this song ever since the first time I heard it. Asong from my ultimately favourite band in the universe... but now, I finally can understand those words Chester was screaming. "Understand", as in feel, i can relate to the song.. I feel im living it now. Now I can appreciate the song more than ever.

"One Step Closer"
Linkin Park

I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
You'll find that out anyway

Just like before...

[Chorus:]
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

Just like before...

[Chorus]

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up,
shut up,
shut up

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up,
shut up,
shut up,
shut up

I'm about to BREAK

[Chorus]

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

and a little something extra... ;D [taken from Reanimation.. X3]

These are the places where I can feel
torn from my body My flesh, it peels
during this ride, we can cut up what we like
Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I have never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my face
Blood is a pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring

I'm a FREAKIN GENIUS!

2009-05-06T10:43:00.003+08:00

You know.. in my last post i said i was really into TTGL... im always at some point randomly fangirling something to the point it will get me into trouble.

DAMN!!!!!!!!

TTGL- episode 4~ downloaded at anime-eden.com
was REWATCHING it..

the first time when i dl the episode, i left it in my "downloads" folder... i couldnt move it to me "anime" foleder for some reason..
i tried to move it yesterday~ and still couldn't.. it said it was open in a different folder..blabla

so i decided to delete it, cuz i needed to arrange my files, etc to save my precious RAM...

and being the fcking genius i am, i DRAGGED the thing to the recycle bin. Accidently left it on my desktop though.....
dakara....

"windows has stopped working" over and over and OVER again.

I cant find a way to delete the stupid thing!!! I tried everything!!!!!!! omigosh... im gonna die..... IM GONNA FCKIN DIE!!!!!!!!!

Im.... falling...deeper... into despair.................... why world, WHY??!!??!!!

Diggin Down The Rabbit Hole... =.=

2009-04-30T18:25:00.003+08:00

I'm addicted.

Tengen Toppa Guren Lagann. Damn, freakin awesome!! XD What've I been watchin all this while? XD Why did it take me so long to watch this? Dammit. I suck. Well... someone ish laughing now..... =.= BAHHHHHH!!!

I want to be a hikikomori!

2009-04-29T10:48:00.005+08:00

I'm bored. And cold.

And I took my L nendoroid picture and made it into a random desktop wallpaper.

Cuz people say my wallpaper is always empty and too simple I tried to do one with more things going on. I have no idea if I failed or passed. All I know is that I love alice nine.

I love my Gintama Surprise one though.. <33

I want to become a true blue hikikomori!! (Not a spamming-hikiko, ok, a REAL one)

Because I am an Evil Tagging Person...

2009-04-29T10:35:00.003+08:00

And I tag.. YOU!

Dear tagging people... in my recent tagging affair, the 12 character thingy.. yea.. well, i did that as an experiment.... <.<

Etoo... well, I was curious on how people would react if i directly and specifically tagged them, and and what they would say at my ever so lovely nicknames I gave everyone...

And the result: you guys didnt dissapoint. I guessed who would and wouldnt answer me tag....XDXDXD although i didnt expect some things... like Lulu onee chan didnt even notice I tagged her.. hahaha~ Or Hiro kun didnt bitch about me calling him ecchi hebiwolf~~ but I swear i could feel his anger yo... hahahahhaah XDXDXDD

Or shagy actually LIKED being called Ratu Shark Poyo.. =.=

I actually learned a lot from everyones reactions.. baahhh~ I wont reveal anything here though~ hahaha >D

I appoligize if anyone feels used~ hahah admit it, that tag was fun~~ XDXD I love tagging~

Bwahahahaha! I AM AN EVIL TAGGING PERSON!

2009-04-19T23:17:00.011+08:00

I stole this from a German/Polish/Swedish/I dont know actually person. >D
Jyaa, follow the very little instructions, and pick fictional characters~

Choose 12 characters, then answer the questions.

1. Sakata Gintoki- Gintama
2. Yagami Raito- Death Note
3. Osaki Nana- Nana
4. L- Death Note
5. Enma Ai- Jigoku Shoujo
6. Dean Winchester- Supernatural (ok. im watching supernatural and loving it~ =.=)
7. Harry Potter- Harry Potter
8. Neo- The Matrix
9. Edogawa Conan- Detective Conan
10. Merlin- Merlin
11. Kagura- Gintama
12. Mogami Kyouko- Skip Beat

1. Who could be better professor on the college, 6 or 11? Which subject could they teach?

DEAN! Definitely Dean~ haha.. forever shall I be awake in class... and if it was Kagura.. OMG.. everyday sukonbu! And she'll steal my candy! And never understand cuz of her weird accent!

Dean- Mechanics and stuff about engines and cars~
Kagura- Culinary Arts

But seriously, both can teach physical education best.. LOL!

2. Do you think that 4 is sexy? How much?

HELL YEAAAAAAHHHH! Smexy to the power of infinity! YAY for sugar-addict weirdos!

3. 12 sends 8 on a mission. What kind of mission is this and will it be succesfull?

Ok, Kyoko gets this character that is supposed to be a super hacker and orders Neo to prep her for the part. Neo, being the super complicated paranoid being he is, interprets this as Kyouko wanting to mentor him on ways to surpress his evil inside him and thus becoming the pure chosen one Morphius has been bitchin' everyone about. Neo takes Kyouko through backdoors and questioning "why must Kyouko become a hacker" and "Is Kyouko even real" and "Why am I listening to someone who isn't even real, but seems so real, but in fact is just a 2d being"?

bla, bla, bla.... yea, PHAIL.

4. What is (or could be) favourite book of 9?

duhhh.... SHERLOCK HOLMES! hahaha, too easy~ (and to think he would be no.9..)

5. What could make more sense: That 2 is telling dirty things to 6 or 6 to 2?

omgomgomgomgogmg... LOL RAITO TELLING DIRRRTY THANGS TO DEAN~ XD oh, yagami kun, you~ hahaha XD
(for the ignorant, its obviously Dean who'll be talking dirt.)

6. For some reason, 5 looks for a lodger. Should s/he live with 9, or 10?

For some reason... Enma Ai gets kicked outta hell. And since Conan kun is a man(yea, MAN) of science, than Ai chan would be better of with Merlin. Oh, Merlin.. he'd love to become Enma's apprentice, wouldn't he? XD

7. 2, 7 and 12 are eating dinner/supper together. Where will they go and about what they will talk?

WOW. Immpressive. Etoo... Raito kun will be tempting Kyouko with his Death Note, saying that she can easily get rid of Shou with the flick of her pen... And Kyouko will be goin' all Princess Underworld... liking the ideas of killing Shou in various ways and getting away with it. I see... Raito kun and Kyouko become a very nice match. WOOO! Cool fan-fiction weiyh! Oh yea.. and Harry will be just staring into space.. being quiet... and looking down at his meal..... thinking that using that Death note is a convinient way to kill Voldermort. :D

8. 3 challenges 10 for a duel. What happens?

And Merlin shall fall.... due to the ultra-awesomeness of NANA! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!

9. If 1 could steal 9's most precious thing, how 9 could get it back?

With his abnormal detective skills... pfft. <.<

10. Suggest a title for the tale, where 7 and 12 get the thing they always wanted?

REVENGE OF THE PURE HEARTS

11. What would you think up (in storyline) if you want, that 4 and 1 would be together?

OMG. MORE SUPER COOL/WEIRD FANFICS! YAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaOoooooooOOOOOOOIiiiiiiiiIIIIIIIiiiiiiii Anyway, one day, Gintoki just gets back from his adventure.. he seperated from Shinpachi and Kagura and visited his favorite shop that sells the most delicious, splendid, beautiful, sweet, extravagant stawberry parfait in the whole universe. But unfortunately they just ran out of strawberries... dakara, no strawberry parfait for Gin chan. Sugar deprived, he asked the waitress who got the last strawberry parfait, and the waitress pointed at this guy... with black hair and white shirt, sitting in an abnormal manner (i suck at writing, so just deal with it. =.=) L noticed the puppy dog eyes of Gintoki and sat there, staring back athim silently. 10 mins pass and they still were staring at each other, until finally Gintoki broke the silence and said "if you share that lovely starwberry parfait with me, I shall lend you my JUMP... and give you half of my secret choco stash!!!" With nothing to lose, L said "OK" and the lovely couple shared the lucious strawberry parfait together. The end.

12. If 7 could visit you in the weekend, how could you spend your time?

Play quidditch... and "accidently" hit Harry hard on the face... a couple of times... >D

13. If you could order 3 to do one thing for you, what kind of thing would it be?

Be my ultra-cool big sister and teach me the guitar! (ok, that was 2.. so what? =.=)

14. Is someone from your friends draws or writes about 11?

Hhahaha, that would be Kay... XD

15. If 2 would have to choose between 4 and 5, who would s/he choose?

My God... its like FATE how i put these characters in order.. :P
Well, love rules them all! Raito kun! I KNOW YOU LOVE HIM! Even when you have to pick between him and the powerful hell girl! Hahahhaahhaha!!

16. What could be 10's battle scream?

WHY IS THIS MY FAAAAATEE????!!!!!!!!!???! (gets his head straight) FOR CAMELOT!!!!! FOR ARTHUR!!! <--- youknowwhatimthinking~ XDlol

17. If you could choose the song that represents 8, what song could that be?

I have no idea why... but, Discoteque-U2 lol

18. 1, 6 and 12 are sitting in dark, chinese restaurant. There's only one pancake left and everyone reach for it in last while... Finish it.

But Kyouko notices Dean and Gintoki both want it, so she reluctantly backs off.. meanwhile, both Dean and Gin are barking at each other while trying to get one another distracted by yelling random things. Finally Dean takes out his gun and Gin takes out his sword and decide to duel it out. Kyouko asks them nicely to keep it down and to share the last pancake but she gets rudely ignored. Dean starts shooting like hell as Gin manages to dodge the bullets, but accidently hits Kyouko. Being pissed off, Kyouko the turns EVILER-THAN-SADAKO-SAMA nad beats the crap out of both Dean and Gintoki, while taking the pancake and feeding it to her evil devil auras.

19. What could tell 2 to 10, if he would want to go on date with him/her?

I can treat you better than Arthur. Come and join me~ We can create a better world together.. by my side~

20. For what most likely the 5 could be arrested?

Mass murder.

21. What is 6's secret?

He enjoyed hell, and f*** an angel. D<

22. If 11 and 9 would race, who would be first?

duhh~ Kagura chan of course. hahaha, she'll be so in frontof midget conan I can imagine her running backwards and teasing him.. showing him dumbass faces and going "Useless megane-midget aru! Go suck milk and grow taller aru!"

23. 1 and 9 reluctantly save the world together, from the secret organisation ruled by 4. 11 offers them their help, but later it is shown that he's 4's spy in reality. In the meantime, 4 kidnaps 12, to force them to surrender. Guided by 5's wise advice, they are looking for 3, which gives them what they need to finish their quest. What title could you give to this fanfic? Choose 3 people from friends list who could read it. Choose one, who could write it..
(im gonna ignore the read/write part lol!! XD)

And I call it... "In Pursuit of Justice" fck yea, i ripped that off, but you think i really care? BWAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! >D >D

And I shall tag more than 3 ppl! In fact, I shall tag specifically! Because I am an evil person! hahahahahaha

And the victims are: *drumroll*

- Shagy the Ratu Shark Poyo
- Shounen Neko Masahiro
- Mizz Pinku Joanne
- Kuro Kuro Kurocherub Chan
- Kay, Master of ze Chiii-kens
- Rocker Tegar Hiro Echi Hebiwolf <-- XD i know this will annoy you like hell.. I AM EVIL! And update your blogla! D< - Neko Musume Lulu Onee chan
- Root of all things boring virus hongo kanata lover vivi chan
- (also, for some reason)Always number 2 spammer Wen
- Halo stealer HeavenDeavil
- KacangNami ImanNut

testing testing

2009-04-11T15:40:00.003+08:00

why hello there~ ^^
im actually trying to test something out
here you can notice what it is actually haha

i'll be deleting this post later~

Hope It Gives You Hell [Stolen from Kay Kay]

2009-04-10T23:59:00.004+08:00

I'm bored like hell. I feel empty and hatred filling up inside me. Oh well, at least I can release tension with random hate mail~ Kay, I stole from you~ hahaha

Dear (the first person that comes to your mind).I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - CastratePink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scared
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

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Dear Shagy.
I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it when that night at the mental hospital and I saw you ignore my best friend. I'm sure you're scared enough to understand that Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep my virginity as a memory. You should also know that I never will forget embarrassing rash.

Fuck off now,
Miyuki♥

○_○ 100?! OMG, You Gotta Be Kidding Me! [Tagged by a ShounenNeko]]

2009-04-05T14:58:00.002+08:00

Tagged by Masahiro kun~ aiyaahh... should I answer truthfully? Oh well, I'll answer according to my truth~ HAHAHAHA >D

001. Real Name : It doesnt concern you. All you need to know that officially, I go by the name "Hana"

002. Nickname(s) : Miyuki Sadako(screen name), Miyuki (nice mode), Sadako (angst mode), Yuki Chan (Yone chan calls me that, and only Yone!), Miyu Chan (If someone unapproprite calls me by that so moe name, i sall KILL), Duyung (Mr.Lim!!! D<), Miko (shagy bodoh =.=), and..... the pyonkichi chan (i swear, if someone other then Pyon calls me that, I'll stab that person to death) <------- wah, a lot eh? =.='''''

003. Age : 19 yrs 16 months

004. Zodiac Sign : Snake... hehhe

005. Male or Female : SheMale

006. Elementary : SK Kelana Jaya 2 (1997-2000), Sk Putrajaya 2 (2000-2001), before 1997, i remains a secret from all of you... muahahaha

007. Middle School: SMK Putrajaya 1
008. High School : SMK Putrajaya 1

009. College School : Segi College Subang Jaya

010. Hair colour : Soon to be blonde like ruki! XD

011. Long or Short : Long.. T^T, gonna potong soon! yea!

012. Loud or Quiet : depends~

013. Sweats or Jeans : sweats~ XDXD how nerdy is that? Ah, janji i feel comfy to sleep~ haha

014. Phone or Camera : Camera Phone

015. Health Freak : BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAH DONT MAKE ME LAUGH!

016. Drink or Smoke : I frown upon thos trecherous things!

017. Do you have a crush on someone : If you mean my various fangirl crushings, then yea. If you mean as in someone around me, NO.

018. Eat or Drink : What I live my life for.

019. Piercings : Not yet~ hehehehe

020. Tattoos : No... I like it natural~ XDXD

021. Social or Anti-Social: ANTI! AND PROUD OF IT!

022. First Piercing : Wait.. in a few months maybe~ haha

023. First Relationship : baaaaahh~

024. First Best Friend : some bitch.. but if its REAL bf, then... shagy!!!! hug hug!

025. First Award : Can't remember~ =___=

026. First Kiss : Mama♥

027. First Pet : Neko chan

028. First Big Vacation : Back in 199...6? i think.. to the U.S

029. First Love at first sight: Hiroto~ XD

030. First Big Birthday : Sometime when I was a kid.. pffft~ I want cake NOW!

Currently
049. Eating : TT^TT feed me~
050. Drink : air kosong..............
051. Excitement Level : very low, almost zero
052. I'm about to : go toilet
053. Listening to : Filth in the Beauty (Gazette), Drella (Alicenine), Rock You (Olivia)
054. Plan for today : Trying to complete 3d modelling, surfing the net, procrastinating
055. Waiting for : food, this to end~
056. Energy Level : none.
057. Thinking of someone: Kenichi, and for some reason, Chui Lee.. miss you~ v.v
058. Want kids? : see la.
059. Want to get married?: YEA!!!! XDXDXD (phail)
060. Careers in mind? : Something that lets me earn a lot. And dont have to work on weekends~
068. Lips or Eyes? : emm.. in what? opposite sex? then....... both! XD (kenichi!!!!!!!♥♥♥♥♥♥)
069. Romantic or Funny? : again, what? aiyaahh~ *see above*
070. Shorter or Taller? : TALLER!!!! TALLER!!!!!! XD (talking about guys rite?? =.=)
071. Protective or Caring? : *im assuming you're taling about my ideal guy.. =.=* both then~
072. Romantic or Spontaneous? : Sponatneous~ haha
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: ~>.>
074. Sensitive or Loud? : Nice mix in between
075. Hook-up or Relationship? : im single, and alone in this world... wuuwuuuwuu~~
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? : *devil smile*
080. Lost glasses or contacts : 2 glasses missing *if found, pls return to me, sankyuu*
081. Ran away from home : tried to.. phail
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: >D
083. Killed somebody : >D
084. Broken someone's heart : heart, mind, body and soul... etoo.... but not in a romantic relationship la~ ahaaaa~
085. Been arrested : NEVA! I'm too genius to be caught! XD
087. Cried when someone died : No one close to me has died yet...

Do you Believe in,
089. Yourself : ngeeh~
090. Miracles : myaaaww~
091. Love at first sight: BAAAAAHH!!
092. Heaven : yeaaaa...
093. Santa Claus : hehehehehe
094. Tooth Fairy : of course~
095. Kiss in the first date: TToTT
097. Is there someone you would want to be with right now? : Pyon chan.... nak ikut gi holland!! T^T
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? : NOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

099. Do you believe in God? : Yes! ^^
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people: It was not really 100 truths

And the victims are:

Ayumu Shagy Poyo Chan

Whoever that han't got a life.

I took a good... 30 mins or so to answer that... gosh, masahiro kun...... so evil~ XD

Why?! Why do I abuse myself??!! T^T

2009-03-31T14:03:00.004+08:00

WTFH is wrong with me?!!?!! I keep scaring the crap outta myself by going to freaky ghost sites when I'm all alone in my very extremely creepy house (for anyone who has been to my house, you will understand)! My house is at the very far end lot, with the 2 houses on the right side completely vacant (its been like that for some years) and the left side got some bachelors living there, but come home at night~

Creepy la... the other day I heard this weird knocking noise coming from next door.... from the right side.... at the wall of the staircase..... TT^TT

Sometimes I just dismiss all creepy noises I hear and assume its my idiotic cats doing it, cuz usually it is! XDXDXDD

But I'm still wondering about this inicdent that happened a couple of years ago... one night I was lying down on me bed, emm, blur. With the lights on. XDXD Then all of a sudden got this tapping noise from my window (hahaha, me don't close the window... :P) As usual, went ignored. But it went on, and I realized it was tapping on the grill of my window... wasn't that kinda strange? =.= Then when I started to pay attention the fwking noise went faster and louder~ Then all of a sudden it was like a finger was poking my curtains~

OK FREAK OUT TIME!!!!!

Then I panicked and just suddenlly made some noises with my phone.. (hahaaha, i opened push me away ringtone XDXDD) and suddenly the "finger thingy" quickly pull away. So then I ran and shouted for my brother, next to my room~ hahahaa, only time he comes in handy >D

He checked outside and couldn't see anything. Nothing. Then he shut my windows and old me it was probably my imagination. Then I told my mom. She said she was in the kitchen, directly below my room, preparing fish for my cats, and was standing at the sink, which is directly below my window. She said she saw and heard nothing.

After that, I went back up to my room and continued to zone out. The tapping suddenly continued.... then I was like "FWK, SHUT UP! I'M GONNA IGNORE YOU, SO FWK OFF!!" (in my mind la XDD lol) and went to sleep. The end.

The tapping noise never continued, but im still wondering..

How come my mama didn't hear anything, cuz she was directly below my window? If it was someone, then my mama should have heard it, rite?

If it was something... then why the heck it stopped tapping after it hear the sound from my phone? What? Afraid of Linkin Park?

My conclusion is: There was someone on top of my roof, trying to rob my house that night. Cuz a while after that, I heard one of my neighbour's saw a person on top of her roof.

THATS WHY I HATE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!

I HATE THEM MORE THAN ANYTHING!! HUMAN NATURE CAN'T BE TRUSTED!! SEE WHAT'S HAPPENING IN OUR SOCIETY TODAY!!! THAT'S WHY I HATE "GHOST" STORIES WHERE THE "GHOST" IS HUMAN!!! BAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, now for some happy thoughts... :D

ok, back to hunting for a haunted house D<~